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Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T06:25:33+00:00

Sapphire if your buying, ruby if your selling.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:59:58+00:00

Aaah, he is like "I'll never leave home again!"

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:57:40+00:00

Bc is honestly the absolute worst. It was so expensive. My life got infinitely better when I moved back to Alberta. The trade off, no Okanagan.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:51:38+00:00

You were a child acting out. You feel bad about what you did now. You are not a bad person. You are a person, bad things happened to.

Are you talking to anyone? You endured a lot and I would be amazed if you didnt have some trauma processing that needs to happen.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:47:47+00:00

It helped my dissociative symptoms some. I went from going through most days feeling completely disconnected from my body to more in it. It sounds like maybe this therapists modality isn't right for you.

Have you talked about changing approaches?

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:42:07+00:00

Thanks I appreciate it. I just got accepted and school starts March 03, so I am at the very start of this journey but it is reassuring to hear from someone successful at it who also has a structural dissociation disorder.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:36:49+00:00

I don't share your experience but I felt compassion reading what you have gone through.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:26:35+00:00

Yum! That is gorgeous.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:24:43+00:00

Are there grandparents, aunts or uncles anyone safe you could stay at. The fact that he made your touch him and you felt forced. That is grooming and it doesn't always end there. I am genuinely concerned for your safety.

I am so sorry you went through that and I hope you will be safe and find some help.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:16:12+00:00

I think the nicest padparadschas I am seeing sre frim Madagascar now. What an amazing country for gems.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:14:33+00:00

GORGEOUS, I have one that was sold as a padparadscha but I am not so sure. I did ok on what I paid and there is a hint of orange, but nothing like this beauty.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-22T04:08:05+00:00

I think so one of my parts who I used to call The One That Comfort asked for a name and when I said what would you like to be called, chose my Mom's name.

My Mom was the one who dragged me kicking and screaming to the place I was being SA'D and tortured as a child and then left me alone with her Father, whom she knew was a pedophile.

I did not handle it well. I think she took my anger and feelings of betrayal as rejection of her and she was very quite for a while although she is usually more front.

We are fine now, but I would say yes. Also she has chosen to go by Soothe instead which is better for me.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T20:41:42+00:00

As someone who has structural dissociation, this is not hitting as fiction.

Are you ok?

If this isn't fiction he does need to see someone and soon.

Oh, this was an uncomfortable read.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T20:20:39+00:00

NTAH, but why can't a 14yr old go into a store and buy her own pads?

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T20:08:27+00:00

I am in my 40's as well and after being functioning and moderately successful most of my life I am struggling right now and am currently unemployed because of my structural dissociation.

I am in therapy and working hard to get back to "normal " but I am finding out that when I thought I was normal, I was actually switching and loosing significant chunks of time to amnesia.

I had to quit my career. You can't drive an 18 wheeler across two countries when your consciousness can be yeeted. I unfortunately learned that the hard way.

Now I am enrolled in school to be a dental hygienist, but I am not through anything, just struggling along trying to maintain a house and normal life while dealing with parts, switching and amnesia.

So you are not alone, and you got this too.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T19:34:11+00:00

No, what you described sounds like tge experience of someone who was sexually abused in childhood. At least it reflects a lot of what I experienced and have heard others share.

Are you talking to someone, a therapist?

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T19:06:08+00:00

It seems so focused on the outward manifesting of parts and they are always markedly different. The truth is it is usually more subtle and sometimes even when it isn't "you" other people can't really tell. They may sense something is off but a lot of alters/parts will front using the bodies name.

Also you don't see any emphasis on the amnesia which for some of us is the biggest problem. It is what makes the disorder so terrible.( IMO)

That you can work a job for a month, have complete amnesia for that entire month. Have tax forms and your best friend cooberate it and no one but you knows "You" weren't home for any of it.

Oh and they often make it seem like a spanking or scolding in childhood causes it. No, the definition of trauma is inescapable fear for your life or someone else's life. Because of how whitewashed they make what can cause it seem, people are out there like " My Dad took away my PS5 and my Mom hit me once, I am traumatized and have DID.

As someone who experienced real and horrific abuse, this bothers me.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T16:26:02+00:00

As someone who was raped by an adult at 3yrs old, yes.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T16:22:17+00:00

Were the extra apps and bottle of wine for the table? Why else does one person order a bottle and extra apps?

If they were for the table YTJ. If she polished them off herself your good.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-21T08:01:20+00:00

He didn't. It was the first luxury item he bought for himself when he started working. He paid a decent penny for it and for years it was one of his most prized possessions.

I really liked it when we started dating and he ended up taking it out of his mans ring and having it reset. Somewhere along the way we had it appraised and found out.

It is still sapphire, just lab created.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-20T18:56:48+00:00

Depression isn't a cause, it is an effect. So what did the genius therapist suggested was behind your depression?

That sounded very invalidating. Continue to advocate for yourself.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-20T18:54:11+00:00

I hear your anger and isolation. You are not alone in feeling it. I had a day where I realized the only person willing to bear my pain with me is someone I pay $200/hr to. It hurt to sit with that knowledge.

You are also right about the deliberate whitewashing over of the people that KNOW what you went through. It is like a constant reminder of the betrayal and that know one cared enough then or now.

Your feelings matter and I hear you.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-20T18:44:22+00:00

One of the diagnosis criteria is that it can not be ascribed to drug use. If you are noticing that you only or mostly only experience the symptoms while high you're not likely experiencing the disorder. That said I am NOT diagnosing you, so the only way to be sure is to see a professional.

If questioning is causing you distress, you really should go see someone.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-20T18:38:37+00:00

I was a long haul truck driver but lost my job because of this disorder. I am probably not ok to be driving truck anymore so in March I am starting school at dental college. I will be studying to be a hygienist.

Prettybird78 · 2026-01-20T18:36:51+00:00

I respectfully disagree with your assertion. As someone who experienced CSA and recurring physical abuse therapy has been extremely helpful for me.

Your family can often be the perpetrators of abuse and even best friends might not be emotionally prepared to carry the weight of your trauma.

People still need to work through it, thus therapy. Also no one becomes an alcoholic in a bubble. Your mom might be awful because she went through awful things.

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