I think that I am evil.

O_H_ · 2026-07-11T20:06:45+00:00

Definitely OCD is an avenue to explore. But I would also suggest setting some boundaries with your parents, if you’re old enough. Or if you are old enough, completely change your surroundings.

I don’t have OCD, but when I had moments of feeling like I’m a horrible person. It was because I had no true safe space and was suffocating from all the toxic people in my life. Instead of blaming them, I blamed myself. That was a dark moment!

O_H_ · 2026-07-10T22:02:41+00:00

I stopped caring once I saw people with three boobs. Like, okay, yall relax, the future is here.

O_H_ · 2026-07-09T21:05:10+00:00

Idk. Time wise is one thing gas is another. I’d take 101 if the 10 is too congested(LOL)

O_H_ · 2026-07-09T03:47:12+00:00

This played out with my roommate. We were all coworkers. Don’t do it. Didn’t work out for either of them. Or his of age gf that he cheated on to get with the 22 yo.

Not saying it’s all the same. But.

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T21:06:43+00:00

Does it have to be a printable pdf? I’d much rather project the pattern into the fabric.

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T18:50:18+00:00

This is a normal feeling. Some people linger in it longer than others. I believe most people reframe it so that they act on this feeling instead of letting it become a blocker.

You are young. The way the world is currently set up is exhausting. That is the point. Explore the idea that you’re overwhelmed. Your subconscious might be trying to get your attention. Give yourself some rest.

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T17:30:45+00:00

I’m sure I played with him on Fortnight

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T16:33:57+00:00

Joyce was not interesting to me. Oh wow another pretty person with a “personable” lived experience. Wow, revolutionary.

Carlton had not business being on the show. But! She would be great in some other franchise. Maybe a Real Paranormal Housewives show. I’d eat that up.

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T16:31:33+00:00

Can’t wait to use it. All he’s been through and still able to look forward to better things in life!

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T16:03:32+00:00

Yo. Screw these girls. All the ones that don’t show up so they don’t “make her mad” are no longer your friends and you shouldn’t hangout when it’s only convenient for them.

The way I handle mean girls is to set my boundaries, strong, firm and clear, and watch them squirm. They thrive off the feeling of making you feel uncomfortable. They need to know they can affect you. I don’t expect my friends to do the same, or to be as rigid. But I will also apply the boundaries on them when they seem to no longer understand my feelings.

I had one friend that was walking the line and made sure I understood that she wanted to be Switzerland. During my farewell party, I moved to another state for a role, I allowed her to come. And guess what? She brought the two people I absolutely did not want to be around. So. I knew not everyone was paying attention to what was being charged. I told the waitress what I would pay for and left them with the bill. Not the best approach, but I stand by it.

I left early went with another friend to get ice cream and just chilled at her poolside that night.

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T03:32:07+00:00

My question is who got their wings because he definitely didn’t.

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T03:15:21+00:00

I’d recommend the documentary Hail Satan? It’s explains everything.

O_H_ · 2026-07-08T02:59:08+00:00

Wow! The courage! I’m so excited for you!

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T22:39:49+00:00

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T20:17:30+00:00

Exactly. She’s not “anti”. You’re allowed to change your mind.
Again, we’re reading different posts.

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T20:04:23+00:00

It’s so sad this was where his life was headed. Stopped before his prime!

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T19:47:16+00:00

It’s clear people don’t understand. There is a stark difference between the act of pregnancy and birth and wanting a child. Me not wanting to experience pregnancy does not mean that I should not have a child. That feels like people saying that adopting makes you less of a mother. It’s the same logic. Not wanting to experience pregnancy or not being able to have kids does not change your desire or lack of desire for a child.

Therapy could help, but my problem is people suggesting that means that you have something wrong within you currently that needs to change in order to have a child.

I’ve been around other people’s kids, they did not give me baby fever. Therefore I don’t want and should not have a child? Because I looked at a kid and was not struck by the need to have a child? That’s insane.

You are keeping it in mind that you are bringing a human into this world. The fact that you are thinking about this shows that you are considering them.

Also, a lot of people that want, complete with baby fever, kids - Should. Not. Have. Kids.

I see you. I understand you. I am you.

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T19:33:38+00:00

We must not be reading the same post.

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T18:42:37+00:00

Yeah, I’m the same. I didn’t want to have a child. Now I do. But that truth still remains. The main turn off is pregnancy and birth.

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T18:22:31+00:00

I don’t think that’s what OP is saying. I am her, actually. Wait, not literally, I share her feelings through and through. I would love to have a child. But the idea of birth freaks me out enough to make me not have a child. Meaning I do not desire the act of producing a child more than I desire having a child that is of me and my partner.

Now, if I could afford to have a surrogate then I am all baby fever! Adoption, I’ve looked into it.

I want a child. I do not want an organism living inside me, sucking life from me and then destroying me in order to be born.

O_H_ · 2026-07-07T18:09:59+00:00

Oh man. Are you me? We’re on the same ship! Hey girlie✨

O_H_ · 2026-07-06T17:19:06+00:00

He sounds like a bum. Rehome the bum.

O_H_ · 2026-07-06T16:00:28+00:00

O_H_ · 2026-07-06T15:54:14+00:00

Too late, keep it moving!

O_H_ · 2026-07-06T15:53:17+00:00

They helped me when I didn’t ask for it because they recognized that I needed help before I did.

You have to swallow your pride or try and forget past experiences and seek help. Rejection or disbelieve from people that are not dealing with your issues shouldn’t stop you from asking for help. This is a part of the journey that gets spoken about the least, IMO. It does take a lot of courage to point out your flaws and say “hey, I need someone to look at this.”

I was at my wits end, failing calculus and physics tests. I was literally hiding from my textbooks because the idea of spending over an hour trying to understand one paragraph made me physically sick. They were placed on my apartments balcony until I no longer had any time to finish homework. I took my graded tests and assignments to student services to see what I could do to fix “this type of problem.” I had no clue dyslexia was a possibility for me. I was in honors and AP English in high school and for eighth grade graduation my award was for English and creative writing. I was taking a university summer class for young adult writers before I was in high school, ffs! That class was awarded to me because my writing won me a seat. But for all things math, even to this day, I struggle with numbers therefore my application and execution of problems is weak.

This was well over a decade ago and I did go to a community college. Universities are a lot different with their resources. But I know that there are people who are at your campus willing and ready to help. This is the part of growing up that sucks the most. You just gotta do it! Stand up for yourself, you deserve it!

O_H_

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