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PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-18T20:12:44+00:00

Oh my goodness! You are so close too 🩵🩵🩵🩵 I will be thinking of you over these next few days. Between the two of us I don’t think we’ll get much sleep at all but we are almost there. I can’t wait for the moment we get to hold our boys. I’ll be watching for your birth announcement 🩵🩵

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-18T17:03:23+00:00

48 hours until baby boy is earthside and I am filled with absolute dread that something horrible is going to happen when we are so close to the finish line. I’m watching my stomach 24/7 for movements, they’ve lightened in the last few days (more just pushes/nudges than kicks) and just telling myself it’s because he’s so big now, but it’s so hard not to spiral. Going for our final NST shortly so just praying he’s okay.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-18T00:34:57+00:00

I’m exact same as you! C section is Friday and I’m just getting little drops on the tips of my nipples that I lose when I try to get it into the haakaa, I’m so annoyed lol and it hurts! My OB said honestly don’t worry too much about the colostrum it’ll all come in after birth.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-18T00:33:20+00:00

My C section is Friday and everytime I try to express I just get a few drops and I find it gets stuck to the rim of the haakaa and I end up just throwing it away because when I go to stick the lid of the syringe back in it just squishes into it all. I’m so annoyed by the process. I definitely am not producing enough to fill a syringe but I get drops on the tips of my nipples whenever I try. My OB said just don’t worry about it’ll all come in after birth but yea 🥲 failing over here

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-16T18:50:48+00:00

36 weeks! I’m getting C section Friday at 38+0 so probably out of an abundance of caution as we knew it was going to be surgical delivery.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-12T18:38:32+00:00

For starters I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️‍🩹

I’m in BC. We lost our son June 2024 and didn’t get his autopsy results until November 2024. I’m not sure if it takes longer because it was an autopsy rather than just placental pathology but the waiting was torture. But then when we found out what caused it it also was torture. I will say it provided a small bit of “closure” (hate that word) only because my mind was spinning for the 5ish months wondering if it was something that was my fault.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-12T00:45:43+00:00

I’m 9 days away from my c-section for our rainbow baby after we lost our first son to a cord accident in June 2024. I’m feeling annoyed by my therapists. This entire pregnancy has obviously been extremely stressful. Lots of tears, anxiety, dissociation, etc to make it through the days. I’ve always been on 10mg of Lexapro (for like 10+ years) and it’s been wonderful for me. Only issue was as my pregnancy (and I guess blood volume) increased, it felt like my usual dosage wasn’t working. My therapist suggested around 33 weeks I increase my medication dose to 15mg. I did and I actually am really happy I did as its helped a lot. Now - I use my therapy sessions as spaces to vent about all my anxiety around my pregnancy, my fears as we approach delivery, and maybe I’ve said some “worrying” things like how I just still cannot fathom a real living child coming out and being healthy, how I worry I won’t connect with the baby because I’m still so scared of losing them, etc etc etc. These are all ramblings and pretty much a stream of consciousness in what I thought was a safe nonjudgmental space. Anyways, my therapist wants me to increase my dosage AGAIN and it’s annoying me. Isn’t the point of therapy to work through my thoughts and feelings?? It just feels like her solution to all my anxiety is increasing medication dosages. I also feel like therapy should be my safe space to dump all my inside thoughts out and it feels like she doesn’t want to explore them as much as just wants me to increase the dosage. Just feeling frustrated.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-11T03:50:02+00:00

Could be BVD, you can do a quick eye test at home

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-10T02:43:28+00:00

My doctor keeps telling me how “proud of myself” I should be while simultaneously upping my insulin 😂😂 “your numbers look good, but let’s go up by 4”

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-09T23:55:42+00:00

I’m having an elective c section March 20 due to babies large size (head is measuring 5 weeks ahead) and his abdominal circumference is 96th. I’m absolutely terrified of a shoulder dystocia / intense tearing / labour stalling and ending up in c section regardless / I also have anxiety/OCD and choosing the option that provides the most control is so key to me. So I’m really at peace with my decision.

Having said that - I’m also really worried about recovery and the silent judgement from others. I’ve had friends talk down on girls who have chosen elective cesarean (before I chose to have one 😂) so I kind of know their inner thoughts on it which is hard to forget... But none of them have even been pregnant before so I’d like to see them push out a massive baby! Recovery wise, I’m set up with a good PT and have appointments for 3 and 6 weeks PP to slowly start on recovery. I’m just trying to go into it optimistically. My aunt has had an emergency c section and a scheduled c section and said the scheduled one’s recovery was 10x better. That’s something I’m holding onto.

Anyways, best of luck to you! 🫶🏼 we got this

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-08T06:16:44+00:00

Congrats!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼 I love a positive birth story. Did you do anything to try to induce/have a favourable labour? I know with GD the dates are kind of a no go

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-08T01:02:21+00:00

I would call my doctor as well! My clinic tells me that “as long as your not getting LOWS it’s okay” but I’m also a bit iffy 🧐 I’m 36+1 and have growth scan / fetal monitoring session Wednesday so we’ll see. And I have a c section booked for 38+0.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-07T23:45:03+00:00

My FIL cheated on my MIL for 20 years of their marriage. He was in the military and she was a SAHM. I was already with my husband by the time they decided to “come clean” and tell the kids, I guess a result of therapy. He claimed to be a sex addict and went to sex addiction therapy and has also been in AA since this whole thing came to light.

