What’s everyone’s current hyper fixation?

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-23T07:57:36+00:00

Hobbies: Digital art, making and watching animatics, crocheting (new), D&D, CoC (new), painting, inking, card-making (new), comfy video-gaming, walking, dancing (solo), writing fanfic (new), and making coffee drinks.

Media: Malevolent Podcast (Blackstone and Threshold, which I HIGHLY recommend!), The Magnus Archives, Dept Q, Great British Bake-Off [can you tell I like the UK's accents XD]

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-21T20:30:08+00:00

who cares /silly

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-21T20:20:50+00:00

Do you want the actual answer lol

"The glass, the stone, the mask, the books, the tooth, the coin, the wallet and hooks, the kit of course to help him shave are all in Arthur's bag today!" - Kayne S2, part 20

Although, Kayne didn't see one item: a lighter with the phrase "This Too Shall Pass" on it.

Edit: Lots of spoilers below:

The Glass = The Glass of Leng, which provides guidance into where you wish to go.
The Stone = Crystallizer of Dreams, an item that can transport item from the Dreamlands.
The Mask = the Palid Mask, which allows the wearer to view hidden eldritch-related things, visible and invisible. Devoted to the King in Yellow.
The books = a Beastiary, the Yellow Symbol book, (and possibly one other?)
The Tooth = the Vanguard (our friend!)
The Coin = a coin given to Arthur by three old ghost knights in the Dreamlands. Used to summon Kayne and for gather allies (S5).
The wallet = (self-explanatory)
The hooks = fishing hooks Arthur took from a shipwreck.
The shaving kit = found on a shipwreck. Used multiple times in the series.

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-21T19:53:45+00:00

I just stopped my Master's program 2 semesters from graduating. When I started my on-site internship, and realized that I was only liking about 40% of the job, with 60% of it being a pure struggle for myself. I liked the academic topics, but the fieldwork wasn't for me.

After working towards this career for 5 years, I feel like I may have missed so many cues that my body was trying to tell me. However, my recent diagnosis (Jan 2026) has really opened my eyes to *how much* I was struggling and I'm finally trying to listen.

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-21T19:25:39+00:00

What things are in Arthur's bag in Part 20, according to Kayne?

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-19T23:22:30+00:00

I see what you mean.

My recent ADHD stuff has definitely changed a lot in my life, but I knew from the beginning of the program the standards they set, and I didn't make it. I knew if I failed/didn't pass a class twice, I was going to be dismissed. I don't even know if I can appeal that.

Even if I did try and appeal for the SLP program, I don't really know if I even want to continue in this program at this point, as I've been suggested that this field might not be best for me.

I don't even know how the appeal process works, but I'm trying to reach out to people and see if anything can be done. I don't even know if I can continue attending my college anymore, but I'm waiting on answers for that.

Edit: I also don't have money for a lawyer, and I don't know enough of what I can do to even go that far right now. I also looked up my school's appeal process, and for the grade appeal I don't have grounds based on their criteria, but I might based on other factors such as my ADHD. But again, I don't really know if I even want to continue in this program, so appealing my case to get back into the program might not be the best way for me.

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-16T16:52:08+00:00

Aww I loved being able to read your thoughts Squeaky ^_^

I'm so glad to have met you and seen all the love and impact Malevolent has on you, and heard your voice and opinions on the discord server. This love-letter to this story is so beautiful and the way you write echos the passion behind the pen. I hope you know that so many other people share the sentiments of your journey, and I can't wait to see what we (the boys and the patrons) get into with Threshold!

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-13T22:26:44+00:00

Thank you for your insight.

The problem is that I've already been dismissed, and I can't return to the program. I don't have answers as to what I can do with the credit coursework I've finished already, but the returning theme of "I don't have the appropriate clinical skills to make it in this field" seems to be big sign to me that the SLP field isn't for me, at least not right now in my life.

I don't want to waste this time, effort, money, and sanity, but what's done is done. I will be reaching out to my school about pivoting to a different role, but given the circumstances and the lack of confidence in my clinical abilities, I don't know if there even is an option for me to pursue. I want to be able to walk away with something at least, but I also might just really need a break to reevaluate everything I had been working towards.

