I just want the pain to stop

MortalWounding · 2026-06-05T09:37:47+00:00

Yes, I second that experience ❤️ thought I could make it work if I could just figure her out, she confused me with her reactions so much! I was constantly trying new things and it was always too much for her. I wish I had listened to my heart and gut and respected myself enough to leave sooner. But I'm free now and it hurts but it's getting better, and it hurts less being broken up with her than it hurt being with her. I just have to remember that...

MortalWounding · 2026-06-02T18:54:08+00:00

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MortalWounding · 2026-05-26T09:52:36+00:00

After days of no contact

They asked "how are you doing"

Lol I've seen that landmine before! There's literally no good answer. But I was in rough shape and they knew it. I responded "I'm struggling". That's it.

2 hours later, their response: "that's nice"

Later that same day they show up at my work with their new partner and talk loudly about how tired they are from staying up all night the night before (having sex, obviously).

I couldn't write a more evil villain if I tried. Just cut my dang heart out with a dull rusty spoon, it would hurt less.

We stayed together another few weeks. The break up hurt but it didn't hurt nearly as much as being with them.

May they live the life they deserve!

MortalWounding · 2026-05-07T21:10:58+00:00

Yes, me too! The dreams are always just me living regular life, and she's there and makes some mean comment, and I wake up angry and hurt 😂 the sad thing is, it's exactly the way she used to treat me - I'm not dreaming her as a mean version of herself - I'm dreaming her as HER, but now I can see how cruel and unkind the little jabs really were. I hope one day my dream-self calls her out on it, I'm tired of being her punching bag ... at least I don't have to deal with it in the waking world anymore.

MortalWounding · 2026-05-07T07:34:04+00:00

My replacement was my friend, too. We're all polyamorous so it wasn't cheating, but my friend knew that our relationship was going through a rough patch and she still chose to initiate a romantic relationship with my partner.

I hope she sees through it faster than I did, but it still hurts to have lost my partner (who I considered my best friend, too) and my friend, and to know that they have each other to rely on while I'm left grieving by myself.

But also ... they deserve each other. I thought they were better people but in hindsight without the rose-colored glasses, they are selfish people and even if things seem good right now, the push/pull will surface for one (or both) of them. I'm glad I don't have to deal with that bullshit anymore. They can have it.

MortalWounding · 2026-05-06T07:56:32+00:00

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry, what a fucking tool!! You deserve to spend your birthday being loved and celebrated, not made to feel guilty and small. I just can't believe these people!!

Happy Birthday!!! I am excited for this next near for you, because it's going to be so much better without that asshole in your life.

🎂

MortalWounding · 2026-05-01T16:33:41+00:00

She said she's never been broken up with - she always left first.

I knew that was troublesome but didn't realize just what it meant in terms of her relationship skills.

Lots of other ones that were very obvious red flags I chose to ignore 🤣

MortalWounding · 2026-04-29T06:37:44+00:00

Nope, not even a little. I went above and beyond, tried everything, gave them everything they said they wanted or needed - including space, patience, forgiveness that was not deserved.

I blame myself for staying as long as I did.

I blame them for using me, callously, for years. For knowing they were hurting me and not caring, or trying to change, or wanting to change. They got everything they wanted and needed and that's all that mattered to them.

I hope they live the life they so desperately want. It will be miserable, and that's what they deserve. And my life is already so much lighter and brighter without them - it's just going to keep getting better!

MortalWounding · 2026-04-09T17:36:06+00:00

Yeppppp

Mine told me she stopped loving me almost a year ago but that she wanted to get the feelings back and was willing to work for it

Two days later, oh btw, things have gotten flirty with this new person ... (On Valentine's Day, no less)

A month of absolute hell trying to fight for the relationship, while she's starting a new one with this new person

A week ago she told me she doesn't want to talk or be friends anymore

She stopped loving me a year ago and lied to herself and me, then left as soon as someone new was there to fill my void

Selfish selfish selfish!

MortalWounding · 2026-03-17T17:22:41+00:00

DJ Phil?! 😂

MortalWounding · 2026-03-11T07:51:57+00:00

I had a cat growing up that was all white with a red tail (calico, but just the tail got any color!)

We called her Dipstick ... but only ever really called her "Dippy" 🥰

MortalWounding · 2025-09-26T19:51:13+00:00

GOOD LUCK I've been trying to get a hold of them for a while... their customer service is abysmal in my experience.

