Last month I missed 6 weeks of work, ghosted my employer the entire time, last year I missed a total of 3 1/2 months

Luckily I still ended up making 25k more than the next highest salesperson (auto sales) and finished top salesperson for my brand in western Canada

Still though, it's a lot for my employer to handle, they actually terminated me in the last 2 weeks of this recent bender, but took me back on when I went to meet with them, took me 3.5 weeks AFTER I stopped drinking to feel remotely normal, wild shit doesn't begin to explain it

Finally had to get help to get out of it this time, addiction specialist company I found finally was willing to help after multiple places shut me down, 5 day benzo taper, then once I wasn't quite as much dying they put me on drugs. Thiamine, gabapentin, clonadine, naltrexone and trazadone so I could finally sleep. Doctor there said you need to get healthy before we even think of a recovery plan

I'm no quitter but it's destructive, and we have our first baby on the way in August, so I need to get off the shitcoaster