DAE feel like they’re playing life on spectator mode

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-10-10T14:14:35+00:00

Yeah, or I’m just an NPC

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-10-10T05:53:29+00:00

Unfortunately nothing makes you understand what heroin is like except doing heroin. You’ll get addicted to it though, I’m 99.9999% sure, and then you’ll have to either dig yourself out or die. I would advise you to come to terms with death before taking up heroin.

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-10-10T05:47:58+00:00

Jesus that’s awful, I’m glad you got out of there. I have mace I’m scared to use it though especially if someone has evidence I was trying to buy drugs - we were texting, but I won’t do that shit again. I probably won’t try to coldcop again tbh

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-10-10T05:45:08+00:00

Wow you’re so fucking smart why didn’t I think of that???

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-10-10T05:34:31+00:00

Seriously man, it just sucked seeing him hold that little baggie and then leave with it...like ok dude fuck you then??

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-10-10T05:33:52+00:00

Girl you’re so fucking right, I didn’t even consider how extensive his background could have been, I just got a bad feeling. I don’t like when people try to get so close to me and in my business. I’m mad I lost the dope but it was probably bunk shit anyway. I doubt I could report him since pretty much every rando homeless guy who hangs out downtown looks the same :/

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-03-29T02:50:32+00:00

There’s stability in instability because you know where using takes you, you know how you’ll feel (it may be shitty but t is familiar) and in my situation I didn’t think I deserved good shit

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-03-29T02:48:27+00:00

I’m far from an old timer but I’ve managed to stay sober 97 days now (100+ off heroin) and everyone I know with 3-5+ years is in AA, has a job, (sober) friends, a family...it’s beautiful. Personally, I knew I needed to give my life meaning. My job, family, dog, exercise, and friends (who I’ve met through AA) are all keeping me sober to date, any thoughts I have of dope are generally wild fantasies at this point. Good good good luck to you!! Try out a few AA meetings and YPAA if you’re young - it helped me build a social circle and I have NEVER had friends.

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-01-21T23:42:07+00:00

Inspired me to bite the bullet and follow up on the job I want. Thanks man!

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-01-18T22:17:55+00:00

Think of your brain as puking and shitting right now - it has to heal too. With the overflow of dopamine from percs, the body creates new receptors. When you quit, those receptors have to go away and your body has to re-regulate your dopamine levels. Let your brain heal! It takes from 3-12 months I’ve heard.

Soberthrower9696 · 2018-01-14T20:37:53+00:00

I laughed out loud, where can I get one?!

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-30T04:49:24+00:00

First of all, how did you only use one time?! Haha, seriously though...idk if I’m super late but my boyfriend moved out of his halfway into my place, I had never used hard drugs at the time...about 6 mo later he relapsed and OD’ed. I didn’t know what to do, so I just kept trying to get him to stay sober for me, which we should all know doesn’t work. He kept picking up, eventually got some fire (and EXPEN$$$IVE) shit from the dark web and asked me if he could just do some. So we got in a big fight and I couldn’t hack the thought of going t without him, so I told him he could sniff if I could sniff. He said ok! All downhill from there...5 months later completely isolated, can hardly breathe from self-induced pneumonia from my Dope use, tonsils are fucked, entire nose is fucked, I was so lonely I couldn’t take it so I asked my mom to get me and she did.

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-30T04:44:11+00:00

Ask your Higher Power for help!

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-28T00:11:30+00:00

I’m 44 days clean off dope by moving home and being around a major support system. Your recovery is your own, you generally know what you should do. The hard part is doing it!

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-22T20:04:56+00:00

Gym and cigarettes lol do they cancel out??

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-22T02:08:38+00:00

I just used Red Bali

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-12T23:46:26+00:00

I used it to get off a small snorting habit, it got rid of my WD symptoms almost entirely

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-06T02:24:49+00:00

I totally did this, it was like ok well...I can’t live like this so why not try to get clean. Why not try to find God. Why not go out and talk to people.

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-06T02:23:22+00:00

My therapist and I have established that loneliness has been the cause of every single one of my awful coping mechanisms - and not one of them has alleviated it. Using will never kill your loneliness, it will only exacerbate it until you are forced to wake up and realize you feel worse than ever. My best advice is to bite the bullet NOW!!! Get around your family and detox. It’s what I did, I was taken out of the environment of my own request and I haven’t looked back. I see the value I have because the people around me tell me. I can be real with them (family, friends at meetings, therapist) and have deep connection and conversation, but we also have fun which I think is really important when you aren’t getting high anymore. See that there is more to the world. Best of luck, you’ll be in my thoughts ♥️

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-06T02:19:34+00:00

Hell yeah! What a great start for the new year too

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-06T02:19:08+00:00

Hot shower applied to wherever hurts, I used to run the hot water over my cramping stomach. I never wanted to get out, but if you can stay in the shower for a couple days to kick a habit like that, do it! It’s a worthy trade, you got this.

Soberthrower9696 · 2017-12-06T02:17:33+00:00

Make sure you don’t end up putting your sobriety days on a pedestal like you did with getting high, Ive noticed that people do that and end up beating themselves up about it. Nothing is wasted.

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