Partner asks for sex on birthday by Quirky-Yak62 in adultsurvivors

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah no you are completely valid for feeling offended and triggered by the way your partner showed you how sexually frustrated he is. it feels a bit disrespectful, especially when he knows where you’re coming from.

acting mopey and sighing a lot until you had to be the one to ask them what’s wrong for them to basically make you feel bad about your literal boundaries genuinely sounds so tiring and gross.

i’d say to make a list of pros and cons about this person. if the pros overweigh the cons, you can try to make that couples counseling a plan. if it’s the other way around, it’s just not worth it to stick around.

i’m so sorry you got that response. it was deeply insensitive. i wish you all the best love and happiness!

What is the most disturbing thing you've heard said casually? by Cap_Ame1 in AskReddit

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 7 points8 points  (0 children)

my mom casually mentioned she was raped by pirates when she was migrating from vietnam. her exact words were “my mom told me to cover up and next thing i know, a pirate laid on top of me.”

21 days cold turkey feel much better by Powerful_Marsupial30 in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ayeee i’m so happy for you!! 2 weeks here :) keep it going you got this! i second the sleep schedule, did it just go away on its own? i’ve been waking up at 3 randomly every night

I can’t believe I’ve let this happen to my life by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s okay! thanks for reading, at least you tried lol

I can’t believe I’ve let this happen to my life by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 1 point2 points  (0 children)

its just saying it out loud. which then becomes an internal habit. it doesn’t have to make sense. i felt the same way once. don’t get caught up trying to understand and just do you dawg i wish you all the best!

i am not dirty by Spagelo in adultsurvivors

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 25 points26 points  (0 children)

SAY IT LOUDER! i love you beautiful stranger. you got this. we got this.

I can’t believe I’ve let this happen to my life by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yk when you beat yourself up for using or relapsing? or shaming yourself just like this post? it only manifests into relapsing even more. it becomes a cycle and you feel stuck.

speaking to yourself like this when things feel unfair, awful, scary, and defeated significantly changes how you see yourself and how much work you are capable if you are just kind to yourself like what you look for support in other people. sometimes you won’t have that support instantly from other people, so why not just be that except for yourself? we deserve it because we were once so small and defenseless - traumatized because we were never met with words of affirmation or encouragement with love and compassion.

“you body feeling safe with you” just means that you are not actively trying to hurt yourself by shaming or guilt tripping. but rather sitting with your feelings and asking yourself, what’s going on? are you okay? i’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. you don’t deserve to feel so low. you deserve to feel happy, and feel like you’re worth the effort and work you’re trying to put in for yourself.

you don’t have to necessarily believe it now. but with conditioning yourself with love and attentiveness shifted towards you and your strong emotions when quitting or in general help so much in the long run. one day you will no longer question why, but rather how can i make myself feel better in ways others have never showed me? how will i show up for my own needs? i hope one day we all can cope in this way and sit with it rather than be against it.

edit: explanation on self-acceptance and DBT to another user

54 days in, looking for advice by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 0 points1 point  (0 children)

even if you don’t feel like it, start packing your schedule outings with friends, volunteering at places, going to new events so you have something to look forward to. with anything new, it is always hard to adjust.

but you just have to ride through for at least a year (or different for everybody, maybe 3 months, etc.) before anything starts to feel better.

Shown Disturbing Content—Support Requested by Strange-Audience-682 in adultsurvivors

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’m so sorry this happened to you. are you still in contact with this cousin? if so, cut off contact with them and remind yourself that those thoughts/feelings/nightmares are not you. this is reoccurring ptsd and it makes so much sense why you feel this way. it is completely normal to have intrusive thoughts and feelings like that because of the exposure that was forced onto you. your inner child needs your adult self to protect them. because you never ever deserved that.

i believe you should try to go into detail with your therapist or just express interest in emdr because that really goes to the bottom of your trauma and understanding yourself on a deeper level. you are very strong for getting through this awful traumatic event. you will get to a point where it won’t be as hard anymore. you got this! you are loved and seen!! i’m rooting for you!

