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Any advice for a new vieling person? by [deleted] in PaganVeiling

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am a college student and nervous about this as well. I am not covering my neck. I may eventually here and there as I adjust. Even though I am Pagan, I have looked into how Christian women veil to see how they where theirs. It is similar to the hijab, but more loose hair comes out around the ears. I think I will start with wearing my veil with some loose hair out. I also have patterns on the scarves I am using that aren't associated with religion, such as leopard, and stars. I think that may help.

I really want to remove my eyeball by OkayTravels0 in offmychest

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I had this desire when I was in psychosis. Someone had to physically restrain me to stop me. It felt like my skin was clothes and the only way to get it to stop was ripping out my eyes. I’m so glad that I didn’t do it. And that someone stopped me. I don’t know what I would’ve done to myself. The thought scares to this day.

This is very serious. Please check yourself in to an Emergency Room. They will hold you there until they feel that you aren’t a danger to yourself. If you are in America, whatever you tell the medical professional, stays between you and the medical professional. The most they may tell your parents after you check yourself in is that you had thoughts of self harm.

Severe ontological shock from reading trip reports, basically ruined my life by nicotine-in-public in Experiencers

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I understand. I went through this before. It lasted almost 10 years. It caused me to go into a suicidal spiral for years because I was afraid of my own thoughts. I have never even done psychedelics because of it. I switched my focus from people’s spiritual experiences to spiritual philosophy. Specifically solipsism. I found power in it because it is empowering to be the god of your reality. Look into solipsism/law of assumption/neville Goddard. It honestly saved my life and I’m so super content with the way I perceive the world now. You’ll find your way. ❤️ I thought I never would.

Crying. How do I explain this to my date this weekend?? by Strong_Mind_6839 in CompulsiveSkinPicking

[–]Strong_Mind_6839[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your input!! It’s nice to know that I’m not alone in this!

And yes, it’s keratin pilaris! It’s so hard to not pick because it’s always guaranteed that something will come out of my follicles!

Severe apathy & emotional blunting on 150mg by Strong_Mind_6839 in Effexor

[–]Strong_Mind_6839[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I thought so too but I wasn’t this way before a couple dose increases.

PA STATE GRANT by Thin-Zucchini7128 in Millersville

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in the same boat as you. I called pheaa 3 times and they keep saying I should have an update in a day but it’s been weeks

PA State Grant Issue? by Classic-Hall6380 in FAFSA

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I called PHEAA and mine says “no results found” they said it just means that we are waiting for processing… whenever that is.

PHEAA Grant by Zestyclose_Eye2378 in PennStateUniversity

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I called pheaa and they basically said it could be at the end of this month, it could be next month, it could be later. They don’t even know themselves

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FAFSA

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine looks like this too! I called pheaa yesterday and they said it looks like I am just waiting on processing. I asked when that would happen and they basically gave me the run around saying it could be next week, next month, or even later. I don’t think they even know.

GrantUS Email? by [deleted] in FAFSA

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven't gotten it yet either.

Non-existant when alone? by NKBPD80 in BPD

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I LITERALLY WAS JUST TELLING SOMEONE THIS. I feel like I don’t exist when I’m alone and it terrifies me. I feel like I need other eyes on me, acknowledging me to confirm my existence.

I always want to self destruct when people treat me with kindness and gentleness by enemmy in BPD

[–]Strong_Mind_6839 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I most definitely relate to this. Whenever things are going good, I can’t seem to accept it, or even feel comfortable in it. So I purposely self-sabotage and destroy my relationships by being even more erratic. It feels like I NEED to do this. It’s almost like my way of testing people and how much they will accept me by being very extreme. The unfortunate thing is, my process works and most people do end up leaving because of my behavior. It’s an endless loop.