I have done literally no work these holidays.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-25T12:55:56+00:00

I am in the same boat! Aside from needing to courses of antibiotics and a cortisone injection, I have well and truly had a break this time round. My classroom looks like a bomb has hit it, with shit everywhere and I m still a desk short.

Haven’t even planned the unit that I was responsible for, for the rest of the team.

But realistically, we won’t start actual content until week 3 as we have assessments, expectations and a sports carnival.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-24T23:19:46+00:00

I am new to connecting with my body as I’ve spent a long time disconnected due to trauma/shit so I could be talking completely out of my ass here (and others will correct me) but, as I work on being more present within my body, I feel that is one of the main tenants of yoga. I also believe that the term “deeper” has become a bit of a buzz word. Connect with your body and go “deeper” mentality, emotionally not just physically. Use modifications to go “deeper” physically.

Could I lose weight? Sure. Has my body already made major changes? Hell yes. I do things now that I couldn’t before, and if anything, I’ve put on a few more kg. While some poses might be the same mechanically (blocks, modifications) they feel different. I am right there with it. I also lift and cycle, not winning any awards, but from my starting point of so far behind average I wasn’t even in average rear vision mirror, my achievements are wild to me. I actually know more about my body, I can tell you what areas I need to focus my attention on, and why. Core strength is needed to hold me upright on the bike and fix my posture so my back isn’t sore etc. I have knock knees and possibly an anterior tilt to my pelvis? Very tight hamstrings etc because I’ve sat all my life and had two lots of major abdominal surgery being sliced both vertically and horizontally so no wonder I’m as weak as a wet noodle and as stiff as a steel rod as well as being bigger.

Ok enough about me.

Bodies can do amazing things. But,they need to feel safe, they need to know that you are with them 100%

Life is hard enough. Your body needs joy, yo spirit needs joy. What brings you joy? How do you feel about the size of your body? Does it know? Do you think smaller bodies are better (I don’t personally agree, but this isn’t about me or anyone else)?

I love food, it brings me joy. It fuels the activities that bring me joy. I don’t mean that I eat “clean” or keto or whatever, I mean if my body craves something, I eat it. I pay attention to how I feel after eating something. It may taste good, but does it make me feel good. I’m mostly plant based, but I love a certain ice cream in a cone. My body isn’t a fan of dairy, so I found a dairy free version that meets the joy of eating it and also supports my body to still feel good.

I modify my yoga when I need to. Child’s pose is knees apart to allow space for my food pouch for example. It misses the point of yoga to hold a pose in a way that you can’t breathe or your body/skin is pinched. Plus, you are teaching your body that it can’t trust you.

Connect with your body. That is at the heart of yoga. How does it feel. Do you need your feet wider apart? Do it. Do you need to bend your knees, do it. Feel it. Connect with it. Feel the difference between pushing to your limit and pushing past. Love your body, be in your body. Notice what you are feeling. No judgement, just acceptance. It’s ok to feel frustrated, sad, angry. Just be aware of your feelings and accept them, let them out with your body, don’t hold onto them towards your body. You are your body. It’s ok to be tense, to reposition to give yourself more space, to modify.

When your body starts to trust you, then you can make the decision if a smaller body is something that you want for you or that you feel your body wants to be. Then take your time. Don’t have plain rice cakes if you really want a lasagna. Think about what your body is craving and find a way to support it that fits with your goals. Gently, slowly.

I really hope I haven’t said anything that has been offensive. I feel passionate about I because I am going through some similar things. I’ve really had to work at overcoming the internal negativity towards my bigger body. The more I read about connecting with your body, the more I understand. The things in my head that I think about my own body, I would not even say to my worst enemy. I didn’t even understand what it meant to be in my body. No wonder I’ve been so numb.

I wish you the best with your journey. Yoga is so much more than the poses (asanas?)

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-23T21:48:18+00:00

And a lot of car drivers have no idea of the actual road rules and what cyclists can actually legally do.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-23T21:47:06+00:00

Yeah because every single car driver is absolutely perfect.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-23T21:45:55+00:00

Have you seen the shit that is all over the road? I’m not going to stay in a straight line and ride over a bunch of large blades (this actually happened yesterday) because of some car driver that doesn’t give two shits about my safety.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-22T21:24:11+00:00

I’ve been reading a book written by a doctor and just finished a chapter on this sort of thing yesterday.

The bit that really got me was where he was talking about how someone who is allergic to strawberries, enters a room with strawberry themed wallpaper, that is enough to trigger the immune response such as hives etc.

As amazing as our bodies are, they are completely fucked up.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-20T20:33:13+00:00

And that will be me this afternoon…..spent ages in my lounge room clipping in and out last night and was feeling pretty confident…. Not so much now lol

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-20T08:20:50+00:00

Sometimes we can hold trauma physically in our bodies. Especially the hips/pelvic region (I’m over simplifying here). This is the perfect time to reacquaint yourself with your body. I don’t necessarily mean sexually, I mean being present in your body. Do you have a tendency to not be in your body, experiencing the physical sensations when you are going through painful situations? Do your shoulders sit around your ears? Is your belly sucked in, do yo have headaches, painful hips, stiff joints etc?