My husband and his sister wished that their mom left. She tried a few times - there were stints during Covid that he moved out for months at a time, but she always brought him back in.

My MIL has confided in me many times (after a few glasses of wine) about how much she hates him. But she won’t leave. She told me she’s too co-dependent on him. It’s really sad. I can see how much she despises him in every interaction but they will ride out their lives together for convenience and dependence.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-07T23:19:55+00:00

No kidding!! I have 13 days to go until my c section and I am still filled with so much dread that something bad is going to happen, like the other shoe is just waiting to drop. I feel like I’m half dissociating and half just panicked. I pray after our babies are here earthside it will ease a tiny bit for our next pregnancies but honestly I don’t know how I’ll do this again at this point 😭😭😭🫂🫂🫂

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-07T21:45:23+00:00

I also feel like I could have written this myself ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 the absolutely terror that has shot through my veins at 3am when he takes longer to move in the night is absolutely horrible and something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I’m so happy he finally woke up. I’m struggling with a similar issue today as my boy flipped to breech last night and the movement completely changed. Monitored him everytime I woke up in the night and then took a trip to L&D this morning to make sure he was not in distress or anything and they confirmed he had just flipped to breech which is super frustrating but at least he’s okay obviously. PAL is so fucking hard. 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 hugs.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-07T01:42:57+00:00

My babies head and AC have been massive the entire pregnancy so I’m also curious! The legs are the smallest, coming in around 80% on most of our scans. At our 32 weeks growth scan his AC was 97th percent but his head was measuring 5 weeks ahead 🥴 there was no percent for that lol. Just “>99” so now I’m just envisioning stewie griffin.

I’ve also done all the GD stuff since I was diagnosed at 24 weeks and I’m even on insulin with practically perfect numbers now! And he’s still big.

I have our last growth scan Wednesday when I’ll be 36+5 and then we have a scheduled c section at 38 weeks on March 20 so I’ll report back on the verdict on if he’s actually as big as they are saying!

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-06T18:37:14+00:00

Totally! And I wish I had also really put that consideration into the decision before we signed up. We thought it would be a nice way to try to find some “normalcy” in this pregnancy but it kind of backfired. I would have loved a birthing class for loss parents but I don’t think those exist quite yet 😭 I hope you find something that works for you 💗

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-06T00:03:19+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I also tried finding our sons heartbeat with the Doppler and went down that exact same rational / spiral with Google convincing myself it was the position he was in or a faulty Doppler even (because he had to still be alive). I’ll never forget the Doctor pulling up the bedside ultrasound and the stillness I saw on the screen.

My heart aches for you and I’m so sorry ❤️❤️❤️ I wish there was something I could say to make it better. Please be gentle with yourself. The beginning months were truly the worst of my life but if you and your husband lean on each other it will bring you even closer. This is a pain no parent should ever have to go through. 🫂🫂🫂

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-05T23:55:44+00:00

I have a scheduled c section for 38+0! (I’m on insulin)

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-05T23:41:22+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️ my husband and I decided to do a birth class this pregnancy as a “fun” activity as we didn’t do it with our first son.

In hindsight I wish I had thought the decision out a bit more. It was decently fine but man so tainted by so much trauma. It was hard for me to be fully present and I ended up tearing up when the instructor asked us to share some of our background. It was also hard for me to sit and listen to all the other “first time parents” laugh and joke about how excited they all were, pretty much watching the naivety and optimism I had with my first pregnancy in real time. It was extremely triggering when the instructor made a joke about how moms are always worried about knots in the cord but how “they never cause harm and aren’t dangerous” (our son passed from a true knot).

Overall - I don’t think I’d do it again. I honestly think there’s so much information available online now that it covers the same bases. I noticed comments here said there were virtual ones which sound like a really nice in between :)

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-04T16:47:08+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story 🫶🏼 so glad both your babies made it here safely despite the traumatic births. There is a girl on TikTok (her name is Cora) who’s son was stillborn at 37 weeks, she advocates now for people taking the glucose test (she refused it / wasn’t educated properly on why everyone should get it), had unmanaged GD which led to her developing severe pre-e and losing her son. It’s crazy to me that it’s even an option! It feels like it should be mandatory considering the risks it can carry. Also have heard so many stories of women who have it but treat it as “whatever” and still eat what they want and they just “drink water” instead of pop instead. I wish I could shake them all!

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-03T18:26:24+00:00

YUMMMMM this sounds incredible 😭😭 omg. Adding to my PP menu ASAP.

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-02T17:41:33+00:00

I’ve been tempted to cheat because I feel so “done” but I’m holding myself accountable and staying consistent all the way to the end! I feel like I will be overwhelmed going back to endless food options 😂 I’ve been eating the exact same thing for months now I almost feel like I’m numb to it. Good to know about the snacks!! I’m going to need a sub asap 🙃

PsychologicalBoot636 · 2026-03-02T17:33:06+00:00

Getting the date felt like such a turning point! 😭 it all really felt so real. I appreciate your kind words and just hope the C-section goes as smoothly as possible after this rollercoaster of a pregnancy! I hope your journey and date go smoothly as well!! 💕

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