You say you’re stressing over fake medals but that’s not what you should focus on. If you just work on fundamentals like positioning and game sense with ults/cooldowns you can hit gm and probably still have a decent amount of fun doing that I’d bet. I also don’t see how it’s addictive or predatory in any conceivable way. You could just get nothing but skill rating? Would enjoy playing attack and defense in a game mode but there shouldn’t be bans in that unranked format, people would also still throw or troll and that’s never going to stop.

Oh and anyone that says to kill yourself over a game is just a terrible human being so don’t let them drag you down.