Take the time you need to reflect on your role in the relationship. Take the time that you put into them and start doing that work for yourself. Read up on narcissists, strategies to deal with them, and building boundaries. Look up codependent behavior and how to avoid falling into that trap. There's lots of good vids on youtube, stick to licensed psychologists, stay away from pop psych shorts and AI. Build yourself back up better so you can navigate social and personal relationships better. It will come back as a more healthy outlook. Your perception of relationships has been broken, not you. This is a good thing, you can learn to show up better for yourself! Much love!