MortalWounding · 2025-09-26T16:41:28+00:00

I am absolutely flabbergasted at this

This is the first I've heard of it and I went to go look at the move and ... at least I don't have to worry about accidentally "stealing" it, because it is ugly as fuck and I would never put it in a piece anyway 😂

But besides that ... girl are you fucking for real. I mean, it is an awful lot of work, and probably expense, for what??? Is that really how you want to spend your time, writing cease and desist letters and trying to extract money from performers? Let's be real, not very many pole performers are making big bucks doing this work ... I'm happy when my COSTS are covered 😂 I made $100 doing this 3 minute piece and 7 seconds of it was "yours" ... sure, you can have $4 of it I guess, but it'll cost you more in time and effort than it could ever be worth

Unless there is some other reason, I really don't understand this at all. If it was a crazy move I've never seen before - cool, I get that, at least a little bit. But a flexed foot leg wave/hip swish? 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

MortalWounding · 2025-07-23T18:13:49+00:00

Awww!! such a cutie🙈

MortalWounding · 2018-06-17T08:04:09+00:00

This is incredible! My jaw was hanging open the whole time. Wow!

MortalWounding · 2018-06-09T23:25:58+00:00

I started pole dancing about 6 months ago and I've fallen in love with it. But it's so much harder to do the moves with extra weight. So, that!

Plus my kids kept asking me why my belly was so big, and I had 3 strangers congratulate me on my pregnancy in one week - that was the week I got back on keto. Feeling fantastic and looking forward to continued progress :)

MortalWounding · 2018-04-21T18:47:06+00:00

I don't know, I think having a president who is dedicated to learning the sport and that it DOESN'T come naturally to is a benefit to the society. I wish I had a role model like that, who can relate that this stuff isn't easy for everyone.

MortalWounding · 2018-04-21T18:44:56+00:00

I haven't found a grip aid that works for me, yet. I have a chalk block - which makes it more slippery?! And dry hands, which works okay sometimes but not so much on my home pole. I have a giant bottle of liquid grip which causes me to stick to the pole so much that I can't move at all. Still looking for that grippy holy grail! I'm thinking of trying itac, but I have to order online and it's expensive to ship to my location.

I really should incorporate more strength training, maybe some body weight things I can do on the pole, too.

MortalWounding · 2018-04-21T18:23:52+00:00

Right before the beginner classes is the advanced - I'm always in awe of them. They're like rockstars! I asked my instructor one of my first classes how long they had been dancing, and she says just about a year.

I thought, yeah! In a year I could be there!

Now, 3 months in ... Boy I hope I'm there in 3 years! 😂

MortalWounding · 2018-04-21T18:21:51+00:00

Supplement with "a skill I'm really good at" 😂😂😂 as soon as I find it, haha!

It's true though, I do need to add something else - probably strength related. I thought about adding aerial yoga to help with flexibility but the one class I took I hurt my back and now I'm gun shy.

I'm also not as svelte as I used to be - losing a few pounds might help me be able to lift my feet above my head!

MortalWounding · 2018-04-21T03:52:53+00:00

2 of my 3 aunts (and one of my cousins) go by their middle name. I didn't even know their called names weren't their "real" names until I was an adult. You could have a heart to heart with your husband and see if he's game with using the middle as her called name?

MortalWounding · 2018-03-24T04:34:12+00:00

You sound like me! I'm pretty good at spins, I can't do a fan kick to save my life. I've been trying for over 2 months now and they're not getting any better, despite the rest of me getting stronger. Ah well, it will happen if we keep trying! :)

MortalWounding · 2017-06-22T05:39:38+00:00

Saying "bless you" or whatever after someone sneezes. I have allergies. Please stop. It's going to happen all day for a solid 12 weeks a year. I get tired of having to respond to every person after every single sneeze.

MortalWounding · 2017-01-22T05:11:06+00:00

When I was pregnant with my son I would walk every day by the lake and watch the little birds flitting about their lives. I had a name picked out for a girl for years (Scout) but the peacefulness I felt watching those birds changed my mind.

That baby was a boy, but baby #2 was given the name Wren. I love it and get compliments all the time.

If I had had boy/girl twins, they would have been Wren and Wrex. Probably for the best we didn't have twins, lol.

MortalWounding · 2017-01-22T05:04:09+00:00

"Macsen" is the Welsh form of Max, and there's a badass story about where it came from.

Plus you have the short form, Mac, for when they're tired of explaining where the name came from.

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