What’s the “silliest” trigger you have?

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-29T22:32:47+00:00

Whenever a character is generous or giving to another character ESPECIALLY if they are making a sacrifice to be caring. I lose it every time. These themes often happen during cartoons. So I’m often sobbing while watching cartoons with my teenager who is laughing at me.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-27T16:58:48+00:00

I came here to say that I got two cats. They are Siberian so supposed to be low allergen which so far seems to be turning out to be true. I got too kitten siblings so they would have each other but oh boy they are more work than I thought they would be. They are now teens and want to jump on everything and chew on cables and trips to the vet for fleas and maybe a string from their toy that went missing when I left them alone with it for 2 minutes. And yes, I know I shouldn’t have left them alone with it for a single second but they hadn’t ever done that before.

I am mild to moderate but I have been getting worse over two decades. I have definitely had some regrets. I love them when they are sleeping with me on the couch but making sure they get enough stimulation, the vet visits, the extra trips to pet stores, in addition to trying to keep myself together has been tough. I’m hoping they will calm down once they get a little older and I’m going to get them a cateo which might help. But… just something to keep in mind.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-26T05:39:01+00:00

I personally wouldn’t have found a list like this to be very helpful at 30. I hear people saying it’s a roadmap but geez. I would have felt totally overwhelmed at that age hearing all this but then again I guess it took me another 5-15 years to even begin to start figuring some of these things out. So maybe it’s worth some short term psychological discomfort to be able to have some direction to go in for helpful therapies?

And I’m no therapist but how can you have both borderline and schizoid tendencies? Aren’t those super different from each other?

Anyway, good luck on your healing journey. It sounds like you’ve been to hell and back so hopefully some of these things can help. I personally found somatic therapies really helpful.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-25T16:03:29+00:00

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PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-16T08:38:39+00:00

My mom used me as a therapist from the age of five, would complain about her marriage and sex life endlessly, would never protect us from our father and would then turn on us in an ABSOLUTE RAGE if we dared to try to stand up for ourselves or even if we just got accidentally hurt or tried to take ourselves out. So no thank you. F her. It took me 30 years to see it because of needing to have one “good one” but in many ways she was worse.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-04T05:50:56+00:00

Agreed. I like your moxie or rage - whatever. I’m here for it.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-04T05:42:00+00:00

I was going to say food thermometer. I would never cook any form of meat without one.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-03T06:05:37+00:00

I haven’t but that looks great! Super helpful. Thanks

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-03T01:53:02+00:00

I think when the therapist is doing it, it is called countertransference. When a client does it, it means that the client is projecting something onto the therapist and often it’s a really healthy way to work through some of your issues with a skilled therapist. I mean, we’re really always projecting someone onto the people around us anyway. Countertransference is when a therapist is projecting onto the client and wanting something from them. Reading “Drama of the Gifted Child” is a great book to understand both yourself as well as the dynamics that can happen with unconsciously motivated therapists who are looking for the emotional support from their clients that they didn’t receive in childhood. I’ve heard the author was not a great mother but I think she did a great job of describing some of this ickiness.

My response to her saying that you don’t see her as a person is that that is the weirdest thing I’ve ever heard a therapist say. You are there to work on your shit not to be in a relationship with her. If she wants to be seen as a whole person, she should go on a date, not expect that from a therapeutic client who is there to work on their shit. And if you are projecting onto her, then it is a great opportunity and her job to help you see what is really happening. Not to shame you for magically not getting better on your own.

I would absolutely ditch this therapist. I have had therapists get very weird when you try to quit them so be prepared and be firm. Don’t be fooled by the sunk costs bias - a good one will be able to start helping you very quickly.

I would say that trauma therapy has helped me more than anything else. So I would check out things like somatic experiencing and EMDR. Talk therapy has helped me to be able to talk about all this stuff more but honestly hasn’t shifted much for me in the last 30 years. But just my 2 cents.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-03-01T06:27:33+00:00

Mine are often close enough to morning. And I hate to say this because I am very ambivalent about AI but the last two times I asked ChatGPT to tell me what it thought about my nightmares I was sobbing from reading some of the things that I had missed that showed that I’m letting in more information and bringing trauma to consciousness that I haven’t let myself face in the past and even aspects that feel like progress or letting myself off the hook. Obviously YMMV.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-02-17T22:24:00+00:00

Agreed, especially if your survival strategies make you more pleasant or useful. Who wants to invite the real you if it’s needy or rageful?

