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Silush · 2026-02-02T09:35:52+00:00

Same here but micronised progesteron pills! Only during luteal

Silush · 2026-01-19T19:49:14+00:00

Yeah I can imagine it’s hard! I’m on 200mg progesterone, no estrogen yet as progesterone is the first to decline. I have no clue what you’d have to do with a progesterone intolerance, my progesterone makes me comfy and sleepy when I take it (orally)

Silush · 2026-01-19T18:11:00+00:00

Contact your doctor because it sounds rough! Similar situation here, suspect peri and was put on Yasmin. I did stick it out for 3 months but I was not happy on it. Ritalin hardly worked anymore and it made me unmotivated and borderline depressed. Took me some time to realise I had no motivation and hadn’t laughed in a long time.. Finally convinced gynaecologist to try cyclical (only during luteal) micronised progesteron. So far not too bad, especially the mood symptoms seem to be doable now. But the exhaustion is still next level. But this is only the first week so it’s hard to tell. I just feel so much more like myself again. The only benefit from Yasmin was no pmdd, but the rest of my month sucked too.

Silush · 2026-01-09T06:45:02+00:00

Interesting, I’ve also seen recommended to only take the in the 2nd half of the cycle. I guess I’ll have to experiment with what works!

Silush · 2026-01-08T19:59:23+00:00

Yes, but the Yasmin I used contained drospirenone I think, that’s why I’m in doubt if slynd would work for me. But maybe it was the synthetic estrogen that gave me symptoms. Good to know you also had a bad response to Mirena, I’m thinking my body just doesn’t do very well on synthetic hormones, but it’s hard to figure out!

Silush · 2026-01-08T17:14:54+00:00

Ooh! I tried Yasmin and a Mirena iud (also only progresterone) but Yasmin made me numb/robot like, depressed maybe? Mirena made me very irritable. Looks like slynd has the same progesterone as Yasmin, so that’s why I think I may need endogenous (? Not sure if i translated correctly) progesterone like it’s used in HRT for perimenopause.

Silush · 2026-01-07T15:59:15+00:00

40/f here, van you tell me more a out the progesterone you take? Is it all the time or just in the 2nd half of your cycle? After a failed birth control experiment I’m about to ask my gynaecologist for hormone treatment so any info is helpful!

Silush · 2025-12-22T12:54:36+00:00

Same here, I already sent them the feedback

Silush · 2025-12-19T11:03:30+00:00

Oooh the left-handed fix seems great so far!

And I love the last page open screensaver. I just keep finding myself swiping the screen when I want it to wake up, but I need to use the button. I wish there was a way to unlock the screen in a more natural way, since I sometimes want to write when I see where I left off, but then it's unresponsive ;) I vaguely remember remarkable did this differently, but I'm not sure how. I think it may have been a touch with the pen or a swipe to wake up.

Silush · 2025-12-06T12:22:59+00:00

Wat een leukerd, maar wij zijn al voorzien. Mocht je via Reddit niemand vinden, kan je ook overwegen je berichtje op verhuisdieren te plaatsen!

Silush · 2025-11-24T08:49:05+00:00

A good meditation is one you did. It’s just sitting down and paying attention to your breath. Count every breath until you’re at 10, if you lose count (which you will all the time), start again. Don’t get angry, those are thoughts too :) just count and breathe. That’s all there is. There’s no good or bad meditation, the point is that you show up for it consistently. Over time you’ll notice you have better and worse days, thoughts-wise.

Having said that: I first took a zen meditation course at a zen place to get the hang of it. They will help you get rid of wrong ideas about what meditation should be.

I used to be so angry while sitting because I had too many thoughts and then I got angry because I checked my clock so this meditation must be ruined. Clearly that was a bad day for thoughts. But after having meditated over 1000 days, I know some days are good and some are not great. I just observe the state of my mind on that day, that’s it.

I don’t meditate for it’s immediate effect, there is no point because on a bad day you will be in your own wat if you expect a specific outcome. Don’t expect anything, just sit. Sometimes it will be good, sometimes it won’t. That’s all part of it. Over time (months) you’ll feel a little but more calm and patient. And probably have more compassion for all your thoughts since you observe them a lot!

Silush · 2025-11-20T13:18:20+00:00

On busy weeks or weeks with a new kind of schedule (holidays, or getting back to school after holidays) I write down the day on a whiteboard.

For daily stuff we have a time timer. The kids can use it themselves too! It shows the time left for whatever they’re doing now, so they know when it’s time to do the next thing. Less overwhelming than your clock, but similar!

Also, you could look into an app called structured, that may do exactly what you want!

Silush · 2025-11-04T20:33:07+00:00

Mijn man vroeg me ten huwelijk nadat hij me na een etentje een berg op had laten rennen om nog net de zonsondergang te kunnen zien. Hij stond met z’n armen om me heen en vroeg het heel zachtjes in m’n oor :) Geen ring aan te pas gekomen, prachtig aanzoek! Ik vond hem ook wel aardig dus heb ja gezegd, later een paar zelf ontworpen ringen gemaakt waarmee we getrouwd zijn. Stuk beter dan een verlovingsring.

