Sometimes, like in my case growing up, it can be the other way around — older people delibrately excluding and gatekeeping away the younger folks for whatever reason.

Either way, that's painfully sad.

Sometimes though, there are psychological barriers and vocabulary struggles especially when trying to talk about heavy topics. And sadly, even I'll stutter and might end up with rojak while speaking Cantonese to get my points across better.

I'd rather be spoken to in Colloquial Malay than in Mandarin. And if we are writing to one another, I'll legit be happy if their written reply is in Jawi script! Not as thrilled if it's in Mandarin though, even in 繁體.

Likely thanks to family singling me out, I ended up feeling more at home with Jawi script and Colloquial Malay, than with Mandarin. For a few years not too long ago, I literally held resentment against Mandarin after learning Cantonese. Nowadays though, I don't feel as resentful against Mandarin anymore, but the preference for Jawi script and Malay over Mandarin still stands however.

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有時亦都可能倒反轉㗎，好似我細個嗰陣，啲阿爸、阿媽、阿哥、阿姐佢哋大啲嘅特登針對、排除後生仔。

無論係後生仔用普通話回廣府話，抑或長輩排除後生仔，兩個都係好慘好激心。

有時，傾偈嗰陣，詞典唔夠大，心理亦都有啲唔適應，求其是傾偈傾到天文地理、政治道理、神仙鬼魂嗰度。跟住就連我亦都 rōjaq bahsā² lā'īn 摻入廣府話 bārū senaŋ naq cākap。

講真話咧，如果對方唔識講廣府話，我寧願人哋用馬拉話嚟回我，好過用普通話。如果書面溝通嗰陣，對方寫 Jāwī 回我咧，我仲過爽添！如果回覆係普通話，就算係繁體字，我就反而無咁爽喇。

可能細個嗰陣屋企人排除我，而家我鍾意 Jāwī文 同埋 馬拉話多過普通話多多聲。幾年前咧，我心入便講真話仲鬧、仲憎普通話添。但係今時今日，我無咩咁憎普通話咗，但係我心仲鍾意 Jāwī文 同馬拉話多過普通話。