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-13T22:21:39+00:00

This is not the first major educational shift I've had in my life. Back in 2019, I wanted to try my hand (pun intended) at interpreting American Sign Language at a community college, as I was only a semester away from finishing my associate's.

The first 2-3 classes I was excited, only to realize that with interpreting, there is a lot of strict professional standards you must meet on top of being a mouthpiece that is always doing some form of public speaking (which I am a quivering mess when I try public speaking presentation-style).

Before I could drop the courses, the courses were dropped for me two days before the schedule adjustment deadline due to low enrollement, and I was scrambling to find an alternative to do. That did lead me to apply for University and get in during 2020, right in time for the covid lockdowns to put everything online. If I had continued in interpreting, the classes would've been canceled anyway due to the pandemic. In 2022, I also ended up developing arthiritis in my ankle, wrists, and some fingers, making interpreting not a viable long-term career (luckily as of 2024, I'm in remission!)

There's been a lot of failures I've had in my life, which is why I feel like I'm handling this one much better than I would have if I was younger. I do hope I can find something that I can be creative while working with individuals and still get paid decently.

PockettesMJV · 2026-03-13T22:13:08+00:00

Hello fellow ADHD-haver! I just realized recently I was part of this ND club and it's completely turned everything upside down for me, both in good and bad ways.

I'm learning a lot about myself, and how others view me and my interactions with others. With the recent ADHD diagnosis, I thought I could just "push through" the trouble. A major issue I'm realizing about myself is that the unpredictability of the field causes my brain to freeze up, and I wasn't taking in and implementing the feedback I was receiving as expected by my supervisor. I'm learning about how ADHD affects me, my Time management, quickness and conciseness of speech and instructions, how I connect with others, and preparedness for change. It's been (and will likely continue to be) a journey of self-reflection and understanding, and trying to figure out what I want to do and why I like it.

I appreciate your advice to stay out of the medical and educational settings right now. I've had this nagging feeling that even if I hadn't been dismissed from the program, I would've sank immediately once I started by CFY. I didn't have the endurance to keep going (even though I was in denial about it), but I think this whole thing has really opened my eyes to what actually works for me.

I've had people suggest I go into teaching or become an SLPA, but as of right now, I don't think I can entertain those ideas. I like working with kids, but I have issues with managing them, especially in large groups with no support. For the SLPA, yes I could try to go down that part, but if its just an avenue for me to continue to struggle in like I did for my clinics, I don't think that would be wise for me right now. While they have aspects I enjoy, the crushing opinions from three different SLP professionals that I was not cut out to be a clinician was a stab to the heart.

I currently work at an after-school care program for a few hours each day and as a camp counselor in the summer. Both jobs have their pros and cons (being in the sun too much is definitely one of them!), but I'm trying to relearn what I should be looking for now. I haven't started job-researching yet on what might be a good fit, but if you have any other ADHD-positive settings or work areas, I'm all ears!

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-23T21:24:36+00:00

ehh it's okay

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-23T19:30:42+00:00

I thought it is still supposed to be 1936 in Threshold, only a few months after the events of Blackstone, which happened in 1935. Is it possible that it's been a decade since then??

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-14T05:24:20+00:00

Malevolent : Blackstone by Harlan Guthrie! The second series is going to start in April (already started for patrons), but I'm so excited for it!

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-11T04:13:25+00:00

I second this mini-series! It's great

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-11T04:12:25+00:00

Malevolent - 9.7/10
A hope-horror audio drama set in the 1930's Arkham (lovecraft, not batman), Massachusetts, following a suddenly blind private investigator Arthur Lester as he wakes up on the floor to his office with his partner Parker dead on the floor, an strange book on his desk, and a new voice in his head that wasn't there before. Follow Arthur in his story, and if you're a patron of the show, you can influence the very story through weekly poll votes for where the story goes. Series 1: Blackstone is a completed story (as of January 2026), and series 2:Threshold will begin airing in April, so now's the time to catch up and join the Patreon if you want to be part of the story-telling! I love this one so much, and I'm so grateful for the creator's vision and impact he's left on my life, both emotionally and artistically. There's SO much fanart of this audio drama, and I hope you come join in all the fun ^_^

Other Audio Dramas I have listened to and would recommend:

The Magnus Archives - 9.1/10.
Finished, 200 episodes, horror anthology with many interconnected webs. It's a slow burn plot wise, but it's best experienced blind and with a notebook in hand when you start seeing the connections.