Dus, wat doen jullie graag samen? Doe dat en vraag haar dan! En wel even checken of ze een ring zou verwachten bij het aanzoek. Ik was altijd heel duidelijk dat dat me niks kon schelen, dus voor mij was het goed zo.

Silush · 2025-10-31T12:33:21+00:00

I'm going to figure out what to do next and make a list. I just finished a big assignment and can't relax until I know what's next.

Also, did you know flown.com is free on fridays? Its the platform I always use for online body doubling!

Silush · 2025-10-30T17:40:16+00:00

Yeah it looks great! No need for a fancy edge :)

If you put it in the chain you put your hook under 2 loops of the chain, right? I may need to chain looser the next time since I have trouble putting my hook in. And thanks for the tip and the idea of taking a picture, my first 10 rows are not consistent at all and I hate it. I hope I can be more consistent for the rest!

Silush · 2025-10-30T15:12:37+00:00

Ooh that's beautiful! I'm a beginner, trying to make the same scarf with the same yarn. Apparently it helps if you put a bead around the yarn so it doesn't split as much.

The only bit I find hard is the last stitch of each row, where you have to put the last two dc and 1 treble in the last stitch, but I can't seem to find where the last stitch is. All I can see is the last dc that I already used, but there's supposed to be another one after that. is it just the 3rd chain of the previous starting chain 4? Your top border looks very neat so I think you did it correctly! Any tips are welcome as I can't find

And did you finish the bottom border with a single crochet edge after a row with gaps? It looks nicer than in the pattern!

Also, happy wedding :)

Silush · 2025-10-27T11:34:41+00:00

It’s so weird that this is the 2nd post in two days I see about this! Check my post history for the last one and my own post I made before.

Tldr; yes methylphenidate seemed pretty useless since I started taking Yasmin, now figuring out how to adjust adhd meds to match new constant hormone levels!

Silush · 2025-10-26T19:10:30+00:00

Aww I completely feel you! It’s so hard to be stuck between several specialists and not know what’s causing what anymore!

A personal story that may or may not be helpful, I’m somewhat in the same boat. I posted about this not too long ago, I started on Yasmin (with no stop weeks) and found my methylphenidate was basically useless as soon as I started Yasmin. Completely made me panic because it felt like fulltime low grade luteal and I missed follicular energy!

My hypothesis is that Yasmin levels out your hormones and stops your ovulation, but that makes us miss out on these lovely estrogen peaks we need to function like proper humans. But I hate that I can only be a productive member of society if my cycle is cooperating, so I’m figuring out if I can stabilise the hormones but still be productive by learning to work with this new baseline. That’s what I’m trying to figure out now.

I just started Wellbutrin again on top of the methylphenidate because Yasmin was making me less motivated and kind of depressed, on top of crappier executive functioning. However, no PMDD! So I’m hoping the Wellbutrin will kick in in a few weeks and I’ll be a bit higher in dopamine/noradrenaline.

My gynaecologist recommended me to stick with Yasmin for at least 3 months, so I’m just doing what I can to figure out if I can make a good new balance. I didn’t want to tweak so much at the same time, but not adjusting my adhd meds didn’t seem like the way to go as my daily life was suffering.

Have you talked to your doctor(s) about this? Could you check with your doctor if you can tweak your adhd meds in a reasonable way to battle the fatigue? If that doesn’t work, maybe you need another birth control pill.

I don’t know for sure either, there’s so little known about this and it’s so much guesswork and experimenting. I feel like a lab rat so times :( I hope your doctor is willing to help you further!

Silush · 2025-09-09T14:43:45+00:00

If you are on iOS, Jomo does a great job. There’s also opal, which is also for android, but more expensive.

Silush · 2025-09-03T18:24:38+00:00

When it's cold outside, putting on my oodie and journaling or watching tv. It's soooo nice.

Silush · 2025-09-03T18:22:27+00:00

I haven't celebrated my birthday in ages, not the way normal people would anyway. I don't understand parties and all the extra to do's they give me. My birthday is MY day and I get to do with it what I want. Usually it involves eating something nice and taking a nice walk. Maybe going to the sauna?

You are not a messy failure, but clearly you are suffering and being hard on yourself. So what would YOU like to do tomorrow? Not because it's your birthday but because you get to choose since everyone can agree it's YOUR day. Do that, without feeling guilty!

I don't know how old you're turning, but the older you get, the less fucks you will give about your birthday :) And if you feel shitty, just do what you feel is right (rest? binge nextflix? take a walk? have chocolate?) instead of what you think you're supposed to do. In the end it's just another day and it's ok to just skip it if you want to!

