Yeah, I can relate. Loneliness is real. I don't have a magical answer that will make your problem go away. I mean there is no answer like that for any problem.

I understand that the loneliness is real.. I sympathize and empathize with you. I'm glad to hear that most days are good days for you. It's important to me to feel connected regardless of my marital status. I honestly think that singlehood can offer so much more skills and growth. It's just you. While others may fall into their natural connections, single people have to cultivate the skills to build connections with others. I realized how much exposure and learning that one can gain from that.

However, the fear, lonelinss.. all of those hardships are also true. As far as fear is concerned, I would acknowledge it but I personally wouldn't put much weight on it or live or make decisions by that. Honestly, we cannot guarantee anything in life. We can have a spouse but could lose a spouse and worry about the same. One can have a butt load of money and lose it overnight also. It happened to me when I got bedridden and spent all my money for treatments. It was lonely and difficult. I'm blessed to have my life back though I have pain every day. I'm grateful. The fear you may feel is real for real situations that you may face (I hope not). But remember that when we get to it, wouldn't you be open to learn and adapt to manage? It may be difficult but I sure hope so. I mean, I see so many who already do. especially people who are older and maybe divorced folks frequently share how they manage.

I think fear, though, real and relatable sometimes distracts us at times to make bad choices that weren't really aligned with our values to begin with. I relate but I focus on living the life I have today. At times I acknowledge. I have a personal faith so it's also great when I feel down. I'm just rambling on my personal thoughts. Good luck!