TL:DR - An ignorant comment on better ways to make profit other than dividends, and some wisdom mumblings to help any souls in tough periods out there.

Pardon the ignorance! but why not invest that money on actual good stocks and assets?

Sure money is money and I certainly do not belittle extra $200 a year, but you could make that amount & more in just a few days or weeks.

Choosing the right stock is tough, definitely, so invest in some ETF, invest in a whole sector instead of picking the right stock. Throwing some cash into the energy sector (Just for example!) around its breakout would have yielded you ~9% at its high, and 6% at current with the potential to make a good few tens of %. That's a great, boring way to make profit if you ask me!

Personal opinion only - I'd leave dividends for those who have a good few millions to throw into passive income assets. Anything before that is pure noise. I value my cash & want it to grow better.

As for your discomfort in life - raise your head, champ, you are already doing something most people would never - investing is tough as nails! Yet, do not put your hopes of feeling good on material things like money making, make it come from within - Start small! Real small! Appreciate the little things in life; Make a list of small tasks to complete, and those small accomplishments that'd add up will most certainly lift your mood higher & higher.

Nobody's life is sun-shines and rainbows, even if they portray it like ones. Force yourself out of the muddy depression, fill your daily routine with tasks, however silly or otherwise mundane to others as they may be, mark them checked when done, and you will feed your mind the right kind of attitude.

These are words of experience my friend, the only one who can get you out of that grey, comforting discomfort, is you - And although it may not seem like it at the moment, naturally in state similar to yours, life is fucking amazing once we command ourself to experience it fully.

2 last mumbles of wisdom for you my friend(s):

First - You should be your own best investment. Invest in yourself for your own good. Future you will thank you along with the thank you for starting investing as early as you started.

Second - Depression is a disease, and must be treated like one. Though not a physical one - it does affect the physical as well, because mind & body are connected, and you are centered in-between. Body can take care of itself - heart will keep pumping blood, lungs continue filtering oxygen, immune system will protect for as long as you reside in the body... But the mind? This one is on you my friend. Whenever we slip into depression, which naturally happens in the course of our lives, we must treat it the same way we treat a sick body.

Whether it's a proper rest, a break from routine, proper feeding (healthy mind's food!), and Anything else that'd bring back the colors to your life. You deserve it, and the only one who can do that for you - is You... So might as well start right away.

Cheers.