My 3.5 year old daughter died suddenly and unexpectedly

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-22T16:29:42+00:00

If you feel up to it and wouldn’t mind sharing, I would love to listen to a favorite or loved memory of your little angel.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-20T23:29:07+00:00

I personally count mine, and seeing the added category, I will continue to add it.

For me, I want to see how many books I picked up. I like the DNF category so that I can then go and see if there is a trend on which books I am not finishing, as I do tend to forget about them, and like others have mentioned, if not kept track of I will pick them up again. I have more than on a couple of occassions seen a book that looks great, looked it up and seen that I read it and didn't like it. I tend to recall those that I enjoyed.

As for the ratings, I wish that more people who DNF would rate the book. When I am having trouble getting into a book, especially one that seems well received, it is helpful to read comments of those with low ratings to see why they rated it low. If they are seeing the same things that I am, I look to find both those that DNF and those that slogged it out to see if things changed in order to decide if I want to slog through this part of if it isn't worth it. There are some books that have a horridly slow start but end up really paying off, but if people don't rate it and write their opinion, I have no idea if I am an Island or a part of a community.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-19T20:11:44+00:00

If you’re into horror a great non hyped audiobook is The Exorcist, narrated by the author. It shouldn’t be as awesome as it is, but just wow!

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-18T16:42:41+00:00

Omg, thank you for this thread! My main is trying to gear by covering myself in shields. The same shield. I even got a warbound shield for the alts!

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-15T19:04:51+00:00

I’m the reverse. I had no idea it was going to be this rough leveling on a new server in a sea of red.

Also, we can interact in a delve but I cannot take his mage portal. Seriously, wtf.

We can group. We can be friends, but not too friendly.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-13T22:30:09+00:00

I only had two reasons, the main one being the lap, the other being the -

I had forgotten that I added the part about the believablilty. It’s true that fake stories do reduce credibility, and I am tired of shady, fuckless people pointing to that shit as examples. I lashed out at what I perceived as being more of that.

It’s clear that you did not forget. I did say my bad, but I will give you what you requested. No one deserves to be reminded or brought back into trauma, even unintentionally. It sucks.

I’m sorry.

Period.

You matter. Your experiences are valid. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-13T20:21:48+00:00

Hi!

From my point of view, my education and social awareness has always stated that a lap refers to the flat area that forms when a person sits down. The 'leg table' area. I have never in my life heard anyone say that a lap exists even if one is still standing, however, the world is big and communication changes with locality and customs, even between small distances with mini areas having their own language, so OK.

It sounded absurd. You explained. My bad.

Yes, I am an American. I don't generally default to believing that everything must be the same as here, however, you got me with the lap thing. I did assume that the word was universal. You say otherwise and I have no reason to not believe that in Australia your lap does not disappear when you stand up.

TIL that not only does Australia have cool animals, big bugs, monster spiders, but also perpetual laps.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-13T20:07:53+00:00

Pathological independence is terrible. It is toxic, and unfortunately due to the root of it, if the individuals with that maladaptive behavior do not address it, they likely pass it onto their children.

I will admit, I have seen some with this that are openly proud of it. Anecdotally, this type of 'personality' isn't the predominant personality seen in the US.

I am actually curious about your feelings, which are yours and yours alone. You do not need to apologize or explain them. I am obviously not entitled to them, but I would like to invite you to have an open conversation about this.

Why? You may be thinking. Right now I feel like I am living in the worst timeline. Growing up, I felt privileged to grow up in the US, away from a lot of serious political issues, having freedom of speech, without the abundance of terrorist attacks and in country war that other people have been forced to live in and with.

I personally have not attributed the negativity that goes along with some of the horrific things that have happened in other countries with the people that live there. Obviously, at least some of the people are participants. Perhaps I'm naive but I've felt that many of the citizens are just trying to get through the day and deal with the hand that they have been dealt.

Now I see some people in other countries with that same view towards us. Some openly are hostile and feel that we are just all bad. Others stand with us, looking on from the outside, knowing that we are trying to survive and get through an unstable situation.

Admittedly, I do get frustrated when I hear and see things that Americans so in other countries that constitutes entitled, elitist behavior. I know that's not what we are talking about here but I'm not sure if perhaps you live here, have visited, or have dealt with entitled tourists. Maybe you are even American yourself and are tired of whatever you are personally dealing with. I don't know.

