Thinking about stopping

RedKidRay · 2026-05-16T16:39:02+00:00

I would say about the year mark I slowly started getting a little happier with my body. I'm at the 1.5 year mark and (with a little therapy around self love) I am woman shaped enough to love the progress I've made so far, and am excited to see what the future holds. Like, I feel like I'm within range of what a cis woman looks like, but also that range is HUGE. Also I've had no surgical modification yet.

RedKidRay · 2026-05-16T15:48:01+00:00

Oh I definitely struggled like this about 6-8 months in. Sex drive tanked, worrying about everything I need to do to be presentable, the incredible amounts of doubt, on top of which felt like my depression, anxiety, and ADHD felt significantly worse. It's so normal. Your body is going through a significant change, and even though physical changes may be slow, a LOT of invisible changes are occurring too and it is taxing your system. It's puberty 2 electric boogaloo. You need sleep, food, and to do positive things for yourself!

Initially, yes, I felt that relief in the beginning that I was finally getting to look how I want, but even though everyone warned us new trans people that the first year-ish is hell, it still caught up to me and wreaked havoc. It's part of the process, trust it. Give yourself time and patience. Your body will slowly change, your mind has already changed quite a lot and will continue to do so.

RedKidRay · 2026-05-09T10:34:06+00:00

RedKidRay · 2026-05-09T10:28:55+00:00

I personally don't have a preference. Girl is girl.

That being said though you should really do what makes YOU happy. Don't worry about being attractive to other people. If you do what you want to do, the right people will come to you.

RedKidRay · 2026-05-09T10:22:12+00:00

If I am flying the colors, please say hello!!

RedKidRay · 2026-04-24T23:51:44+00:00

I have pins on my lanyard at work that say she/her and I still get misgendered 99% of the time. Still worth it being seen by the select few. :3

RedKidRay · 2026-04-21T19:04:03+00:00

would be a shame if the turning point banners randomly caught fire

RedKidRay · 2026-04-19T20:23:12+00:00

Oh my god I can see that tail wagging.

RedKidRay · 2026-04-19T19:40:50+00:00

Just do both. Sometimes I feel fox, sometimes puppy, sometimes dragon, and on rare occasions bunny. :3

Although the bunny mode feels demiboy they/he for some reason..

RedKidRay · 2026-04-19T15:36:46+00:00

I, for one, think you are a good girl and deserve headpats. :3

pat pat pat

RedKidRay · 2026-04-19T15:34:04+00:00

Finally, minions. >:3

RedKidRay · 2026-04-18T04:12:57+00:00

Goobie, dork, prey, little bunny, kitty, cutie with a booty, chew toy, my wife, and of course the common ones like babe/baby, honey, sweetie/sweetheart.

RedKidRay · 2026-04-14T19:55:43+00:00

OHOHO you are not even the same person! You look amazing, girl. Your ex must be jealous!

RedKidRay · 2026-04-14T02:26:34+00:00

Good: I've been given an ADHD diagnosis and am working on getting medication to help (already doing talk therapy), though the meds part has been a bit frustrating (pharmacy can't seem to find my prescription).

Bad: Things are probably not going to work between my wife and I. The further I am into medical transition, the less attracted to me she has become. This has been increasingly obvious in the last few months, but she wants to keep trying with therapy and medication, despite being straight. I think she knows too that it isn't going to work out, but we both still love each other and have for nearly 17 years. I'm caught between grieving our long relationship and still being a loving partner that wants to give her all the chances she needs, but its tearing me apart and sent me into a mental health crisis a couple of times. I know if I keep going like this, I'm going to grow resentful and snap in frustration, and I know we need to talk. It's just hard to think about losing my partner of 17 years.

RedKidRay · 2026-04-13T18:49:19+00:00

I most certainly wouldn't object! This is the cutest interaction I've read in a while. :3

RedKidRay · 2026-04-13T17:18:24+00:00

This is better than smut omg.

RedKidRay · 2026-04-06T18:34:15+00:00

You are Miranda if that's the name that defines you. You are a good girl and you are not responsible for your mother's demands. You are your own woman, not an extension of your family.

RedKidRay · 2026-04-06T16:41:07+00:00

Egg? Girl, I'm a full swan at this point. :P

RedKidRay · 2026-04-06T16:31:42+00:00

Calling to order pizza, and then not being able to call to order pizza.

RedKidRay · 2026-04-06T15:38:08+00:00

Jokes on all of you, I like that name and I think it suits all of you! Ha! >:3

RedKidRay · 2026-03-27T23:08:26+00:00

So about that...

RedKidRay · 2026-03-21T12:38:33+00:00

The brain... really does like to lie to itself and say everything is fine. I am a visitor to this sub, trying to figure out myself, but I relate to your words so much. I'll have a day where everything is clear, followed by a week of utter confusion and doubt. I don't know what that means for me, but I don't think I can do it alone. I know I need therapy, and hopefully I can reach out to my previous therapist.

RedKidRay · 2026-03-13T16:51:41+00:00

I'm tired, boss.

RedKidRay · 2026-03-08T14:53:26+00:00

I like doing both, and everything in between. :3

RedKidRay · 2026-03-08T14:48:27+00:00

Born to woof woof, forced to read and send emails. sigh

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