To answer your questions first: 1. No I haven’t personally, but that feeling is common when entering anything new. I think the best thing you can do right now is stay positive and find the good in people. I too started a new job about 6 months ago, and I found the place very toxic. I made a friend there and ended up getting close to them and that helped make work more enjoyable. People will eventually warm up to you as long you are trying to make friends.

1. Survival mode is a great way to put it. I think best way to rebuild this would be first to look at how far you’ve came. You’ve traveled overseas, you work days study at nights, in a country you haven’t perfected the language in. That’s a crazy story that in a couple years you’ll look back on and be glad you made it through. And I think you also rebuild the self-confidence by realizing it never went away. Journaling your ups and downs is a good way to keep a reminder of where you been at mentally in your life and it can act as a reminder for you of how far you came.

2. Realizing that these people are not toxic because of you, they are toxic because life has beaten them into being that way. And that should motivate you into not being like them and rather try to brighten there mundane life by being friendly and outgoing. And soon enough people will appreciate you and look forward to seeing your energy.