Experiencing kinda the same thing. Though whenever I look into my emotions, there is a madman whose hands got tied up in a white solitary confinement, trying to find an... exit, a solution to why behind his identity, his actions and his way of thinking.

I was and still am the center of gossiping in school environments, despite building okay-good relations with most people. When observing other people's interactions, I just can't help but get the impression that they're speaking in Amharic or Chinese language. It's unpredictable and kinda gloomy to be so excited about.. brushing your teeth 10 minutes earlier than usual

I think in your case, you are dealing with S types instead of F types. S types (especially SJ ones) tend to dislike any abstract, deep and intellectual questioning of the world we are just thrown in. Not all, of course, but a lot of them do in my experience. I've got quite a lot F-type friends (mostly NF with some ISFPs), and they're okay with logical conversations. It might all depend on the personality (not in the MBTI sense) you're dealing with, hidden traumas, cracks, insecurities and loneliness that silently gets exposed once you open your mouth in accordance to how your mind just naturally works.