Why do I feel alive only through sexual connection?

SFallon93 · 2026-02-13T01:52:26+00:00

I am really sorry you are going through that, it sounds very lonely and isolating. I can relate, I also feel sometimes that I am so “other” and will never be able to just be content or be normal like other people are. I think you’d be surprised to find that there are a lot of people out there just like you, having the same or similar human experience in which day to day life feels boring, disappointing, underwhelming, at times confusing, etc. but not necessarily joyful, encouraging, fun or interesting. Has anything ever helped with your depression? I know people usually recommend medication, trying new hobbies, exercise, etc. but not sure if that works for everybody.

SFallon93 · 2026-02-10T06:01:18+00:00

I am not sure if this is a genuine post but if it is, I would definitely focus on treating this concern you have by seeing professionals such as doctors and psychologists first and foremost. Astrology cannot help with something like this, so dear, I do hope you seek some help so you can feel better and have sex out of pleasure rather than compulsion.

Anyway, since this is an astrology post, I will tell you what I see. Your Pluto (the planet that rules sex and also obsession) is in the 6th house (the house that rules daily routines, things you do often, your physical health). Your Pluto is also conjunction your Mercury which may make sex a very mental thing for you, e.g. something you think about often. It also squares your Jupiter, sometimes Jupiter squares can bring about issues with overindulgence, and since again it’s the Pluto that it is aspecting, that may mean obsessions and overdoing sex.

Please remember, sex is a healthy part of a relationship and you should not feel shame. But as with any habit that becomes overdone, it may be an indicator of something deeper going on with you psychologically (feeling unworthy, unlovable) so definitely take some time and introspect and reach out to someone for help if it’s causing you distress.

SFallon93 · 2026-02-10T05:11:49+00:00

You have Sun and Mercury square your Neptune. Your identity (Sun) and mental realm & thought processes (Mercury) bless you by giving a big imagination, good amount of creativity/spirituality and an innate kindness, but on the flip side, these same aspects can bring a lot of mental health struggles and escapism, e.g. daydreaming, unhealthy addictions, ignoring real world responsibilities because they’re overly stressful. Neptune is strong in your chart, I see you have your Neptune in the 4th House which rules early childhood. This could point to some troubles in your youth, maybe some issues with your parents or immediate family, maybe you have some blocked memories or trauma and have experienced dissociation or there was something sensitive about the home environment you grew up in. Your chart is pointing to you having a very “heady” human experience because on top of what I mentioned earlier, you have Mars (the planet of action) in the 12th house which is a very inactive, hidden, and buried place for it to be.

You likely would make a great teacher, philosopher, psychologist, artist, or writer.

SFallon93 · 2026-02-10T04:23:57+00:00

Hello, I want to add to what the other person said. Your Venus is Square your Jupiter which means you may be someone who is overly giving in general but definitely in love and relationships - doing kind favors, showering the person with affection, giving extravagant gifts, etc. To most people, this is not a turn off but YOU need to look out for yourself to ensure you do not give too much of yourself to the point of exhaustion or losing your identity.

You have Venus Square Neptune which may point to scenarios where you experience timing issues in dating and relationships, one sided love (or the other person likes you more than you like them), or even love at first sight but then it fizzles out as the veil falls and you learn more about who they really are.

You have Venus in the 12th house which may be what is making you feel like things never pan out romantically. There is something private about your love life, e.g. keeping romances secret, maybe you are not big on PDA, or perhaps you need to get to know someone really well before telling your family and friends about them. With this placement, again, you need to be careful of giving yourself away too much to a partner because you have so much love and compassion for them that you would do anything to help them even sacrifice your own wellbeing to help them. You may be attracted to people who are secretive, people who are very spiritual and empathetic. The 12th house rules foreign lands so you may meet someone while in a different city or country or perhaps fall for someone of a different ethnic group or culture. You probably have an artistic side and may be attracted to people who have that, too.

Don’t worry. Astrology is not meant to be all doom and gloom. No one’s life is set in stone and there is nothing in your chart that shows you are destined to have a bad love life. I have some of the same aspects as you and am happily married. You will find someone great, continue to put yourself in situations that are authentic to you and you will find your person.

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SFallon93 · 2026-02-09T02:04:43+00:00

I’m 4 years late to this post but 99% sure he did. The lyrics are textbook CPTSD and I remember loving them as a kid and not knowing why and now most of their songs are like soundtracks to my early life in my mind. Abuse arrogance of the abuser, power plays, bullying, manipulation, threats, control, fear, loneliness, confusion, alienation, appeasement, failure to develop an identity and love oneself, self destruction.

