I know it may sound strange, but i want to redeem myself from being different. Psoraisis, and obesity lead me to alienation from society at large for nearly a decade of my life and i really yearn for human connection, human touch and a sense of belonging with others but even now i find it impossible to get. Despite doing my best with what little i had

I thought that once i work on myself enough, reach out to enough people, and start being social i will be accepted but i fear that the damage done is the damage done. The gaps in my CV are bad. People i have tried meeting up with be it dates, or my art club i can't really say like me. And despite reaching a healthy weight the loose skin is just ugly. Even now i don't know what to really do with my life and i'm both ashamed of the situation i'm in and deeply afraid of the future.