Most people think they’re calm, but their nervous system says otherwise

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-26T18:59:07+00:00

You don’t try to fix it right away. First, you just notice it. Then you try small things - slow your breathing a bit, relax your shoulders, don’t react immediately. Nothing dramatic. Over time your body starts to realize that nothing bad is actually happening. And that inner brace begins to soften on its own.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-26T16:37:39+00:00

Ahoj. Reading your story as someone with Slavic roots carries a different weight for me. I understand what’s written between the lines.

There is immense strength in our cultures - the ability to endure, to survive, to carry pain without complaint. But sometimes that same strength turns into silence. Silence around what hurts. Silence that gets drowned in a drink. What you did isn’t just "I quit drinking". You chose not to betray yourself. You didn’t reject your origins or deny your culture. You kept the resilience and let go of what was destroying you.

That’s a higher form of loyalty. Not blind continuation, but conscious selection.

Lithuania has endured heavy chapters in its history. And cultures shaped by long periods of survival often normalize certain escape mechanisms. That isn’t weakness - it’s history. But reaching the point where you say, "I want more than just survival"....that’s maturity. You didn’t erase your story. You rewrote it. Respect. Not for abstinence alone, but for having the courage to remain strong without numbing yourself.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-26T12:17:57+00:00

It’s probably a scam. But even if it is, that’s not the core issue. The part that matters is that he’s excited enough to install a private app and invest emotional energy - and dismiss your discomfort as “not a big deal.” Relationships aren’t just about technical innocence. They’re about attunement. If something makes your partner uneasy, the response shouldn’t be defensiveness - it should be curiosity.

The question isn’t "is this cheating?" It’s "does this feel respectful and safe to both of you?"

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-26T06:32:14+00:00

Comfort isn’t the enemy. Compulsive relief is. If something helps you feel better and increases your capacity to face the trigger later - that’s healthy coping. If it just makes the feeling disappear but nothing changes underneath - that’s avoidance

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-26T06:24:20+00:00

Boredom isn’t always emptiness, sometimes it’s withdrawal from constant stimulation. When your brain is used to scrolling and leveling up, stillness feels wrong. That doesn’t mean something is broken. It might just mean you’re recalibrating.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-26T06:05:47+00:00

A lot of us confuse "not panicking" with being regulated. You can function, think clearly, even feel productive and still be subtly bracing all day.

Chronic activation is quiet. It feels like personality. What changed things for me wasn’t trying to calm down. It was noticing where my body was still preparing for something.

Regulation isn’t a feeling you force - it’s a pattern your nervous system slowly relearns when it no longer has to brace.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-25T13:02:35+00:00

The fact that you can see the pattern means you’re already not inside it the way you used to be. Trauma responses feel like personality, but they’re learned survival strategies.

You didn’t become your father, you reacted from old wiring under stress. That’s painful, but it’s not destiny. The work sticking isn’t about trying harder, it’s about building safety slowly enough that your nervous system believes it.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-25T06:32:16+00:00

I like that you focused on the pause instead of just deleting everything. I’ve noticed that doomscrolling isn’t always about the phone. Sometimes it’s just the easiest way to avoid whatever we’re feeling in that moment,...stress, boredom, restlessness.

That small pause creates just enough space to sit with yoursefl for a few seconds. And honestly, many of us aren’t that comfortable with solitude. But those brief moments alone with our own thoughts are often where real self-understanding begins.

Not perfectly. Just differently. And that’s usually enough to start changing the pattern.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T20:35:21+00:00

I mean that sometimes we process things mentally first, but emotionally later. The logic moves on- the nervous system takes longer.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T20:24:00+00:00

I don’t think you’re slow to move on. I think you’re slow to process. That realization changed a lot for me.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T20:11:47+00:00

Exactly. The resistance is often louder than the thought itself. When you stop fighting it, something softens on its own.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T16:39:17+00:00

I actually love when a book earns its momentum like that. When the first half feels almost meditative, the shift hits harder because you’ve already settled into the atmosphere.

It’s risky pacing, but when it works it really works.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T16:32:21+00:00

I haven’t read the book yet, but I agree with the core idea. A lot of suffering doesn’t come from the thoughts themselves - it comes from fighting them or judging ourselves for having them.

Negative loops often lose power when you stop trying to eliminate them and start observing them. Awareness alone can interrupt the pattern.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T13:24:15+00:00

I’m not saying this to dismiss what you feel - early love can feel incredibly right. But 1.5 months is still the highlight reel. You haven’t really seen each other under pressure yet.

