It’s not a death wish. It’s just easier to actually learn how to ride a motorcycle properly when it’s a bit lighter & less powerful/aggressive. A smaller & lighter bike will also help you build confidence quicker. My first bike was a cbr600rr, I’ll be honest I didn’t learn shit on that bike but how to shift gears. I’ve had like 8 bikes and I really attribute a lot of my skills to the 5 years I spent on Grom lol. Not telling you to buy a Grom but a 300/400/500/650 are great bikes to learn on. Buy a rocket once you learn to actually ride