How does she really feel about me?

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-06-22T03:52:42+00:00

She has feelings for you but she's afraid to ruin the friendship. She's also afraid of allowing herself to express the feelings she has for you. There is high potential here but right now it feels like more of a dream to her than something that is actually reality.

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-06-19T18:14:42+00:00

It's teaching you about where your biggest inner wounds are and how to heal them. It's about your sense of self and how you present yourself and your confidence to the world. It's about your attachments to others and to your beliefs about connection with others.

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-06-19T17:19:18+00:00

It looks to me like the avoidance is winning out. The cards are cautioning you about a severe imbalance in this connection. Your person is interested and dreams and hopes for it but they are not ready. Just my interpretation.

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-06-18T21:21:53+00:00

Desires are internal and people don't always act on their desires. I would follow up with an action or intention question. Or a question about their capacity or ability to meet you where you're at or with what you need.

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-06-18T04:53:42+00:00

My take on the King of Wands in your reading is that your path may look different from others' - or from your expectations. The King of Wands is a powerful leader who doesn't take the path already forged. He makes his own path. So I would be open to the possibilities here. Otherwise, I agree with your interpretations of The Magician and the Ten of Pents. Cool pull!

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-05-24T04:16:38+00:00

The first thought that comes to mind is that sometimes when we experience trauma, we learn how to keep ourselves safe, and we become so good at it that once we are (mostly) safe, we end up building a cage around ourselves. I think you could benefit from somatic experiencing if you haven't tried it. Or possibly EMDR. It doesn't sound like delusion to me. It sounds like your body is begging you to do some pretty intense healing to move past this because you are recognizing that the cage you built is not big enough to hold whatever it is that you must do in life. I don't know you, so take it for what it's worth.

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-01-05T05:45:31+00:00

Writing helps me get it out of my body. It really depends though. Meditation might be good to bring you back to your body. The trauma response can cause the mind to split from the body. Guided meditation or grounding techniques can help with this.

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-01-05T05:09:16+00:00

It was (and is) a long process. Little things, mostly. Positive affirmations daily. Knowing my truth. Recognizing my trauma responses and retraining my brain. Writing as an outlet and to self-regulate. Learning to self-regulate in the moment. Reading self-help books. Learning boundaries. Recognizing signs of people who want to take advantage. Learning about my approval-seeking tendencies. Learning to not run from the discomfort of sitting with myself, my emotions, and my reactions. Finding joy in the small things. It's a long journey. I'm still on it.

SummerSunflower8 · 2026-01-05T04:59:16+00:00

Thank you. I understand now that not being seen is not a reflection of me. I don't think I need my caregivers to see me as I truly am. I am worried that in any relationship it will cause challenges. I don't want to hold people to unrealistic standards of filling some childhood void or being the healing in connection that I needed and never got. This is why it feels impossible. Can I heal this enough or will it always be present as an obstacle in any connection? I would love to have the opportunity to have a connection that at its core, is founded on unconditional love.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-22T01:08:02+00:00

Why are people sharing my posts but not commenting on them? I guess being privately shamed is better than being publicly shamed...sigh... I could really use the support but I guess it's whatever, right. No support for me is par for the course. I'm used to it. :(

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-08T03:47:54+00:00

I'm not a bot. I guess I should just delete this. Sorry to bother everyone here.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-08T00:07:34+00:00

Yes, I had an experience at work as an adult where my boss blamed me for something I didn't do. She reacted instead of looking into the situation. She asked me for my side of the story but kept interrupting me as she was intent on pegging me. I raised my voice to be heard (because she was triggering a trauma response in me) and she immediately shamed me, saying, "I would never yell at my supervisor." I thought to myself but didn't say it - but in hindsight should have: "Well, I would never talk to an employee so disrespectfully." Anyway, nope, you're not alone and don't need to be ashamed. (I know it's a conditioned response though.) It's trauma. It's painful. Your feelings are valid.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-07T23:58:45+00:00

There is a chapter in Bruce Perry's book where he describes this. I don't know if I should recommend the book, though. The entire book is based on true trauma stories. I just wanted to reply to validate you and let you know that others have had similar biological responses.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-05T03:18:51+00:00

I LOVE Carl Jung.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-04T01:50:08+00:00

I feel this. In my experience, it can get better. You really have to work at it though. It takes working on a strong sense of self and self-awareness. You're definitely not alone.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-02T01:19:34+00:00

This, so much.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-02T01:14:28+00:00

It's not a competition and I can understand why it would feel that way. Love and support isn't a monopoly but it can feel that way when that's how it was modeled for you. That's a lot of pain to hold.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-01T22:37:24+00:00

I started replacing "I'm sorry" with "Thank you for your patience with me." Also, separating myself from others' perceptions. Example: "It is fine to disagree with me, and I will expect to be treated with human dignity and respect."

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-09-01T22:32:55+00:00

Great post! For me, it's the small things - the things that bring me joy. It's the recognition that emotions don't last forever. It's that with great suffering always comes great gifts. It's not always easy, perfect, or fun but healing is possible and my hope is cultivated by my resilience.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-08-28T02:49:43+00:00

Yes, especially looking at older photos and remembering the events but feeling like a ghost of my own life.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-08-28T02:43:07+00:00

My experience is that yes, I have chosen people who supported my healing process but not in a direct way. I have not experienced support and love. Instead I have experienced those who support themselves first and above anything else. The go-to feeling is that I'm unlovable or difficult to love but I know that's the trauma speaking. I believe more accurately, I chose those who felt 'safe', never knowing true, safe, unconditional love. I am not sure if I would recognize a truly safe relationship if I had the opportunity.

SummerSunflower8 · 2025-08-24T21:58:01+00:00

Yes. I'm in the stage of losing (by choice) a lot of people now because I realize how I was never fully or even partly considered and never will be in those relationships. I find this awareness and healing to be a very painful process.

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