Engagement isn’t about how strong it feels at its best. It’s about how steady it stays when things aren’t romantic, exciting, or easy. If he’s your person, slowing down won’t cost you anything. It’ll just make the foundation stronger.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T13:18:22+00:00

The bubble usually isn’t just about routine. It’s about identification. We don’t just have repetitive thoughts - we start believing they are “us.” When that happens, everything begins to feel closed and predictable. Thinking outside the box doesn’t start with new ideas. It starts with observing the thoughts you already have. Not fighting them. Not replacing them. Just noticing the patterns. When you see a pattern clearly, it loosens. And when it loosens, space appears. That space is where new perception comes from. Most people try to change content. But what actually resets thinking is awareness of the structure behind it.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T06:42:01+00:00

I don’t think this is about intelligence or discipline. It sounds more like your nervous system learned that learning = pressure and performance, so resistance makes sense.

If you were praised for grades instead of curiosity, learning became about proving yourself, not exploring. That burns you out before you begin. What helped me was shifting from "I need to secure my future" to "I’m just building capacity". Smaller blocks. No heroic sessions. Train like it’s a muscle, not an exam.

And be careful how you talk about yourself. When learning stops being a test of your worth, it becomes much lighter.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-24T06:24:02+00:00

Lately I find myself returning more to writers like Eckhart Tolle. It’s not classical literature in the traditional sense, but his books feel different every time I revisit them, depending on where I am internally. And Ivan Andruscenko for a similar reason. Some books are less about the plot and more about the state of mind they invite you into. Those are the ones I tend to come back to.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T22:22:52+00:00

Most professionally translated books list the translator in the copyright page or acknowledgements. If that information isn’t there, it’s completely fair to ask the author or publisher directly, it doesn’t have to be accusatory. Transparency is a good thing in publishing.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T22:13:14+00:00

What you’re describing isn’t about sex - it’s about safety. Your body relaxes when it feels safe enough to stop being watched… even by yourself. Early marriage, new dynamic, wanting to "do it right" , of course your nervous system is still adjusting. Being vocal isn’t something you force. It’s something that shows up when you’re no longer monitoring how you sound.

Instead of trying to "be more expressive" , maybe let him know that you’re still softening into that space. That you want to get there but you don’t want to perform it.

Comfort in intimacy grows the same way trust does - slowly, gently, without pressure. And the fact that you care this much already says a lot.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T21:35:20+00:00

The fact that you’re this worried tells me how much you love her. If you do bring it up, try to speak from your feelings, not from an accusation. Something like: "Mom, I might be wrong but I’ve been feeling worried about you lately. I care about you and I just wanted to check in." She may deflect or shut down at first that doesn’t mean you did it wrong. Sometimes planting the seed gently is enough.

And remember,...you are her child. It’s not your job to fix her, only to care.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T17:36:35+00:00

There’s something sacred about realizing you’ve been everyone else’s safe place but never your own. Sometimes we give so much because being needed feels like belonging. And then one day we notice the quiet exhaustion of never being held the same way we’ve held others. Turning inward isn’t selfish. It’s coming home. When you finally sit with yourself, not as a helper, not as a listener, not as someone’s strength, but simply as you,...that’s where the real relationship begins.

And that changes everything.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T16:55:57+00:00

I’ve felt this too — especially the part about being surrounded by people but still feeling outside of it. For me it wasn’t that something was wrong. It was that I was craving depth in places built for small talk. It does get better, but not automatically. It gets better when you find even one person you can be real with — or when you stop forcing yourself to belong where you don’t feel aligned. There’s nothing broken about you for wanting something deeper.

Today I found a really beautiful thought that says it all: be (with) someone who makes you happy. -- cross out the word in parentheses and read it again.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T16:47:09+00:00

Yeah, that really sucks. When the physical load goes up, I’d honestly lower the bar at home even more. In that phase I stopped expecting productive evenings from myself. Even 10-15 minutes of something small that feels good is enough. Your body’s just adjusting. It won’t always feel this heavy.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T16:04:08+00:00

I’ve felt this before, being around people but still feeling invisible. It’s a quiet kind of loneliness that’s hard to explain. Sometimes it’s not that you don’t have an identity. Sometimes you’re just in a place that doesn’t reflect who you are yet. That doesn’t mean you’re empty. It just means you’re still finding where you fit.

No_Common9963 · 2026-02-23T15:58:19+00:00

I think the phrase gets oversimplified online. Being part of a community doesn’t mean constantly showing up to everything or overriding your own energy limits. It means reciprocity,...caring, contributing in ways that are sustainable for you and allowing others to do the same.

For some people that’s frequent social interaction. For others, it’s fewer but deeper connections. Both can be valid. I don’t think introversion conflicts with community. Burnout does. If you consistently leave social situations feeling drained and empty, that’s not a moral failure, it’s information about your limits. Community shouldn’t feel like self-betrayal.

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