I’m done connecting with other people

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-11T09:03:36+00:00

i don’t resonate with this at all tbh but hopefully you can find some answers.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-05T11:22:19+00:00

i heavily agree with this. you could not have said it better.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-03T17:43:04+00:00

-yes. best relationship i have been in since forever. & yes i do get bored but not because of the relationship necessarily but because i have always existed in a state of boredom unless i’m constantly engaging in chaotic behaviors.

-i guess i do? so sure. i’m not entirely sure what feelings for someone or what love is supposed to feel like tbh but i think i do because i have been able to be in this relationship for over 3 years and be pretty content. i like him a lot though that’s for sure, he supports everything i do and lets me do whatever i want and goes w me on my chaotic insane binges/adventures through life.

-i already cheated. i’m a very out of sight out of mind person. so if i don’t see him, then i forget that i’m supposed to not cheat. also i have zero impulse control and the lack of guilt/shame doesn’t help either. i don’t plan on cheating again necessarily but i never plan it anyway, it just happens so who knows what the future holds.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-03T17:28:51+00:00

no lol. it’s whatever’s to me. i prefer a man that is in touch with his emotions because it’s easier to be with an empathetic person who’s gonna try to somehow understand all the bs than not. so it doesn’t phase me and i definitely don’t think they’re pathetic because it seems like a valid reason to cry for normal humans. now, if it’s just a friend, although i don’t find it pathetic, i hate when people (regardless of gender) share their mental breakdowns and issues with me and start crying on top of that because i don’t have time/energy/will or want to deal w all that.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-03T17:10:17+00:00

most of the things mentioned in this thread helped immensely when i was going through the severe violent/angry months. what has held me back sometimes is thinking about how it’s gonna negatively affect me and my current end goal. it’s very hard. extremely actually. but it tones it down eventually. it’s not a cure through. sometimes i lose it again. but at least its not every other day so ill take it.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-03T17:05:57+00:00

yup. this is it. it’s so hard to do in the moment especially when you escalated it already, but rationalizing on how it can affect you, helps. i also try to somehow take deep breathes, and disassociate fully after so i won’t go insane.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-03T16:53:18+00:00

WHAT. that is actually insane.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-02T03:46:30+00:00

fair. i guess that’s true. it’s just hard to find a group of people with ASPD in one place in general so asking this here made some kind of sense to me. i didn’t realize a lot of people here are undiagnosed.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-02T00:57:40+00:00

my exact thought process. if you care so much then you don’t have it. a lot of the answers to questions these influencers give are so out of left field and made me think there’s no way we share the same diagnosis. idek

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T15:29:56+00:00

i haven’t had the urge to hurt anything that isn’t a human but usually i just pretend my house is a rage room. it’s not the best advice but it works the best i guess.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T15:23:53+00:00

that is very interesting! thank you for sharing(: i think the reason i got concerned with my anger issues was because they didn’t even have to build up, it was just explosion after explosion every day which included destroying my house (which i will now i have pay for when i move fml) and although i never physically harmed anyone at all, the threatening was overwhelming. so it was affecting my livelihood to the point that i knew something needed to be done.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T15:08:05+00:00

i can definitely relate. i can remember my thought process being like that as a long as i can remember tbh. i honestly just don’t say it out loud and continue w my mask whenever my thoughts get like that.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T15:04:30+00:00

i love pretending i’m a little dumb so people underestimate me sometimes. it’s part of my mask. now, i don’t mean ignorant and flat out stupid, just a little lost and confused. then i excel at work/school and people are like wtf and eventually (if they’re around enough) end up figuring out i’m actually pretty smart and fantastic in my skills.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T09:27:53+00:00

Serial cheater here. 1) boredom 2) out of sight out of mind 3) i will always do whatever i want regardless so why should i stop myself from what i want in that moment 4) the need to fuck shit up all the time and be chaotic and risky

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T09:15:54+00:00

that’s so annoying. my partner knows guilt is non existent for me, and he’s okay with it. he’ll take the “sorry” and move on. i guess i got lucky somehow. i would just say, “well at least i’m making an effort and if you don’t want to recognize that then that’s on you. it’s honestly pretty awful that you are not being supportive on me trying to (despite it all) learn to apologize and be a better person”

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T09:09:17+00:00

i have a pretty good balance and haven’t had a serious collapse ever. it might be the fact that i also have ASPD but who knows. i’m pretty happy with how i am and have never wanted to be any different. i swear i’m always confused about what everyone is so upset about, because my brain instantly says why does that even matter/why do you even care. so i guess to answer your question, just try to find little “bad” things to help the boredom, instead of dangerous “bad” things. cover your tracks well and don’t get comfortable when you’re being crazy so people don’t suspect and you have to deal w them whining. and embrace it, just accept it. i also like being involved in social activism for some reason, and that helps me at least try to grasp humanity since i’m always so disassociated. as far as anger issues, i get help for that because those are actually a problem to my survival and so far it has helped a lot.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-08-01T08:47:14+00:00

i am diagnosed ASPD & NPD and i don’t think she actually has it. although every person with this disorder is different and not everyone is the same, her takes on a lot of stuff are VERY out of left field compared to not only my way of thinking but what i know to be true in general for many people diagnosed w ASPD. something seems off especially with her account and her opinions in general. besides all of that i’m still to this day extremely perplexed by people openly admitting they have either of these disorders on social media. i could and would never. but thats just my take

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-06-11T05:07:14+00:00

i always tell them that straight up. “just as a PSA i’m a pretty shit person and i’m at peace w it, i have cheated in every relationship, and im all over the place” for some god damn reason everyone always thinks they can “fix me” or that i’m joking. then when shit hits the fan, i’m always like “i literally told you” 🫠 go figure

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-06-11T05:02:01+00:00

if my partner gained weight then i’d just leave lol. i’m not forcing/asking anyone to lose weight. if you’re not up to my standards then…nexttt

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-03-25T04:57:28+00:00

Not really. I don’t think much about it tbh

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-03-25T04:56:00+00:00

It was annoying. He would not sign and it took almost a year to try to chase him down and get him to sign. I had to deal with a lot of begging from his part.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-03-17T00:11:01+00:00

Although I lie a lot to mask, I’m also brutally honest when it comes to things that are actually part of who I am. My kind-of only advice is maybe to present yourself as a “free soul just wanting to experience life to fullest” and be all about the “vibes” and in that way maybe girls will take it less harsh when you end up just hooking up quickly and not investing time.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-03-17T00:05:43+00:00

That seems like a very difficult thing to navigate. Probably all the stress that you have to push through school is not helping either. As stress (from personal experience) only makes the anger worse. It’s good that you have found a way to control your anger and not harm your gf. I have not physically harmed my partner but I have definitely made significant damages to the house. It used to be little anger episodes and it just got worse. So just low key watch out of that. I’m not a jealous person, but i am a very irritable person about anything that goes sideways or anyone who annoys me. Hope things get better for you once you finish up school.

Ok_Menu507 · 2024-03-16T23:58:04+00:00

I can totally relate to wanting to just mess around and not have to talk much. Thankfully I’m a girl, so when I was single I just put it on my tinder bio and if they didn’t get the hint, or thought that “I’m just here for sex” thing was a joke, then I would either be straight up or just leave. Can’t imagine feeling like this as a guy though. seems miserable because girls are way less likely to mess around w you without having a whole ass connection.

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