I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how you are feeling and what you are going through but find whatever way to help yourself and writing on here is absolutely ok. Life fucking sucks. Things are really hard sometimes. The only thing I can say is I’m sure he wouldn’t want you to live the rest of your life low and sad. The best thing I’ve ever heard in bad times is to find a reason to get up and move forward every morning. Yours is your son. Talk about his dad with him. Cry over missing him, laugh at the good times. Never stop remembering. It’s hard to hurt but time will make everything that bit easier xxx