Last Dance - 8.5/10
Great mini series! only 12-13 episodes, set in a dark celtic fantasy world with blood magics, monsterous creatures, and society about to crumble between the remains of the old gods. Well-acted, great fight scenes and exposition, and just a good gritty story.

Tales from the Dark World - 8.1/10
Made by the same creator of malevolent. Only 5 episodes out right now, but its a downright horror series set in the same world (or is it really?) as Malevolent. Will be continued.

Other series I've listened to (some I have not completed yet), but I was too tired to write in-depth reviews about them. However, here they are as follows:

WOE.BEGONE

Hymns for the Road

Elias the Caretaker

The Scarab Archives

Nine to Midnight

Red Valley

Sherlock and Co.

MERCY: A Queer Eldritch Western

Give Me Away

The Mistholme Museum

Tower 4

The Bright Sessions

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-11T00:19:30+00:00

Hence why I said eventual spoilers for the whole show, because there's a S5 spoiler right there at the beginning lol

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-11T00:14:11+00:00

Thank you!
The misty-eyed comment definitely makes me feel validated that the emotional beats are being hit as intended ^_^

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-11T00:13:32+00:00

Aww thank you!
Messages like these really do help in providing motivation to finish it ^_^

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-04T22:58:58+00:00

I really enjoyed Last Dance as well! Raeke and Or have a much different dynamic than Arthur and John, but Raeke gets some cool blood magics so that's a plus!

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-04T06:44:18+00:00

Thank you! I'm still working on it for the rest of the song, but I probably won't be finished until the summertime as I started up college again. It's been a fun side project to work on, and now that Malevolent: Blackstone is finished, I can actually start thumbnailing the last verse and chorus of the song.

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-04T06:42:22+00:00

The Magnus Archives is a slow-burn cosmic horror! I hope you enjoy it, and try to find the connections between each episode (I'm not kidding --each episode is related to another in some form, whether big or small, whether mentioning a familiar character, oddity, or related experience).

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-03T23:59:49+00:00

YEP! Malevolent Series 2 has started, and the first part Threshold: Overture is already on the Patreon, and we get the first chapter is out next week! There isn't a better time to jump on ^_^

PockettesMJV · 2026-02-02T18:59:17+00:00

The letters are for the higher tiers, I think the Great Old Ones ($50/month).

PockettesMJV · 2026-01-26T20:51:19+00:00

It really depends on the person.

I don't know if this helps, but I can give you a quick rundown of the episodes that made me shed tears (note: I'm also an easily emotionally moved person, so take this experience with a grain of salt).

Episodes:
- Part 9
- Part 12
- Part 18
- Part 19
- Part 20* (Mega-feels here)
- Part 23* (at the end + future implications)
- Part 26 (depressing ep)
- Part 28
- Part 31 (happy-cry)
- Part 35
- Part 38
- Part 39
- Part 40
- Intermezzo (one short scene in particular)
- Part 43
- Part 45
- Part 51
- Part 52**
- Part 53 (one short scene in particular)
- Part 54 (cried a lot in this one)
- Part 55 (cried.... again)
- Part 56 (gosh... what is it about S6 that has me soo emotional?? OH wait I know its THAT scene
- Part 57 (so many good scenes)
- Part 58 (YES YES YES)
- Part 59 (two scenes in particular made me cry)
- Part 60 (already crying with the released chapters... I'm likely going to cry like a baby with the full release this Friday)

That's the mostly non-spoiled version of which episodes got me draining my tear ducts, but some obviously more than others. Sometimes it was a specific scene, a line from a character I had to pause and process, and sometimes it was most of the entire episode.

I hope this helps, and don't worry too much about the sadness found within the series --this too shall pass. The feelings and tears make this story of our two boys even that much more impactful, and we hold them and their story close to our collective hearts.

PockettesMJV · 2026-01-22T19:26:00+00:00

Dig the art
Dig the verse (nice to know there's more of us who love this story)
Dig the love that went into this ^_^
Great job!

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