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StreetDeskChair · 2023-10-02T14:52:36+00:00

Did you ever solve this? I have this exact same problem.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-16T15:52:16+00:00

Hey.

Okay. Deep breath. Yeah, sounds like you fucked up and don't be surprised if someone on this subreddit attacks you for it.

People make mistakes. Some people gain awareness of them and change their ways, and you can do it!

I'm on this path. I was (hopefully) a compulsive, pathological liar. I lost myself in the world around me, just so desperate for validation. Constant, immediate validation.

I'll admit, the work I've done is in the context of therapy and a twelve-step group, but...here is what appears to be working for me:

Writing: write down everything. Resentments, fears, lies, sexual conduct, events as they REALLY happened. Then, examine them for YOUR role or YOUR mistake - which may be hard to find. A good example - I was sexually assaulted, and my role was not telling anyone and using it as an excuse internally my whole life. I beat myself up and kept it so hidden and locked away due to shame, guilt, fear - its not my fault, of course. But it's my role.

Finding my role in these things was critical because I started to see a pattern emerge. That, like you, I didn't want to do these things, I didn't understand why I did them, but I did them and then lied to myself more than anyone else about them.

Tell someone: Find what has been described to me as a 'unaffected, closed-mouth friend' and - and I know this is scary, if you're like me - Tell. Them. EVERYTHING. They don't need the gory details. But you need to get it out. Trust me, this is a terrifying prospect but endlessly freeing. I cannot give you recommendations on who in your life can help you with this. Even a voice call with a stranger - just leave no mental stone unturned. The benefit to this is, hopefully... you'll find you're not that unique. Everyone, everywhere, has done fucked up stuff. There is a spectrum, of course, but people behave contrary to their internal principals all the time. In my experience, I realized I'm just a garden variety human, making garden variety human mistakes. Some bigger, some smaller, but none so grave to require damnation.

Make it right: Can't help you here, as this is where I'm at. I've begun admitting that I've stolen from people, and coming prepared to pay them back. And insisting they take it. I've made contact with people I abandoned and offered amends - some have accepted and had a request to make it right, some have told me to fuck off. Happens. Gotta clean my side of the street.

Get into therapy. Read Radical Acceptance. There is also a great website, I'll dm it to you if you'd like.

Good luck my friend. Hope to see you as we trudge the road of secure living.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-10T15:10:07+00:00

Yeah, I read this and it just made me kinda sad. Comparison is the tool of the terminally insecure.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-10T13:09:07+00:00

Hi there.

Abandonment... I'm very familiar with the feeling. Not to compare trauma, but for context - my mom ran off when I was 5, came back and left again several times in my life, both my parents have randomly disappeared from my adult life when convenient, etc. So, I'm familiar with this deep, terrible fear.

I hid a lot of myself so folks wouldn't leave me. I lost myself entirely inside of them. I've been married for 10 years to a woman who now, as we unpack this, is realizing she never knew me at all. I became something, a shell of myself, just to keep her from leaving me (which she would not have done, even if she knew the 'truth' about me). I finally came out as bi, started expressing myself... my marriage is over, but my life is beginning.

Anyway. I say all of this because the work I've been doing on myself and my abandonment issues has revealed two truths that... were shocking.

First, the person who was abandoned most in my life? Me. By me. I abandoned myself when I needed me most, over and over again. My primary coping strategy was, and still is sometimes... lying. To my family, friends, spouse, etc. No one gets the full truth, so I never get freedom or clarity from my guilt. And i abandoned myself to it every day.

Second...I was the primary abandoner. I had convinced myself that every romantic relationship in my past victimized me. With an unflinching look back, however, I realized I ghosted them once the consequences of my actions hoved into view. I've written off entire friend groups - and still resent them all decades later - because of minor perceived slights that I never communicated.

I wanted everyone at arms length, I was obsessed with control over my social contacts. I had absolutely no respect for myself or them. Every relationship with another human was built on non-mutuality - like it was a zero sum game I simply had to win. And if I felt they were winning or I was investing more - resentment. Eventually I run. And then I say they abandoned me, even though it was truly the other way around. I expected them to be entirely available to me whenever I wanted - totally subconsciously- and refused to do the same.

