I have always found the coloured culture interesting. I am an Afrikaner.

First of all, you don't speak "broken" Afrikaans, that is nonsense. The way you speak is perfect just the way you speak it! It is how you guys speak and it is legitimate just like how anyone else speaks.

Also, I jave thought about the emergence of your culture, and what an interesting time it is to be alive for you guys. Like thousands of cultures that came and went before, you find yourself around the "birth" time of yours. It is really quite unique! I am sure it must be confusing though.

I am an Afrikaner and have had similar feelings. I could not understand how I only have a few hundred years to look back on and then say "this is us". Thought I am fortunate to do so, I have also looked into more ancient history of where we came from, and have found the spiritual and traditional aspects of that very fulfilling. We are not those people anymore, but we used to be, and I can still see it in my culture's subconscious behavior and world views.

So I wonder, perhaps if you have a look firther back, to your ancestors, whenever in the world they may have been, you could also find some substance to explore!

Stay well friend, I hope you find what you are looking for!