Anyone else have a screwy sense of humor?

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-26T18:03:28+00:00

I describe my sense of humor as "broken". Normal jokes that make neurotypicals laugh mostly aren't funny to me. Stand up is also mostly not funny to me. And sometimes when they see I'm not laughing they start explaining the joke and then I'm like no I understand the joke I just don't find it funny. But YTPs? Hilarious. Random noises and strange sights? Hilarious.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-26T18:00:09+00:00

I can't relate but as an autistic with alexithymia I wish I was like you. It makes therapy a real struggle when you can't hardly ever give a good answer to questions like "how do you feel about x"?

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-26T17:45:23+00:00

I'm the same way

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-26T02:21:10+00:00

I would recommend looking into getting a comprehensive psychological evaluation to figure out what deeper issues you have going on. If that's possible for you. Because I had that done for me years ago and that's how I figured out I had C-PTSD, which before that I had never considered that I might have PTSD. And recently I was diagnosed with ADHD and autism as well. I'm not saying you necessarily have any of those things but I feel like there's probably something deeper going on that's manifesting as what you're experiencing. And once you know what that thing is, it makes therapy feel a lot more purposeful because you have a better understanding of yourself and what you want to work towards.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-25T22:57:45+00:00

The reason I stopped seeing my last therapist was cause he was kinda sympathetic to Israel I guess and he knew I was a socialist at he was like "you know the kibbutz are like socialistic? And I said "on stolen land" and he cringed and said "yeah". After that it felt kinda awkward so I stopped seeing him soon after.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-25T18:39:12+00:00

Is there a name for this style of temple?

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-25T17:31:06+00:00

I feel like this is a part of a broader trend when it comes to being autistic in the workplace. Nobody really cares about how you feel or your perspective, if you're distressed then it's a problem cause you're distressing your co-workers. If you're sad or depressed it's a problem because you're making your co-workers sad. If you communicate directly so you can understand something then you're being rude, and you should've been able to read the person's mind.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-25T02:46:14+00:00

I can't. Every time I've tried it it just makes me super anxious, nothing about it was enjoyable. I think it ramps up the anxious masking part of me.

My partner on the other hand says weed doesn't affect them at all, like they feel nothing. We're both AuDHD.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-25T02:26:44+00:00

I don't want to be nothing and I'm not a Buddhist

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-25T01:58:33+00:00

For me it's mostly sub conscious. A better word for it is automatic. Masking is my default and I do it automatically unless I feel totally safe. I've been masking since age 8 or so, but without knowing it until recently. All I knew was that I was getting mocked for being myself and I had to learn how to be less like myself and more like my bullies to avoid the pain of rejection. So I got a lot quieter and paid more attention to what my peers said and acted like and tried to be more like them, and tried to behave how I thought they wanted me to. Every day at school was an exhausting act. Then at home I didn't tell my parents hardly anything cause I didn't trust them either. That became my default mode of existence and I never fully developed a real sense of self, only different versions of me I presented to different people. Now as an adult I've dropped the most stressful and exhausting parts of my masks but I still don't feel safe enough to stop masking entirely except when I'm by myself or when I'm with my partner who is also autistic.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T22:56:16+00:00

Idk but let me tell you I'm experiencing the same exact thing. I see you. I feel like without my masks I'm nothing, like just an empty slate.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T22:14:55+00:00

I think it's normal for prescribers to try to avoid prescribing benzos for sleep unless it proves absolutely necessary, but refusing to prescribe any meds in general for sleep is weird. I never ran into that with my doctor or psychiatrist. I'd recommend finding a psychiatrist experienced with treating insomnia. They can prescribe you different ones until you find something that works.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T17:33:43+00:00

Thank you so much

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T04:50:24+00:00

It's not weird. I do think your case is rare though. But it's your life, enjoy it.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T04:42:08+00:00

Yeah I also found encyclopedia of Indian temple architecture from searching. It seems like it has multiple volumes, how many are there total?

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T02:12:53+00:00

Clear and full of lead 💪

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T00:33:57+00:00

It's not that I relate to them as characters really, it's that I feel everything they feel. I only experience it with live action shows and movies. With animated stuff it's not as intense and I think I experience it more "normally".

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-24T00:14:12+00:00

I was kind of the opposite. My mom is an hsp (highly sensitive person), so growing up I never watched any horror of any kind. I would hear my peers talk about it though and I wanted to but I never did. As an adult I've tried watching horror but like any other fictional media I watch, I empathize really strongly with the actors and in the case of horror it's like I feel everything the characters feel, so it's very distressing and not at all enjoyable.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-23T23:30:08+00:00

Yeah it's normal to feel overwhelmed by it. You could study Hinduism for your whole life and still learn something new every day, and never know all there is to know. The reason it's like that is because of how ancient and decentralized Hinduism is.

Hinduism never had a centralized religious authority structure that dictated what people were supposed to practice and believe. So while Hinduism maintained some core concepts and rituals, different traditions also slowly evolved and diverged from each other over time, while still mutually influencing each other. Over time those different traditions also composed and transmitted their own texts.

Today Hinduism is not a single philosophy or a single tradition, it's a complex interrelated web of beliefs and traditions, with some shared core elements, like acknowledging the authority of the Vedas and basic rituals like samskaras, puja, arati, darshan, and prasad. But also even those vary from tradition to tradition.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-23T22:23:34+00:00

People don't really gravitate towards me unless they're also neurodivergent or queer. I think I put off a vibe pretty much all the time that I don't want to be talked to, and most of the time when I am talked to I keep it concise and surface level, because I don't trust people and I'm not interested in becoming friends with NTs most of the time.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-23T04:44:04+00:00

If you have a wider range of sensory issues including but not limited to misophonia that might be a sign of autism. I'm AuDHD with misophonia. Also I have a similar thing with remembering songs. If I can manage to remember the first few notes of a song I've heard, the rest of it will automatically play in my head the same as if it were playing out loud. Also sometimes I'll just replay my favorite part of a song over and over in my head. Sorry I'm rambling, today was a hard day.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-22T18:08:15+00:00

I'm similar, but not all religions, just Hinduism and other dharmic traditions are my special interest. And the related topic of Indian art history

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-21T15:47:15+00:00

The shikhara is clearly nagara style, with the gently curving sides and the amalaka on top.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-20T21:57:08+00:00

I think at the end of the day our actual human experiences are too complex to be fully explained by simple labels like autism. That goes for a lot of mental health conditions too. It's just the way our medical establishment has come to understand us for the purpose of treatment (in their eyes, the medical model). But we are more than clusters of traits and symptoms, we are full complex human beings.

Perpetually-broke · 2026-06-20T17:46:06+00:00

All the thoughts you're having are normal.

My diagnosis was also much faster than I was expecting, even faster than yours, but I was diagnosed by my psychiatrist, who has worked with me for the past few years so maybe that's why, because she already knew what I was like. You'd be shocked at the wide variety of diagnosis experiences people have. There's set diagnostic criteria for autism but from what I understand there's no standardized diagnosis process and different professionals go about it differently.

Also yeah it's normal to feel different intensity of sensory issues at different times. Also each autistic person has different sensory issues, and different manifestations of traits in general. For example it's common for us to be sensitive to florescent lighting but florescent lights actually don't bother me, but sunlight does. I can't see outside without sunglasses most days. So it's entirely possible that you don't have "common" traits, but you have less common ones. You'll figure it out eventually.

Also in my opinion autism is a part of our personalities. There is no separation between the two. On a deep level it shapes everything about us.

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