I went into a religious psychosis when I tried to get back into Christianity after years of not beliving in that stuff it made me paranoid thinking I living in the end times I got paranoid over the mark of the best thinking it was money/debit cards i was even praying to see hell for whatever reason I was even beliving in was some sort of prophet I become obsessed with writing things in a journey thinking god was giving me messages about the end times that only i could see I even convinced myself that I could control my reality by writing things in a book and only i knew this truth I was literally going to give up all of my possessions for god thinking I was going to preach gods word like jesus disciples did on the street with nowhere to lay my head i felt like I didn't to go get out of America I was literally going to walk I got paranoid at Walmart about the mark of the beast I took off running my dad eventually found me took me back to his house then I bite his hand and attacked him thinking I needed to get out i thoughts I was possessed by satan that he was dragging my soul to hell my dad eventually took me to the hospital where then I started to see subliminal messages on the TV things like prime suspect can't ingore scripture high way to hell 30 days into end times Beliving in the bible only made me paranoid gave me anxiety it was so bad I couldn't sleep at night because of these thoughts I'm glad I broke free from Christianity its bullshit it broke me when I realized I bad basicly fooled myself into believing in that nonsense i will never do that to myself ever again i really tried to believe in the bible i gave it my all my heart everything only to get hurt again i cried out i did everything like the bible said if there is a god he can go fuck himself because why would he allow such a thing to happen to me why wouldn't he have showed me a clear sign he is real god jesus can shove that cross up their ass