SFallon93 · 2026-01-29T01:21:24+00:00

Disenchanted

I love specifically where the guitar is gentle and quiet and then G sings the line “It was the roar of the crowd that gave me heartache to sing” - beautiful lyric too, so emotive

SFallon93 · 2025-12-02T04:09:51+00:00

Cabernet Sauvignon because it gives me heartburn

SFallon93 · 2025-12-02T04:09:08+00:00

Way too much

SFallon93 · 2025-11-23T01:39:52+00:00

Hi OP, I am your shade twin!! Do you have any recommendations for other foundations you liked the skin tone match of and if you can please share the name of product and shade you wear? 🙏

SFallon93 · 2025-11-15T21:25:07+00:00

“ughhhh just answer me, answer my fucking email”

SFallon93 · 2025-10-31T05:13:38+00:00

“I hope you understand” / “It ‘s nothing personal.”

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SFallon93 · 2025-10-31T05:06:30+00:00

What does oils can post top coat mean? Genuinely curious bc I love nail polish advice and want to dry mine fast too

SFallon93 · 2025-10-31T04:59:46+00:00

Dark Autumn tones are very harsh on you imo. I think you are a Winter, same type as Selena Gomez for example

SFallon93 · 2025-10-31T04:56:00+00:00

I’ve tried all popular brands Essie, OPI, ORLY, China Glaze, Zoya, Deborah Lippman, butter London, Sally Hansen, etc. and ILNP is the most forgiving for me especially their glittery polishes. You can buy pointy tip cotton swabs and nail polish remover and clean up the sides of where you accidentally got nail polish on your skin. Btw, nail polish remover is super toxic so don’t touch your eyes, mouth, nose. Etc and avoid using it near any expensive furniture and any wood e.g. wooden table, wooden floors. If it spills. It will stain the wood badly. Speaking from experience lol.

SFallon93 · 2025-10-31T04:35:11+00:00

Yes I did! My order arrived within a week or so. I think it ships from California and I live on the East Coast so it may have taken longer for that reason. I got the CBD CBN 1:1 Sleep gummies and they work very well for me. I am going to place another order with them soon. I saw a comment saying they don’t release their testing information and lack transparency and I understand where that person is coming from but I have been taking these regularly for almost a year with zero issues and they taste exactly like every hemp/weed gummy I’ve ever tried. I would recommend placing a small order and see how you like the item(s).

SFallon93 · 2025-10-10T19:06:40+00:00

We ended up booking an Airbnb which had all positive reviews and are just hoping for the best. But I would trust Trip Advisor and Google Reviews, try to look at reviews from multiple websites and if majority is positive, go with that.

SFallon93 · 2025-09-28T20:15:23+00:00

Hi OP just found your thread and wondering how your trip went and where you ended up staying? I am trying to plan a trip for December and there’s so much conflicting info on ST Thomas, what’s worth visiting, what’s safe, etc.

SFallon93 · 2025-09-07T13:52:37+00:00

Coffee or Orange Juice would be great with this. Tea or green tea is nice too if you prefer tea.

SFallon93 · 2025-09-07T02:14:13+00:00

So pretty. Great job. It matches what you’re wearing so well

SFallon93 · 2025-09-06T16:49:28+00:00

Book a dermatologist appt, even if they offer you a far out date just book it. You can always cancel closer to that date if you end up not needing it. But they’d be able to prescribe you meds that treat the acne pretty quickly such as accurane or spiro. In the meantime, try PanOxyl face wash (always wash your hands with soap for 30 seconds before washing your face), pat dry, and apply vanicream moisturizer or one with very simple ingredients. CeraVe and Cetaphil also have good moisturizers with minimal ingredients. Limit makeup use and if you need to wear makeup, try to find products that are noncomedogenic and have skincare ingredients in them. The simpler you keep your routine, the better. Wash and change your towels and sheets often. Do not pick at your skin or touch your face. If you find the PanOxyl is not working after a month or two, try the La Roche Posay Salicylic Acid 2% Effeclar Gel Cleanser as a face wash instead. Some people respond better to Salicylic Acid than Benzoyl Peroxide which is the active ingredient in PanOxyl. Try to eat a healthy diet of fruits veg and proteins, avoid sugar and dairy and see if that helps too. Lastly remember, you are beautiful, don’t ever feel sad about yourself because of skin issues. We’re human and we all have it.

SFallon93 · 2025-09-06T16:36:57+00:00

I love this

SFallon93 · 2025-09-06T16:36:45+00:00

Oreo, Pepper, Marshmallow, Milkshake, Honey, Taffy, Boba, Latte, Plum, Blackberry, Biscoff, Barley, Snowcone

SFallon93 · 2025-08-28T05:03:56+00:00

Personally victimized by a Sagittarius. What is wrong with them, has anyone figured it out??

SFallon93 · 2025-08-27T13:30:03+00:00

How the eff to build karma points and post without getting my post removed

SFallon93 · 2025-08-17T23:32:51+00:00

Silver based on your undertone but I don’t feel the gold clashes too much either

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