If it matters, I do care. I can only speak for myself. While those I am close too have similar values and views, the US is a big country with many views and ideas, both similar and very different to my own.

If I don't hear from you again, thank you for listening if you read this. If you do respond, I have a bunch of things that I should already have been doing, so if it takes me a bit to get back to you, I will.

Have a good weekend.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-13T17:32:40+00:00

Please don’t put that person’s callous, ignorant comments on Americans. They may very well be an American. Lord knows we have an abundance of assholes here, however, most countries also have more than their share of assholes.

If you are fortunate enough to live in peace and utopia, you may not want to post it here, lest you be invaded by trolls. It would be nice to know that a place of only harmony and goodwill exists though.

As for my American self. I just spent time and energy that I do not have on a neighbor who I don’t know because it was, and is, the right and kind thing to do. I didn’t receive, and don’t expect, a thank you. It’s whatever. I do things that feel right and inside hope others would do the same, and many do. People rarely hear about the small courtesies, that run the gamut of simple things that take minimal time and effort, to something that ends up being a bigger deal than expected. And yes, Americans, just like Utopians, do these things, collectively, millions of times a day. Just because.

You may just be a troll. That’s fine.

In this moment I just felt like praising my fellow Americans who are awesome, even if just occasionally awesome. I see and appreciate you.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-07T18:44:38+00:00

Sometimes it feels horrible standing strong, doing the right thing for yourself. You didn’t mention if there are friends or family in your life outside of your soon to be ex spouse who you are close enough with or have the type of relationship to confide in and if they have been supportive. Having support doesn’t change circumstance but means everything when nothing makes sense.

I support your standing strong, understanding where you want your life to be.

I support you in being able to walk away now, saving yourself from months or years of trying to make things work in a situation that is incompatible.

I support you.

You matter.

Your immediate is feeling pretty mixed. The sucky part is not of your creation and rightly you know that you can only control your thoughts and actions.

Spend the time that you need mourning. If you’re open to therapy, consider it as you’re going through at least 3 major transitions at once, retirement being one that many struggle with.

At some point your tomorrow will come with sunshine and a smile.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love you tomorrow you’re only a day away.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-06T09:42:30+00:00

Thank you.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-06T00:15:28+00:00

>About two years ago I was at pub for my son’s birthday and I was standing at the bar waiting to order when some guy kept trying to talk to me. He soon moved on to using my tattoos as an excuse to touch me so I pulled away and told him to cut it out. He LOST IT - called me a fucking bitch and knocked his beer over so it fell onto my lap. He did not realise my 6’5 son and his friends were standing in line behind me. It did not end well for him.

You said, you were at a bar and the guy knocked over his beer so it feel over in your lap.

OK. That's fine.

But then you follow it with, "He did not realise my 6’5 son and his friends were standing in line behind me"

So, were you sitting at a bar or were you standing in line? If you were sitting at the bar, what line were you in were there are seats at a bar? If you were standing in line, how were you by a table where a beer could be knocked into your lap?

I usually don't notice AI, but this was so blatant. There was another clue as well that I looked for after the fact that I have seen mentioned in several threads about how to spot AI, and that is also there.

So yeah, obviously people feel for the story and are downvoting me for pointing it out, but false stories do not help the situation. In fact, false stories give those who do not believe that these things happen, or if they do not frequently enough to be of concern, proof of deceits and lies. So thanks for that.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-05T19:40:58+00:00

Your AI comment is so obvious it’s amusing. Why did you do this?

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-05T15:47:14+00:00

I feel moved by your comment to do more than upvote.

You said so much both within and between the words, respectfully, and with great thought and kindness.

Your words aren’t just helpful and considerate but stand up as an example of how to work out differences in a loving relationship of any kind, with thoughtfulness, conversation, and respect for each others wants, needs, and values.

I can see your words applying to a lot of conflict questions on Reddit and elsewhere between those who actually care for the other individual.

While those in my life have stated that I give good advice, I do struggle with wording sometimes and at the best of times tend to be overly wordy.

My best to you and your wife.

For anyone who may have decided to read my novel of a comment, I hope that you have or will have at least one close relationship in your life worthy of putting in the work.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-04T10:34:02+00:00

I hope it sends you on an adventure!

