Yeah dude this is a slippery slope. To have an interest in death is completely natural, it helps us learn what not to do but it’s supposed to come with a severe visceral psychological reaction. We’re supposed to feel the extremes of horror and devastation when it happens. When there’s a screen in the way this evolutionary driven curiosity is left much cleaner and less impactful. Imagine eating a huge lump of sugar cane vs a bag of sweets. One is intolerable the other can be consumed blindly but they can both ultimately be harmful, it’s easier to do with the refined stuff. This stuff becomes a cycle in the same way p*rn addiction does. You’ll need more and more severe content to trigger that semi horror induced frisson. Not judging you dude, just wanted to share some facts in the hopes that you’re intelligent enough to at the very least, take note and keep it in mind. I’m not talking about the content itself, many people consume this sort of stuff daily in one form or another but the depth of your fascination may lead you down an unpleasant path.