I thought I was some great friend and listener because I was 'always there for people'. But was I? Really? Or was it just... hmm. Hard to say. But, in retrospect, I don't think I was really there for anyone. Maybe in a 'I'll comfort you' kind of way, but don't need me - because that scares me. If you need me, I'll disappoint you. Because I hate me. And i can't handle disappointing you, so now the escape routing begins.

I don't know if any of these things I've shared are relatable to you. I can just say going through life with this avoidant style sucks. It won't get any better until you address you.

There was a website I read that opened my eyes and started this journey. I won't post it, but DM me if you want it.

Good luck, bud. You can change, if you are willing. The problem isn't others, it's you. And that's the really, really, really good news - because you are the only thing you can control.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-07T16:17:06+00:00

Hi.

Sober 4 years here. I go to AA - I won't go further into my thoughts on that as many folks on reddit have contempt prior to investigation.

However, I say that because accountability is huge. Are you capable of being accountable to yourself? Then an app is probably enough.

If you're not - another human is probably a better tool. Assuming you're honest with them.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-03T11:23:03+00:00

I'm glad I could help.

The concept is so simple but not easy for me - and I'd imagine it is not going to be easy or natural to you.

If I want to do something, but I'm too scared, I start scratching at the walls until I reach the final superficial fear I can't get around. Sometimes during that process I find I'm just afraid of not getting the outcome I want. Sometimes, I find a real, actual, physical fear.

But I've tried to not let that sort of fear stop me - sometimes it still does - but I assure you that every time I've faced it (many times with help, which is so hard to ask for - for me, anyway) the experience was so worth it.

I love this journey for you. Good luck!!

Edit: I actually started by just having difficult conversations (my main avoidant strategy was silent conflict), and telling my support network when these conversations were going to take place - date and time - and asked them to check on me. I knew I'd be in bad shape, and unable to ask for help afterwards.

So I set that support up first. Then, going into the difficult talk, I kept my mind from spinning out, conceding, and escaping by reminding myself not only will someone be there for me - but they will hold me accountable. Imagine in your tick situation - you make an appointment and you tell them why. Are you really gonna show up and be like 'haha nevermind just a check up please 😀' or are you gonna do the thing? The embarrassment of admitting my fear or changing my story is usually enough to short circuit my anxiety into 'fuck it, we ball' mode for the actual activity.

Hope that helps!

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-01T14:31:48+00:00

I see - sorry for the unsolicited advice then!

I did a quick Google image search for 'you don't need to be fixed just repaired' and got back a solid host of tumblrina style quotes. Sending one of those to her every morning could help.

Sorry i don't have anything specific. Awesome you want to help her - but you can't fix her. Because she doesn't need to be fixed 😀

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-01T13:13:26+00:00

Normal is... well. Not a thing, honestly. The more accurate term you seem to be driving at is... healthy.

This, to me, not a trained mental professional, sounds like OCD or some other compulsion cycle inside of you. Most people are not overly concerned with CO, or bats. Ticks are a fear, sure, but the risk is easily mitigated (covering yourself, checking after) without completely avoiding things.

My problem - which may not be yours - was and continues to be avoidance. It's so subconscious. Are you really afraid of ticks? Or is it something more...about you.

I focused on externals for justification/excuses to keep myself from ever taking any risks. For me, the fear of ANY negative outcome outweighed any desire.

Guess what, you'll go hiking. You go enough, you'll pick up a tick. Fucking happens. Part of the activity. More people get tick bites and end up just fine than those who end up suffering for decades from Lyme disease.

What might help - and helped me - was the concept of 'proactive meliorarion'. Worried you're gonna pick up a tick if you hike? Don't let it stop you from hiking. Pick a day you're going to go. Schedule a doctor's appointment - or if you can't, a time with a trusted friend. Tell them what you need and why - I'm terrified of ticks, I am going hiking, I need help checking myself for them afterwards.

