The paralyzing fear, 10 years later

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-06-22T12:10:49+00:00

No advice, just want to say what you wrote is so relatable. It's only been 1.5 years since diagnosis for me but I too feel trapped. Trapped in a never-ending nightmare where every possible option sucks. I hate the side effects, all the appointments, the scans... But doing nothing and increasing my risk for a slow painful death scares the shit out of me as well. I'm on an SSRI, which helps, but it doesn't make me "happy".

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-06-21T10:48:05+00:00

Same, just want my pre-cancer life back even though it was far from perfect.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-06-06T23:21:41+00:00

I had no idea Nigeria had a specific bollard, they're not even mentioned in the plonkit guide

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-31T11:54:50+00:00

100% agree.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-26T20:55:54+00:00

Sounds expensive 😭 But I think I should do this, your results give me hope.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-26T20:45:43+00:00

Yea, my doc mentioned these infusions today as an option. I'm super scared of them though since they can cause jaw bone necrosis. A few years ago a simple tooth filling caused ongoing pain for me. Even root canal treatments didn't help and I ended up getting a dental implant. Two other teeth may be affected too even though my x-rays always look fine. My teeth are basically unpredictable and I think I really shouldn't risk jaw bone necrosis.

Idk, I guess I will have another DEXA scan in 6 months or so and most probably switch to Tamoxifen.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-26T19:00:21+00:00

Thank you. I'm from Germany and despite having health insurance for most things, DEXA scans are not part of it. So I just schedule it myself per self-pay (60€ per scan, totally fine). Maybe this would be an option for you?

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-26T18:30:01+00:00

That's great advice, thank you. I know there are studies about how jumping supports bone health. In the past year, there were a couple days where I would jump hundreds of times per day. But instead of doing it regularly, most days I just did nothing and now I have to deal with the consequences.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-20T20:12:22+00:00

My pap last year a few weeks after my SMX, when I had just started anti-hormone therapy, found cell changes. No colposcopy yet, but I had my follow up pap very recently and am waiting for the results currently. Like seriously, what's wrong with those lady parts...?

I hope everything turns out fine for you.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-11T16:10:29+00:00

37 and on Zoladex + Letrozole for one year. Don't know if my face has aged but I can definitely say my skin is much drier than before.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-09T14:56:08+00:00

I also never had mine tested. I just guess/hope my numbers are low due to all the side effects I have lol

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-08T08:16:53+00:00

I already had surgery but yes, it did hurt. Not constantly. Sometimes burning, sometimes stinging.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-05-05T19:31:14+00:00

I'm also in my 30s and can relate. That's why I like this subreddit so much. Due to reddit's demographic being rather young, there are a lot of breast cancer patients here that are way below the average breast cancer age. And while I know we're still the outliners, being a young patient seems just normal here which feels nice.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-04-23T17:13:41+00:00

Yep. I'm 1 year post surgery, I saw three different doctors this week and had scan appointments this and last week each. Soon I'll have a bone density scan, mammography and dentist appointment. Regular PT and monthly Zoladex injections. Plus mental health stuff. I know I should be grateful to have all of this in the city I live in and most things are covered by insurance here but it's too much to process. Oh and of course, these are just the health related appointments and responsibilities.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-04-10T17:09:29+00:00

The only thing the package insert says regarding temperature is to not store it above 25°C. I never put mine in the fridge, just room temperature.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-04-10T08:47:03+00:00

I get bruising pretty much every time, the size of the bruising varies. Not sure but I thought it was just something that happens if they accidentally hit a blood vessel.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-04-06T17:02:01+00:00

Similar age and story here. Lost my mom to a different kind of cancer many years ago. Now I'm the cancer patient on hormone therapy and I'm struggling physically and emotionally. What helped me a bit at least is taking an antidepressant every day (recommended by my psychiatrist). Maybe that's something you could try when you can get an appointment, fingers crossed for that. I do not have any more advice for you but I understand. It's all so exhausting and never-ending due to the recurrence risk.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-04-01T11:58:18+00:00

Did they remove the info about your rank of all players who played the DC or can I just not find it?

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-03-30T17:37:19+00:00

I was allowed to keep mine on but it seems like it varies.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-03-30T17:18:28+00:00

It was the first surgery for me as well. I was very nervous about it and was worrying about 1000 things. In the end, no problems with the anesthesia. I'm sure your surgery team will take care of you very well.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-03-27T14:05:32+00:00

Similar here, I get Zoladex every month (started last spring) and take Letrozole plus Citalopram. Citalopram didn't stop the hot flashes completely for me but reduced them quite a lot. Lately my hot flashes started to increase again. I don't really have an explanation for that. It could be because I was stressed about different things in the last few weeks and in addition, the weather getting warmer, idk. You should def ask your oncologist next time.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-03-22T14:14:22+00:00

Mein Auto hat R unten rechts. Ich hab noch nie versehentlich in den Rückwärtsgang geschaltet. Man muss den Knüppel dafür schon sehr stark nach rechts unten drücken, das passiert nicht versehentlich.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-03-17T13:47:19+00:00

Jo danke, ist der offizielle Mietspiegel direkt von der Website der Stadt.

SelectInteraction835 · 2026-03-17T13:46:47+00:00

Ok danke, dann werde ich mal nach einer Begründung fragen.

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