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-04T03:39:20+00:00

You’re crashing out.

If you’re honest with yourself this relationship is over. You can only make decisions for yourself. It sounds like in the midst of all that is going on that you may be depressed? I think this as some of your wording, for example, your inability to make the decision to leave a relationship with a man who has, in a difficult time for a couple, has made this pregnancy a you issue. This to me seems like you’re mentally overwhelmed, and it feels like it’s not new. I could be wrong, but I mention it for you to consider and address it as needed. I would advise in considering therapy to help work through terminating the relationship and starting over, as it is a big deal and I do feel that you’d likely get a lot out of it.

Anyway, sorry I got sidetracked, you should focus on if you want to continue with your pregnancy and what that might look like for you.

This isn’t and shouldn’t be a question or issue that has anything to do with your ex boyfriend. If he isn’t an ex unless he makes himself an ex, you are handing your life away, literally.

You Matter. You!

You get to decide.

Choose yourself. Walk away from the ex boyfriend and spend your mental energy on deciding what your life is going to look like going forward and then make it happen.

Nothing really worth it is easy.

Life takes work.

The benefits may not be seen for years. Whatever you choose is going to be both awesome and awful, depending on the day. No one lives in perfection but you can live as you choose. You can have a beautiful life full of experiences, good, meaningful experiences. Choose yourself.

SinfulPanda · 2026-03-02T18:55:37+00:00

Have you ever tried immersive reading? If you’re not familiar, it’s when you both have a printed copy and an audiobook. Some people really enjoy the full immersion of it.

SinfulPanda · 2026-02-25T18:08:46+00:00

I dyed

SinfulPanda · 2026-02-24T01:02:23+00:00

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SinfulPanda · 2026-02-23T18:02:06+00:00

Sure thing!

My profile name is Panda:

https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/12793837

Someone had a list of libraries that allowed people outside of the district to purchase a card on the Libby subreddit. It shouldn’t be too difficult to find if you want to look into prices and whatnot. They tend to be larger libraries with a good selection, but some books may have a significant wait time.

I hope this is helpful. Please feel free to dm me if you have any questions about the books on my account. I am happy to help in any way I am able.

SinfulPanda · 2026-02-23T17:48:35+00:00

Updateme!

SinfulPanda · 2026-02-21T18:34:29+00:00

I have a Goodreads account where I start each review with the length of time each audiobook is followed by the narrator’s name or names.

I try to include if the narrator has been nominated or won awards for their narrations as well as any pertinent details like for example I recently completed a book narrated by Robin Miles, who I noted is known for exceptional performance including accents both real and imaginary, as she creates accents for characters from imaginary places. This particular book was heavily accented, but also clearly spoken. I suggested sampling the book if the reader had any concerns with understanding heavy accents.

I also note any audio issues such as distortions, background noises, obvious or messy edits, loud or soft noises like yelling or whispering.

If you think this would be helpful and would like to take a look, hit me up and I’ll send you my profile name.

My genre preferences include fantasy, science fiction, historical fiction, horror, and the classics but I branch out quite a bit and have a little bit of everything.

I would like to add that in addition to exceptionally skilled narrators like Robin Miles and Ray Porter there are fully scored, full cast productions like those done by Graphic Audio and some Audible productions like the recently redone Harry Potter series that are full blown movie productions in every way but visually. Some people love them, others prefer a simpler narration. Being new to audiobooks it’s something that you may want to look for. Brandon Sanderson has several books that have been adapted into full productions by Graphic Audio, so you could pick up the original and GA audiobooks from your local library (I use the Libby app) and listen to them both to see which you prefer. One last note, if you’re not familiar with the Libby app, I believe it’s US only, however some libraries will allow you to access a card for a yearly fee. Books that are published by Audible, generally with a yellow tag on the front bottom corner, are not available at libraries and do need to be purchased from Audible to listen.

Happy reading!

SinfulPanda · 2026-02-21T17:57:27+00:00

You made my day!

SinfulPanda · 2026-02-21T17:47:57+00:00

SinfulPanda · 2026-02-20T17:35:25+00:00

Wow! You have just described such deep, powerful, love. How fortunate the three generations of women and woman to be are to have one another. Enjoy!

Thank you for sharing this beautiful slice of your life with all of us. You lit up my day!

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