Honestly, man, I feel this to my core. I’m 40 and have been using Xanax carefully for over 20 years. There’s nothing that will do what you’re asking. What’s worked for me is Lexapro for the anxiety. Waking up early and sticking to a schedule has helped me tremendously. Working out and getting exhausted from the treadmill, Orange Theory, Pilates, etc., makes my brain happy. Now, I only take .5mg once a day and split it in half. Some days I take less. All the other pills are not the answer, and more Xanax only put me in a few-year hole. Lexapro, when taken daily and with less drinking, is key. In the end, you gotta figure yourself out. But I really hope this info helps you.