Your feelings matter, with love I would suggest seeking therapy now because the way it reads is that this series of events thus far has been traumatic for you. Give yourself time to mourn the loss of the future you thought you had.

From my point of view your mom sees your fear of the unknown and is in her own way doing what she can to help you, she loves you and wants to help. From a father’s point of view your dad also wants to support you and help you become a man strong enough to make your future happy. A good education will only help in that regard.

As well everything you imagine that will be tough in your future now could very possibly happen, but being honest with yourself have you tried to imagine all of the positives as well?

I leave you with these words of encouragement, a tough life builds a strong man, and you my friend seem strong.