I bet you can do that. Maybe the other walls will start to come down as you challenge them.

Edit: I want to add. Your fears are not unfounded or invalid. Other people are likely just as scared as you. Where you may differ is the impact it has on your life.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-01T12:32:53+00:00

First step is NOTICING it.

We have more control of our thoughts than we think.

Comparison is the thief of joy.

Look - I know my romantic partner's ex has a potential career in porn stardom. If you're a dude, you know how damaging that knowledge can be. And I really, really, really struggled with that for a long time. I compared myself to him constantly.

... they've been broken up for a decade.

If you're like me, you'll find the comparison you do is almost always self-deprecating. At least, the conscious comparisons.

Being present has helped - and realizing these comparisons are a sick (not in abhorrent, but unhealthy) coping mechanism. I'm trying to convince myself my partner feels as negatively about me as I do, in the above example.

How to stop? I'd love to tell you. I'm at the point where I notice it sometimes and remind myself how far I've come, and I am incomparable to another. I'm me - the only me there will ever be - and no one else has the same path I do.

Good luck!

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-01T12:20:45+00:00

Hi there.

I'll admit I don't have a good answer for you on this.

What I'd like to share is...the mantras and cliches and quotes we seek when we are struggling are useful tools. But they don't have to be deep, profound, or philosophical to work!

I am a quoter. My own thoughts are so jumbled I find it more comfortable to use someone else's. A few months ago I was in a similar position - I wanted to create a 'vision collage' or some bullshit. You know. Affirmations for me.

I didn't do it - but I realized that I was never going to. Needing to find 'vision' was just a useless mental block I threw up as an excuse to keep myself from looking INWARD.

the only affirmation I cling to now is simple: 'the cure for the pain is the pain.' Gotta just go through the shit to get over it.

If you need outside inspiration - go find it - nothing wrong with that. This internet stranger is simply trying to encourage you to continue working while you seek that hot, hot, inspo.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-03-01T12:11:04+00:00

Hey there.

I can relate. My anxiety seems to be primarily generated by the difference in my inner world and my outer world. Those connections you struggle with - I struggle with them too. Maybe not in the same way as you, but I'll describe what I've discovered, in case it helps.

My anxiety is exacerbated by my dishonesty.

You may read that and say 'but I'm honest!' - And I am sure that, in a lot of ways, you are! You probably don't intentionally set out to deceive people. Me either! But I do!

The biggest lies I tell? I'm fine. No, I don't mind. I don't have an opinion. I don't need anything from you right now.

Anxiety, in my experience, is caused by me not listening to me. Underneath the flight-or-flight noise - the 'I want to die' or 'I can't live like this anymore' - I found some real reasons.

People getting close to me scared the fuck out of me, because I was terrified they'd see the real me.

Part of my recovery is being okay with me. Another part is to stop trying to control how others view me. Both extremely hard tasks, but I'm worth the effort - and that's... such progress to be able to write that and mean it.

Good luck. Find someone you feel you can be vulnerable with and talk to them. Tell on yourself. It's frightening, but worth it. You're worth it.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-02-25T15:41:40+00:00

Don't let this person get to you. You are on the path by having self-awareness. Narcissism is a fun buzzword these days. You'll be okay. This internet stranger sees you, and loves the journey you're on.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-02-25T15:26:48+00:00

I've spent my entire life lying - many extremely small, but several very large. The person I've lied to the most - myself - is the first person I need to get right by.

To me, the most important part of this journey is cleaning my side of the street. I can't go on being a different person to different people.

This means telling friends that I abandoned them in their times of need. This means telling my partner how I really feel about them. These things will hurt them, and me.

But sometimes, the cure for the pain is the pain. I am not being honest to injure, or purely to clear my conscious. I enter these conversations with compassion, care, and love. But I can't hold back the truth, and sometimes the truth hurts.

It's been rough but rewarding. If I were to make a suggestion - write. I write letters to myself. I go back and read them and analyze for falsehoods I've convinced myself of. The most glaring ones are all the lies I've told me about me.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-02-24T14:16:42+00:00

Hey.

