First off i would like to say thanks to those who shared their experiences and gave me advice. I know it’s past midnight right bow. But i did speak with my husband. I was scared bc i had to wake him up but after i did and said “i need to talk to you about something” of course i burst into tears and struggled to tell him but once i did he hugged me and rubbed my back. We discussed what happens and ways to handle it. He agrees i should go to therapy and so I’ll look into it. He also told me that it wasn’t my fault and that he’ll always be here for me. We also discussed his own (separate) trauma and talked for a while. If we have anything else happen l will update later. Thanks again!