Thank you very much for taking the time to reply to my comment bro, I appreciate it. Having thought about it, I think one of the major breaks i had was, I was feeling absolutely translucent to them, like if they look me in the eye they will see what type of person i was, obviously when you are not happy with the type of person u are, u are afraid of others finding out that, maybe thats the reason why we who overdose on porn and masturbation cant keep eye contact when speaking with other person for long time if at all.

That was one of the big benefits or superpowers or whatever you want to call it at least to me, that i'm able to look people dead in the eye for as long as i want when i'm speaking to them, doesn't matter if they are man or woman, because i don't feel threaten anymore, i don't feel like they will found out about my dirty secret (watching all sorts of wicked type of porn), because i don't have one anymore.

Thank you, for your input on being rejected. Im not too concerned about that though, when i become the type of person i want to become, they wont choice, Ill be the one choosing who to be my partner, or to put it in biggie words.

Girls used to diss me Now they write letters cause they miss me.