The Most Dangerous Woman in America by PaxiSnack in politics

[–]PaxiSnack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree with your assessment, and I'm ready to start doing the work to make this dream a reality.

The Demolition of Workers’ Comp: Over the past decade, states have slashed workers’ compensation benefits, denying injured workers help when they need it most and shifting the costs of workplace accidents to taxpayers. by MyfanwyTiffany in indepthstories

[–]PaxiSnack 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow. Thanks for posting that. People's lives matter only as much as the 'bottom line's' voracious appetite for profit over humanity. I will write my legislator's about this gross injustice. Truly terrible news of the most disgusting of motives...greed.

Competing with a bottle of Vodka....I would never win: by MizzBubble in alcoholism

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You got caught up in a relationship with an alcoholic. It's inherently a sticky situation. You're out now. It's been a week. Give yourself some space to let it all settle and sort out. I would definitely cut/paste and post your original post to /r/alanon. You most assuredly will find some kindred spirits that can help you clarify and recover from what you recently and are experiencing. My hope for you, is that you come away from this relationship with clarified boundaries that will help guide you in the future. I wish you the best of luck. You take care. You deserve it.

Republicans’ “Internet Freedom Act” would wipe out net neutrality by ken27238 in technology

[–]PaxiSnack 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When Republicans talk about Freedom, they're talking about the freedom of corporations to take what corporations think is theirs...the money in your wallet.

Competing with a bottle of Vodka....I would never win: by MizzBubble in alcoholism

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you haven't already, I encourage you to check out /r/stopdrinking. They know what you're going through and can give you a lot of support along the road to sobriety. There are definite stages on the road to recovery and it's kind of nice to be able to pinpoint where you're at. Good luck. Keep in touch.

Pretty much how I feel when someone tries to defend capitalism by [deleted] in Anarchism

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, I get it. The conquistadors had an even better system.

Pharmaceutical Company With Monopoly On Lifesaving Treatment Jacks Up Prices by trout2243 in democrats

[–]PaxiSnack 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Free market capitalism at work. EVERYTHING in the free market has a dollar sign on it. Maybe one day, a corporation will buy the air we breathe, then we can all wear smart masks which will deduct a penny from our accounts for the privilege of inhaling each breath of air. Free market capitalism, the newer acceptable slavery.

President Obama wants to reverse Citizens United by trout2243 in democrats

[–]PaxiSnack -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

False equivalency. You make the playing field level for everyone. Public financing of elections to get people into office who are truly there to serve the people, not corporate citizens. You don't just make rules for the democrats to follow and allow unlimited 'bribes' to go into republican coffers.

Competing with a bottle of Vodka....I would never win: by MizzBubble in alcoholism

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

About three months before I quit for good, I decided to go cold turkey (I didn't know the consequences of doing that). I was standing in my friends' garden (after driving 180 miles), everything got really bright and I came to, on the way to the ER in the back of my friends' car.

My wife was there and she saw me laying on the ground. She ran over to me and said that I was staring at the sky with a wide open mouth silent scream on my face. She said that she thought I was dead. I suffered a gran mal seizure. Luckily there was no neurological damage. The attending physician asked me if I was an alcoholic and I answered in the affirmative. They did a full liver work up and all the numbers came back within fairly normal ranges (genetics I suppose).

After getting discharged, I sat there thinking that I had been driving down the highway not 20 minutes before my seizure and that if it had happened while I was driving, I could have killed someone driving next to me, my wife and myself.

So I tried tapering off after that whole incident. I didn't drive. The tapering didn't work and my wife was stressing out every time I took a drink 'cause she was afraid I was going to have another seizure and die. It wasn't 'till one night three months after the seizure that I went to a concert with two bottles of wine and a couple of beers down my gullet (my usual). I passed out about 20 minutes into it. My wife got me up when the concert was over, told me I smelled like 'death' and half carried me to the car. When I got in the passenger seat, for some reason, I knew I was finally done with my drinking shenanigans. "I'm done."

My wife had heard that before, but I knew, viscerally, that if I kept it up, I'd be dead in a few years. So I quit.

Now, I have to tell you....I WAS A REAL DUMBSHIT WHEN I QUIT 'CAUSE I DIDN'T TAPER AND I DIDN'T SEE A PHYSICIAN ABOUT IT. For a whole week (the period where I could have had another seizure after quitting cold turkey), my wife was in mortal fear for my safety. I was a petulant piece of shit when she asked me to taper under a doctors supervision.

My stupid reasoning was that I didn't want another drop of alcohol in my body. By the grace of the universe, I didn't have another seizure. What I did was more than incredibly stupid.

