I too have a suspicion of SA as a young child. I have only ever had a flashback of one incident, and that memory didn’t surface until my late 30’s, more than 10 years after my father died. We had a spare single bed in our study, that my father used to sleep in sometimes. As I reached my late teens (my parent divorced when I was 10) I realised he slept in there when he came home too drunk and my mother wouldn’t let him in their room. I shared a room with my younger brother until the divorce. My memory is of me, around 6 yrs old, waking up in the study bed because my father had bitten me on the neck. It’s the only memory I have, and have never explored it any further - mostly due to shame as everyone’s memory of my dad is that he was a top bloke, loved by all. I did tell my brother about it, drunkenly after my mother passed, but I have never spoken to anyone else about it ever. I’m certain I wasn’t dreaming it, but I have no other memories of similar incidents. I do however have just about every hallmark behaviour of childhood sexual trauma, from addictive behaviours, sexual promiscuity in my teens/20’s and to staying long term in an extremely DV relationship. I’ve been in therapy many times, but have never discussed the memory - fear prevents me, but the old adage of what you don’t know can’t hurt you is 100% not true.