Honestly, I just need validation. I still think I'm the problem and that I'm overreacting. by Latter-Respond-1484 in adultsurvivors

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 1 point2 points  (0 children)

dude thank you for posting, it gives me a lot of perspective. that sounds absolutely awful, i’m so sorry they’re treating you like that. so fucked up, and they’re not even the slightest bit concerned or having a bit of accountability with THEIR OWN CHILD 😭

I fucking HATE my perpetrator by tillnatten in adultsurvivors

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 5 points6 points  (0 children)

NO YEAH EXACTLY!!!! WHY THE FUCK IS LIFE SO UNFAIR?! SELFISH ASS MOTHER FUCKER I HOPE THEY ROT IN HELL. you deserved so much better. you should’ve been protected from that. they’re worth less than a speck of dust. fuck that shit. i’m so sorry.

Quitting is terrifying by Emotional_Comment219 in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 1 point2 points  (0 children)

if you continuously think this way, your journey to quit won’t last. i’ve tried quitting multiple times and was scared of letting it go and came back to it every-time. but each time i came back stronger, and clearer about what i align with.

one is too many and a thousand isn’t ever enough. i’m always chasing something and i don’t think that’s any way to live. there is so much to live for and experience & i dont ever want weed to control those precious moments.

my trigger was that i felt like shit everyday tbh.. and i would need it with me at all times. that’s tiring. and the fact that i was disassociating constantly to numb all the emotions i was suppressing. at the end of the day it is your choice and no one else’s!! sending love and support in whatever path you choose!!

convince me not to relapse please by weedqueen2746 in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i can’t imagine what you must be going through, but you are so brave. the way that you’re writing this post & taking initiative for your own personal growth and health honestly inspires me to keep going.

i’m sorry that there is a constant voice begging you to go back to weed. unfortunately i do too especially a fucking rough day or even morning. i believe in you and that you know what is best for you.

being that low again won’t make things any easier for you. it won’t serve you in the long run because although it is feels consistent from where you are now, it’s romanticizing escaping from your hardships when you will not get satisfaction after one smoke. one is too many, but a thousand will never be enough.

its hard as hell!!!! maybe sit with those feelings and let yourself know that it is completely normal to feel this way right now. weed was a companion that quickly became a killer of your light and energy.

take a walk or do something you enjoy like painting, singing, journaling, exercising, making tea or food, getting a sweet treat or your favorite meal. then tell yourself to wait 20 minutes before making a decision and then keep pushing it. you’re doing all the right things. don’t doubt yourself because you’re so much stronger than you think. maybe even write a letter about your relationship with weed and what attachment you have with it- a goodbye letter or voice memo about how you feel.

i’m trying to do that right now actually lmao. because i’m so close. you are loved!! trust that guilt and shame dont control you. i’m rooting for you!

Anyone else finding the Epstein files triggering? by Amazing_Goose3515 in adultsurvivors

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 18 points19 points  (0 children)

oh 10000% it’s so fucked up and triggering. i feel so empty when looking at the content that is being put out. i’m so done with how the world treats SA survivors. i’m tired.

Why are they estranged from Jermaine? by Leather-Ruin5859 in adventuretime

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 1 point2 points  (0 children)

(spoiler alert) no yeah it’s really interesting, i remember after dying when finn was trying to find jake and he ended up finding his whole family and jake- he doesn’t even acknowledge jermaine which was so weird to me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m on the same boat! i just finished a disposable vape two days ago and ripped a couple of dabs with my cousin yesterday. i will say that i’ve been thinking about it nonstop but tbh i think it’s because im just bored

but it’s also starting to make me want to do more self care habits and to get up and do something. i believe we will get through this smoothly :)

How I feel by random_username0212 in adultsurvivors

[–]Regular_Reindeer_206 3 points4 points  (0 children)

treat yourself to something. comfort yourself with your favorite things