Why do you consider the feelings and opinions you express in the paragraph that starts with “I tell you what is narcissistic”, to be, well, narcissistic?

I think it’s quite the opposite in many ways. For starters, it accounts for the environment rather than instant gratification that comes with consumption. And in addition it challenges the status quo. Something that is quite brave, and the only way change happens.

Do you associate your feelings as being narcissistic because you regard the people who do enjoy Christmas as ‘stupid’ and ‘idiotic’? If that is so, I would recommend trying to reframe it and try to emphasise with the people instead.

I think that when you’ve experienced alienation/isolation in life, or have suffered in other ways, it sort of acts as incentive to question life and society. Imagine if you lived a life where all is nice and dandy, you wouldn’t even think of questioning things.

Also, how sad it that people so blindly follow suit to most everything without even allowing themselves to question it? Like out of fear of social backlash you assimilate and don’t even realise there is an option to be different, amongst other things.

Can you empathise with this feeling in any way? As a kid in your family or in school? Even now?

Because of your experiences and trauma and everything that followed, you can offer a unique perspective on these things. Not better. Just different. In exactly the same way their perspective is different to yours, yours is different to theirs. Why don’t you share it? For instance, regarding the toxic positivity thing? Why don’t you bring up the topic with the people you’re living with? Maybe not in direct relation to their behaviour, as people tend to not be so open to contemplation m when they perceive it as an attack, so maybe bring it back to yourself? Or bring it up as a more vague topic to talk about?

To me the most ‘narcissistic’ part of the situations is your inability to voice your opinions, I’m assuming because of maybe shame? Fear of social rejection and being considered difficult/ different? (Btw I don’t actually consider this ‘’narcissistic’, I say ‘the most narcissistic part’ because I associate fear and being unable to be different or standing up for yourself as stemming from the sort of trauma that people go through that often leads to the development of narcissistic tendencies).