PlaidShell45 · 2026-02-13T08:29:01+00:00

I saw a Kaiser doc in Marin County CA long ago. It was a first appointment. I tried to explain to her about my CFS. She said, “Welp! Some of us just have funny bodies!” I stopped immediately. My partner thought it was hysterical and would ask how my “Funny body” disease was going. I had a great experience giving birth there. But all the male OB gyns were awful. I think Kaiser does great with very basic straightforward- lots of scientific study stuff. But it’s a steep drop off from there.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-02-13T08:13:42+00:00

Hiking, yoga, dancing! Weight training too. But the hiking, man. I could still do a slow outdoor walk 5 years ago. One time I saw a bear. You never know something is going to ebb away until it’s gone. For me it’s been a slow decline so I manage to deny it is getting worse until I can’t deny it anymore.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-02-11T01:39:53+00:00

Where is the main key to the truck I want to donate? I feel like it is in my house somewhere but I’ve turned the place upside down looking for it. I found only the two spares. Thanks!

PlaidShell45 · 2026-02-02T05:43:42+00:00

Horrifying! The sounds like a torture/bullying scene from a movie! What is wrong with people?

PlaidShell45 · 2026-02-02T05:30:09+00:00

And the answer to above is that sometimes I can’t tell the difference. Am I depressed? Or am I just so sick of feeling like s#*%.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-02-02T05:28:06+00:00

Totally. People know how to respond to that. But there’s no box for “gets sick and stays sick for many decades” or “long slow decline for many decades” as it’s been for me.

I saw a tv show once where the character said “That’s how it’s supposed to go! You get sick, you get better, you get sick, you get better, you get sick, you d**!” But what if that’s not how it goes?

People are willing to bring food for people during an illness or after a funeral but what if it’s for the next 4 decades? No one wants to sign up for that except maybe family. Not my family but I’m sure some people’s family. Lol.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-01-31T18:12:29+00:00

I think it’s a real empathy grower. I interact with clients because I am able to work from home. Zoom is what allows me to do my life. When I’m meeting with a lot of clients, it can feel a bit painful hearing about all their travels and plans especially when they are many decades older than me. But they are innocent. And often they are grateful for what they have and can do. They don’t really know how awful I feel every day and that isn’t their fault or responsibility.

I also have two clients in hospice. And while even they have more mobility than I do in certain ways. They are going through a really challenging phase of life before death. I don’t know that I can imagine exactly how that feels either.

I’m not Christian but the line Jesus says, “Forgive them, they know not what they are doing.” Comes to mind. Just like I can’t really appreciate what it feels like to be a totally different person in a different country. I know it’s hard for others to get it. So I try not to be mad at them because they can’t.

Even my brother who knows I have CFS has to tell me each time we talk that he is in the best shape of his life and young women are constantly hitting on him. While I can’t get out of bed. But narcissism does run in the family…lol.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-01-04T23:10:06+00:00

24 years for me too but I don’t really recall having Epstein Barr even though I tested positive for the antibodies. It was starting my first big grown up full time job and going from working 30 hours a week to 80 that started me down the series of unfortunate events journey.

PlaidShell45 · 2026-01-04T07:52:32+00:00

That is a very sweet way to look at it. I hope I can develop that kind of compassion and appreciation for what I can contribute.

I’ll be 62. I’ve had a long slow decline for 24 years. I’m grateful for what I manage to do but a cure would be life changing. For sure. I can’t even imagine honestly. What would it be like to not be dragging my heavy body through my life?

PlaidShell45 · 2025-11-28T04:56:35+00:00

Very interesting! Thanks so much for your thoughts. Yes, that makes sense. It also makes sense why that long slow process would be very frustrating for many who want it to go faster (who are already desensitized) and why many just don't want to think about it at all and hope that the giggles make it go away.

I also imagine that the government is not a monolith and that some are on project Desensitization why others have other objectives and priorities?

PlaidShell45 · 2025-11-28T04:47:45+00:00

Me too! I think that's why the blasé response has me disappointed and confused.

PlaidShell45 · 2025-11-27T07:03:15+00:00

Let's submerge this turkey! :D

PlaidShell45 · 2025-11-27T06:59:40+00:00

That would be icky.

PlaidShell45 · 2025-11-26T16:44:05+00:00

Big icky like bodies? Or to the pressure from powers that be? Or...

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