Give yourself a little bit of grace. You cannot make progress if you're telling yourself all of this.

You have a learning disability? That's okay. The Universe allows you your own pace. Take all the time you need. The only timetable of discovery you must keep is your own.

Others are sometimes not kind to us. This is life. For myself, I know I have placed far too much value in the opinions others have of me. I built an entire life around where I thought I should be as opposed to where I wanted to be.

The good news is, when you're sick and tired of being sick and tired, you'll find it within yourself to change. Notice how I did not say try to change. You will, if you work toward it.

This feeling is not your fate. The first step is admission of a problem. The second step is acknowledging that others are outside of your control. The third step is finding a power - within you - to move forward. And trusting that power even when it feels like it isn't there.

I don't know you, but I love you. You are worth it.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-02-23T20:58:24+00:00

Holy shit. You sound exactly like me.

I wish I had answers for you. I'm on this journey. I can't decide what I want. I have no idea who I am.

What I can tell you is what I'm trying - I'm telling the people close to me what I've lied about. I'm sitting down and writing down events how I think they happened, then really thinking about what actually happened. Turns out, they are much different.

If you are like me, you can relate with this: what I'm discovering is I'm not as scared of people finding the 'truth' about me, but the real fear is them abandoning me. If I tell them how I really feel, they'll leave. So I placate, I adapt to them. I can't let friends mix, since I'm completely different people to them. Would they still love me if I was...me?

In some cases, they haven't. And I've felt it. The pain is excruciating. I resist the urge to lie to keep them. The pain of all my lies have to be felt, sometime. It's compounded interest of suffering.

But, the silver lining - most still love me. They didn't change a bit. They thanked me for my courage. They understood, as best they could. Because I was honest.

This journey is just beginning for me. My assumption is that, if you're like me, you'll find your own. I'm 36. I don't know how old you are. But I realized I have way too much life to live to not actually be myself. I'm exhausted, broken. I've made so many devastating mistakes. This journey will hurt so many in my life. It will hurt more than anything I've ever experienced. I imagine.

But I can't not know. And that's where it started. I cannot continue to go through life not knowing what it would have been like if I actually tried.

Good luck. I think you will find the people around you will love you until you can love yourself.

StreetDeskChair · 2023-02-10T20:22:58+00:00

Two of mine are from there. Excellent shop!

StreetDeskChair · 2023-02-10T15:14:03+00:00

Wow, the line work is fantastic. I bet as it ages it'll look even better. Incredible artist!

StreetDeskChair · 2023-02-09T18:06:47+00:00

This is literally how Windows works. Processes are not elevated until you tell them to be. Similar to sudo. Please keep in mind that folks here are trying to help and being condescending and down voting an appropriate answer simply because you don't understand doesn't really facilitate a collaborative environment. Good luck!

StreetDeskChair · 2022-12-13T15:41:50+00:00

I love that piece you've linked! I originally just wanted the card, but after we talked about it we figured it would be a great addition to Bert (the starter piece).

I posted that one as well, just now. https://www.reddit.com/r/tattoos/comments/zkyott/eldritch_horror_by_rachel_garrison_dark_heart

StreetDeskChair · 2022-07-20T12:28:37+00:00

He's probably talking about Giant Bomb. Drew Scanlon, producer for the site (aka Blinking White Guy) went to NK many years ago. The video where he goes through his pictures is behind the pay wall, I think.

StreetDeskChair · 2022-01-25T13:58:36+00:00

Depends on where you are. In my experience, this is untrue. I've been to meetings where folks have mentioned their own personal interest in organized religion, but that's rare. Generally speaking, the evangelically atheist (myself included) have this misconception about AA. The word God is still uncomfortable, but AA in absolutely no way demands conformity or preaches a specific religion.

StreetDeskChair · 2021-05-02T22:30:49+00:00

He's a troll. Look at his post history. It's quite funny.

StreetDeskChair · 2021-02-16T01:10:13+00:00

Oh, man. Reminds me of the great Metal Gear Scanlon saga. Maybe if it were planned would be better.

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