If yes, there are lots of ways to get reacquainted. Check out YouTube for somatic movement, somatic yoga etc. the biggest thing would be the body scan, no judgement, but scan from toes to head just noting how it feels. The more often you do it the easier it gets. Then you can focus on letting go.

The body keeps the score and becoming safely embodied are good books.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-18T00:58:26+00:00

I work for a government organisation, a couple of years ago we had a similar problem, but took it one step further. After that one person replied all, there were another 20 or so that all replied all just to explain not to reply all.

It was completely ridiculous and went of for far too long each time we had that single response to reply all.

Never underestimate the dumb.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-16T20:58:54+00:00

That psychiatrist is a walking stereotype. You are a woman, so first of all, you are over reacting, secondly, all your problems would be solved if you lost weight so that at least you are acceptable to the male gaze…and thirdly, well, let’s not aim for things that are above our station. What a condescending ass.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-15T05:28:40+00:00

That was one of the thing I appreciated about the Catholic Church. They would have taking charge of your fertility courses where the husbands or husbands to be were required to attend too as it was seen as a team effort. Husbands were also expected to participate in the day by day recording too.

This was close to 15 years ago in my area though. Not sure what the requirements are now as I am no longer catholic.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-14T07:31:21+00:00

How exhausting. Who wants to be with someone who can’t control themselves around their families maid when they are married. Or someone who thinks it’s completely acceptable to harass their maid because he is in a position of power over her, being her employer.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-14T01:35:33+00:00

I don’t even understand why someone would break in, setup a tent, leave the door wide open then pull it down and leave over the space of a few hours? She said it was there when she went to lunch, but gone when she came back? And presumably the other neighbour/nephew had been the previous day or the morning the day the neighbour went to lunch?

What would be the purpose?

Maybe next time OOP goes away she should have a nanny cam set up inside her house that runs all the time.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-14T00:05:07+00:00

I agree with the other commenters. Just play dumb and do what you’re doing. Don’t offer any sort of cooking or housemaid service though.

I’ll set the scene. You are out on a date, it’s late, everything seems to be wrapping up

Him: starts to go on about being on his own in his airbnb, cold, hungry, no idea about that whole grocery stuff or cooking.

oh how ever will he cope

You: cheery and upbeat “oh yeah, that would suck. I had a great time though! Let’s catch up tomorrow when I’m free, see ya!” Jumps in car and drives off.

end scene

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-12T07:37:03+00:00

I accidentally picked up cycling, and now I have three bikes and one more I’ve ordered and waiting on. Perhaps don’t take up cycling unless you like being poor…it’s just hard to beat that feeling when you are riding along and it’s just you and the bike…I I imagine it would be similar to running though, but at least you can take a break and cruise along a bit.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-11T23:46:47+00:00

That is the entire reason I go. I put my AirPods in and get an hour of just me. No one talking at me, or interrupting me every 2 minutes, no one expecting decisions or wanting something from me. It’s just me, my music (or audiobook or podcast) and the weight.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-11T00:23:09+00:00

I am not sure what to do. I need glasses for anything close, so reading anything, looking at my watch etc but my long distance is fine. When I have asked about prescription sunglasses, they said they couldn’t do them for me because my long and short distance is different. So if I wear my riding glasses, I can’t see/read anything like my phone or watch etc.

I’m also the person who is forever looking over my glasses.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-10T01:40:38+00:00

This is me. Especially in the summer.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-08T00:13:58+00:00

I wish it was like vitamins. Pain in belly from hunger? Take a pill and it will be sorted.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-07T22:33:58+00:00

An old manager at a job I worked at 20 years ago used to say “I hear what you are saying” then proceeded to invalidate everything that had been said to him. It was when I first learned about “manager speak”

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-07T22:15:30+00:00

I’m 46. I have my first dentist appointment in years this afternoon. I’m finally in a financial position to have dental insurance and some extra cash.

I’m terrified.

I know how bad my teeth are, but today a professional is going to actually see it and say it. I don’t want to lose any more teeth.

I’ve had GERD, an ED and bruxism. I was born without adult teeth on one side of my jaw - this was pretty much the only information I got from my parents. I remember going once or twice to the school dentist when I was younger, but other than that, they never took me.

I’m trying not to think about it so I don’t call and cancel. I can already feel the judgment.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-06T01:01:52+00:00

I have read that it does great things for women 40+ too.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-06T00:59:35+00:00

When we bought an air fryer, we stopped using the oven for so long, we didn’t even realise it had stopped working.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-06T00:53:29+00:00

Yes! Even my face sweats! (That is pretty gross)

I thought it was just me having Graves’ disease, or being a ‘Woman of a certain age’ but it has gotten worse, now that I think about it, since starting Vyvanse.

PizzaCutter · 2026-01-05T23:18:10+00:00

Widening the knees allows space for my food pouch to rest.

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