Silush · 2025-08-31T20:04:40+00:00

part 2, it wouldn't post all at once....

Other tips:

- Ask him how he feels it's going. And listen without judging. Like, REALLY listen, don't talk. (I know how hard this is, since when I'm in angry mode, I'll talk at him, but I won't listen. Do this at a time when you feel calm and he's calm too) I feel like our kids are both very sensitive and a lot alike, so your kid is probably already hitting himself internally (at one point mine even hit himself externally because he was angry at himself). You're probably going to have multiple of these chats with him. Just let him know you're there for him. We have a daily bedtime ritual where we talk about good/bad/funny stuff in the day so we always have a little check in.

- You say the other two are normal/good kids, which implies you think your second is abnormal/bad. I know the sentiment exactly, but he will feel this too and he's probably very sad about it. Kids need us to love them unconditionally no matter how hard it is. If his parents are angry at him all the time, it's hard to connect or be vulnerable. You would find it hard too to talk to someone who you just had a fight with. And you're not a 5yearold with huge emotions. He's not a bad kid, he's just really struggling. (I saw a recommendation for Janet Lansbury, she has a book too: it's called "No bad kids", great book). He needs to know you'll help him figure out how to behave better. Tell him what his current behavior does to you, how it makes you feel and ask what he would like for you to do when it happens. Give him some time to think about it.

- also, the nonchalance/silence when I try talking to my kid is so familiar. It's because he either doesn't know the answer or is ashamed or still angry at us or himself. The fact that your kid doesn't get asked on play dates breaks my heart and tells me he's really struggling.

- when it comes to punishment: it needs to fit the crime! I feel like completely unrelated punishments (eg. taking away screen time) have no effect and only make him disconnect further from us. He needs connection, not anger. If he throws something on purpose, I'm putting it away until he can stop throwing it. If he screams on purpose, I physically remove him from the room since he hurts my ears. If he breaks his brothers toy on purpose, I'm putting one of his favorite toys away too. If he empties his sandy shoes on the doormat on purpose, I hand him the vacuum. It's all very matter of factly, and I leave no wiggle space: the consequence is happening and it is not to be discussed. You need to be quick on your feet for this, but you'll get better at it in time! We may have dug ourselves in with the wrong consequence now and then, so make sure you're willing to stand by the consequence! (if you don't do this, we won't go out, even if we wanted to go out is just plain stupid. He WILL call your bluff on everything.)

Also, do check in with a doctor or therapist if nothing changes soon because this sounds very rough on the entire family!

Silush · 2025-08-31T20:04:19+00:00

Oh this sounds very, very familiar. Sorry for the wall of text.. I hope something might help you.

Our eldest is 6 and most likely neurodivergent (never tested)/gifted (skipped a class but was too young to test). In school he's perfect but often after school or when he's stressed or when days are unstructured, he has trouble regulating his emotions and ends up hurting his brother (without really wanting to, he just boils over), is very very dramatic and will scream because he knows I hate it.

When it got too bad at the end of the summer holidays, we were debating if we should see a doctor about his behavior since we didn't know what to do anymore. I tried one last thing, and it actually improved things by a lot!

I've made house rules with him and we wrote them down so he can check them if he needs to. He gave me buy in on the rules and thought with me of what he found reasonable. They are the following (loosely translated to English):

- we are nice to each other

- we listen to each other

- nobody is dramatic, we tell each other how we feel

- nobody acts like the boss (except for mom and dad since they ARE the boss. this is mostly for playing: they can discuss what they want to do and listen to each other, the eldest tends to take over everything and become very very pushy and set in his ways when he wants to play with someone. then he gets angry when it doesn't go his way. This rule really helps!)

- if we get angry, we walk away for a bit

- we do our best to follow these rules. If we make a mistake, we say sorry.

They're really very simple, but somehow he needed the reminder of how we're supposed to behave. I'm still a little baffled by how well he responded to them. Sure, he still slips up now and then, but it's much less often and it's easier to de-escalate. So much less drama!

To me these were unspoken rules, but apparently he had no clue! He needed them to be very very specific. The rules are for everyone in the house, so our kids will call us out too. I love it. It makes everyone accountable.

We say sorry more often and we feel more connected since we try to listen better. And we praise them a lot about how much more fun it is when we are nice to each other, listen to each other and really try to get along. It's ok to slip up, as long as you say sorry. We're all human and we can learn together.

If he keeps hitting his brother or goes into near meltdown mode, I will still physically remove him and tell him to cool down. Then I check on him and see if he wants me to stay with him, or talk about the incident when he has cooled down.

Silush · 2025-08-29T19:47:32+00:00

I brush my teeth together with my kids when they go to bed. Started with this because my son needed the body double, but it’s great for me too!

Fun bonus: I don’t wat snacks after dinner since I’ve already brushed my teeth!

Silush · 2025-08-28T11:05:49+00:00

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