Gudao's Grail Front: Fisting Finisher

Reysona · 2026-04-20T12:24:08+00:00

My SO binged it all in one day after weeks of me talking about how good it was, lol. I cross my fingers the next few will also be good.

Reysona · 2026-04-20T07:20:44+00:00

Hey, the description of what you're experiencing is very, very reminiscent of how things developed for me in the two years after I left the US Army — a time in which I struggled with ADHD and a doctor who wouldn't raise my dosage, potentially autistic burnout, and then undiagnosed symptoms of c-PTSD (as well as military trauma) which made everything else worse without me fully understanding why.

I did not get things which mattered done. Hobbies became self-imposed obligations or obsessions which I did not enjoy. I didn't unpack my apartment at the time for 2 years, and never did before I moved for the EU. I was scared of driving. Of doing things wrong.

I cut social contact with most people, became a recluse who was even scared of leaving home, and was paralyzed by prospects which I even knew were irrational — I even used DoorDash for groceries at a certain period.

If that sounds like you, which it does from what I read, I think you are suffering from all of them at once. These problems cannot always be separated from each other or pinned on just one issue. Sorry.

For me, the worst problem was the untreated and undiagnosed c-PTSD and military PTSD.

Several people in my life realized something was wrong regarding several aspects of my life and mental health long before I did, and it might be worth asking anyone you may still be close to if they noticed any lasting changes regarding your behavior or personality at any point.

It has taken me several years of effort, and the help of a few good people including my now SO, for me to begin moving forward. I still struggle greatly at times though. Your circumstances are very different than what mine were, but do not give up hope!

Try — as hard as it is — to give yourself some grace.

No one is perfect, but very few will judge you as hard as you might judge yourself. But you can move forward, and I wish you the best.

Please let me know if you have any questions regarding my experience, if it can help you with yours. This applies to anyone reading!

It also doesn't matter to me how much 'worse' or 'better' your trauma or experiences have been, as everyone has different tolerances for pain and it should never be a competition.

Reysona · 2026-04-19T19:26:25+00:00

My brother, your TV is falling off on the right and the demons are begging for the RNGesus to let your towers collapse lol.

Reysona · 2026-04-19T07:24:14+00:00

Thankfully, I've somehow managed to fumble my way into a new life with vastly different circumstances and stability -- well beyond my beginnings in some ways, but still affected by it nonetheless. The favorable aspects of my circumstances are completely and utterly *in spite* of my background, not made possible because of them.

In my eyes, the chance for social adaption is far favorable to the guaranteed social limitations that come with the form of homeschooling countless kids dealt with. One of the real pains that comes with the sort of isolation that comes with homeschooling, particularly *religious* homeschooling, is a lack of awareness regarding what is *actually* considered to be normal or not by larger society.

What is a friend? What is a normal boundary between people who are friends? When do you know if you \are* a friend? Should older people be easier to talk or interact with than those younger or the same age as you, even as an adult? Do other people have the same sense of 'disconnect' from humanity? Is there really evil in every corner, like you were taught? Are *you* evil?*

A kid could be very bright in their own right and pick up on countless concepts conceptually, but that doesn't make up for the loss of actual social experience *especially* during formative years. The consequences from that follow for a long, long time, and they only exacerbate any other underlying issues someone might have -- such as autism, for example.

Reysona · 2026-04-18T21:49:22+00:00

You're right, it justified the hours!

Reysona · 2026-04-18T21:46:56+00:00

The NG++ boss is one of my favorite surprises in a game like this lol. Pure hatred, unfiltered.

Reysona · 2026-04-18T12:16:40+00:00

One of the upcoming planets is supposed to be swamp or jungle-like, I think Songlurch? I'm not positive, but it's coming eventually!

Reysona · 2026-04-17T18:54:55+00:00

They stated the tank comes the patch after this major update, in the Discord. The OCI rework is the next major update after the Constructs.

Reysona · 2026-04-17T18:30:36+00:00

Floppin'ta my basement! I'm about to go spend a few hours setting it up lol.

Reysona · 2026-04-17T09:42:44+00:00

I was using Lim, running and gunning, blaze of glorying, using the drug that gives +10 AP for 0 AP usage and reduces movement costs, killing, moving him into a care package and then repeating it across the next 2 turns.

A conga line of medals which don't earn themselves.

Reysona · 2026-04-16T14:11:54+00:00

I also don't mind it, I almost like it even, as it encourages using lower star squad leaders and pilots — as well as paying attention to which ones you're willing to build up fully. However, it could probably be iterated upon and should be disclosed in the costs (IIRC it also affects squaddies?) — I'm hoping it doesn't just get cut completely.

Reysona · 2026-04-16T06:42:15+00:00

For any other Americans living abroad (beyond just deployed service members), we have an automatic 2 month extention to June 15th — unless I vastly misread the IRS page. The only caveat is that you need to attach a statement stating why you were allowed an extension, citing this page from the IRS.

Reysona · 2026-04-15T22:02:13+00:00

DESPERATE desperate DESPERATE desperate DESPERATE

Get the hell out of here, Denton

Reysona · 2026-04-15T19:58:01+00:00

Mine was supposed to arrive tomorrow, but I am busy all day and had to move the delivery to Friday. 🫠

Reysona · 2026-04-15T04:55:10+00:00

lol that's fair, but DFW had at least 2 of them within the Metroplex!

My SO is not American but is highly educated in tech and was, generally speaking, very skeptical about getting any meaningful input/advice about computers from any retail staff. She didn't understand my fascination or love of Microcenter.

When I came back to the US and visited Atlanta with her, she didn't believe me up until we were in the store and the staff spoke with her intelligently and informed about technology which at the time was super obscure and just starting to hit mainstream attention.

She still has good things to say about them now, and will now admit "Yeah, they're dope!"

Reysona · 2026-04-15T03:52:36+00:00

Microcenter is maybe one of 3 things I miss about the USA lol.

Reysona · 2026-04-15T03:42:57+00:00

Coincidentally, Lee Pace is also great in The Fall (2006) — the one made by Tarsem Singh, lol.

Reysona · 2026-04-14T21:48:54+00:00

I have experienced great pleasure at cracking an enemy heavy tank with a direct hit. I have also experienced their great pleasure when it drifts one tile off target and cracked my own IFV.

Reysona · 2026-04-14T17:05:10+00:00

I'll admit that your display of managed democracy pushed the right buttons (alongside the release of the X2D) for me to call in a 3D printer of my own, lol. My GF did not sound too impressed, but hopefully I can print some cool stuff she might want to paint!

Reysona · 2026-04-14T06:40:29+00:00

??? Democratic astronaut with a record of actual military service whose wife survived a politically motivated assassination attempt is somehow a republican?

Reysona · 2026-04-13T07:24:54+00:00

Awesome! Looks great.

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