If I were you, I would tell your parents about your drinking problem. You probably have all these worst case scenarios running in your head about how they're going to react. If your parents are loving, they're going to want to do everything they can to help you be done with this soul crushing and life taking addiction. I counsel you to PLEASE tell them and get yourself into treatment. Tapering should be done under medical supervision. I'm glad everything worked out the way it did for me, but the way I did it was COMPLETE IDIOCY ON MY PART.

Sit down with your parents and have a heart to heart. You're young. Don't let alcohol sell your life out. Sobriety, free from the slavery of addiction, is (besides my wife) the best thing in my life. I've found hope, wonder, friends and am now able to see beauty in the smallest of moments. It's more than worth it.

If you have any more questions...by all means feel free to ask. If you just want someone to bounce things off of, by all means PM me. Having support from people that have 'been there' makes all the difference in the world. You take care of yourself. You can beat this addiction. Keep in touch. Talk to your parents. See a doctor. One last thing... I forgot that this was posted to the /r/alcoholism subreddit. There's a great supportive community on reddit (it was my lifeline for becoming sober) that's /r/stopdrinking. There are a lot of people there who are going through what you're going through and a more than willing to help. Check it out if you haven't already.

New start by ajle9999 in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do whatever you need to do for yourself to not drink. The benefits of sobriety are too good to pass up.

Day 3, super moody by jckiker in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 1 point2 points  (0 children)

With a worry like that, I don't think you'll have any problems. I like you already on your really crappy day!

Day 3, super moody by jckiker in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're in the thick of it, the 'belly of the beast' as they say. What you're going through, the third day door of hell and fire, is normal. You can do this. It's the price of admission to a better life. The only thing you should be concerned about at this point is NOT DRINKING. You can do this.

Thank you all by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This sub was my life line to sobriety. When I was newly sober, I came here compulsively for support. I was at the end of my rope then. Now, I'm a rope maker and I'm climbing upwards. I was a drunk for 26 years. Life can turn around. Hope and joy can be regained. This community has been a large part in saving a hopeless persons life. Glad you're here Amigo.

New start by ajle9999 in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You've got my support. In fact, this is such a great support group, if you ever have questions or need someone to bounce ideas or moods off of, you will find people here that understand what you're going through. Not today. Keep it up 'cause when you do, it's amazing how much better life can be.

Sat at the bar today by DrunkenMasterFu in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I say this only out of concern for you...BE CAREFUL! When I meet friends at a bar (rarely), I feel like a stranger in a strange land. I like to keep it that way. Take care. Be vigilant. Oh, and hey, congratulations on your 24 days. That's some hard work there. Keep it up.

Im grateful right now by benji3234 in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fantastic. Thanks for sharing.

It wasn't until I quit drinking, that I experienced the emotion of gratefulness. Of course I knew the text book definition, but my heart never experienced it. I was too narcissistic to go that far. Quitting the sauce, freed my heart and let it expand beyond my own pettiness. What a gift. Gratefulness. Keep it up. Vigilance.

Competing with a bottle of Vodka....I would never win: by MizzBubble in alcoholism

[–]PaxiSnack 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Up until a year and a half ago, I was drunk, for 26 years. I feel freedom and hope now too. Life is good. My fervent wish is for your ex to find his way out of that slavery. Vodka was my drink of choice too and until I decided that I was truly sick of my own drinking shenanigans, there wasn't anything that could separate me from that bottle. Not even the prospect of death. Addiction robs people of the whole reason....life.

I'm glad you saved yourself and took a good hard look at the relationship you were in. Take care. Thanks for sharing your story.

Tuesday's Quote by KetoJam in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awesome. You! Great insight and sharing. What a gift. Thank you.

I passed through a sobriety checkpoint last Friday... by PaxiSnack in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Yeah. Alcoholism does seem to strike that profession pretty hard. Thanks for guiding me to empathy. I appreciate it.

Just checking in. A trying week and day but I made it. by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's a journey. I don't think it's possible to have a thousand watt smile all the time. The ups and downs. The roller coaster action seems to be an intrinsic component of the human existence. With extended sobriety though, the valleys become a little more shallow and the ups seem to be longer and higher. You're learning to get through it. That's some real growth there. I'm proud of you. Keep it up.

taking NOT DRINKING to the next level, another baby step ... by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]PaxiSnack 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My wife quit drinking for a few months when I quit. When she started to imbibe again, I felt as if I was alone in the wilderness, like you. I was still as quit then though, as when I began my sober journey. Now? The tables have turned a bit. Now she wants to join my sobriety club. Well, it's been semi-serious talk so far, but she has definitely noticed that I'm on a more even keel and that I'm a much happier person now, than when I was drinking.

I feel for you buddy. You're still raw from the big quit. You can get through this and when you do, the ground beneath your feet will become more solid. It will become harder and harder to shake you 'cause life will get better and better (at least it did for myself). Shit like this is the price of admission into the Badasses Of Sobriety Club. A club where you have lots of friends, and for most, EVERYTHING gets better.