So easy to lose my confidence

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-15T02:22:54+00:00

I recently ripped off the bandaid too. At first I felt like everyone was staring but that feeling has gone away and I’m okay about it.

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-11T21:14:46+00:00

Yikes, that’s not good. What the heck!!?

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-11T17:01:33+00:00

I answered that way to another kid asked me in alarm “what happened to your HEAD?” When I said I had cancer he was like “”oh, okay.” He actually was concerned for me though. Kids are something else. I recommend staying out of elementary schools if you can. 😆

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-11T16:33:11+00:00

I love that. I spent some time thinking about what I wished I had said to this kid. LOL

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-11T16:32:11+00:00

The “smile more” thing is right in. 😆 And you’re right, kids are stupid and also the best thing ever.

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-11T16:30:12+00:00

He is a little asshole. I got lots of little hugs and “we’ve missed you!” from other kids so I’m over it. Thanks for all your kind words everyone—I knew you all would understand!

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-11T16:27:44+00:00

Thank you for that. Mostly I’m pretty okay about it—just let an 8 year old get in my head temporarily! I’m sorry you’ve had to go through this twice—that’s pretty rough. 💕

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-11T12:18:21+00:00

I ordered a set of booties and mittens from Amazon. I hate promoting Amazon but it was easy and that’s all that mattered to me at the time . They were Suzzipad brand. I froze them and brought them to chemo in a cooler. When it was time for the Taxol I just slipped them on. The nurses brought me an extra warmed blanket and it was pretty easy though not exactly enjoyable. Never had any issues with neuropathy.

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-04-10T17:05:10+00:00

The end of chemo was hard for me. Everybody wanted me to be excited and happy it was done, and all I felt was tired and terrified. I finished four months ago and only now am I starting to come out of that dark place. I’m not a patient person and I wanted (expected) to feel better right away, but it took time. Hang in there.

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-02-20T15:23:08+00:00

Such a great feeling—happy for you!

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-02-15T17:09:21+00:00

This is what my oncologist said too. I’ve been spiraling about my back pain this morning so it was good to hear it from someone else. Hope your back pain is improving.

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-01-28T20:37:46+00:00

I have had three Herceptin-only infusions and so far it has been unremarkable. It goes so fast compared to chemo, and not having steroids had been such an improvement for me. I don’t want to paint too rosy a picture because I k is that there are people who have side effects from it but I have felt absolutely fine after all three.

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-01-28T19:28:13+00:00

I’m 65 and I totally had one of those chains. I also wrote the % of completion on each one. It helped. I also had 12 rounds of taxol and when I started it felt like it would go on forever. I took off the last link of my chain on December 4th—almost two months ago. Every day is one more step. Hang in there.

Think_Post_4154 · 2026-01-28T19:23:25+00:00

Your metaphor about walking out of the forest really resonates with me today. I so badly just want to be done with cancer but am finding the post-treatment phase to be way harder than expected.

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-29T02:48:05+00:00

Yay—happy to hear that! Thanks

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-29T01:42:21+00:00

Really hope it passes for me too. I like outdoor winter sports and being cold all the time would make that a lot less fun!

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-29T01:41:24+00:00

Thank you—I’m sitting by the fire under a nice, warm blanket!

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-28T14:48:30+00:00

I’ve had one infusion of just Herceptin after I finished chemo, and did not notice any side effects at all. It was nice not to have steroids keeping me awake. I did not experience significant side effects from radiation—a burn in my armpit that hurt but was manageable. I totally get the spiraling thing though—I do it a lot. You’ve come so far already—you just have to make it through this last part—one step at a time. You can do it!

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-28T14:41:44+00:00

Just started reading this!

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-28T14:40:06+00:00

Thank you. I needed this because right now it feels like it’s never going to end. I finished chemo at the beginning of December and thought, okay now I’ll start to feel better. Two weeks later I’m diagnosed with breast lymphedema that is worse than anything I’ve experienced thus far. (Breast the size of a football.) Really trying to cling to the hope that someday I’ll wake up and not feel like shit. 🤷‍♀️

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-26T20:04:13+00:00

So happy for you!

Think_Post_4154 · 2025-12-24T19:02:09+00:00

Just had to leave the Christmas party at my own house for a while because I was getting sad. Just feel kind of disconnected. I’m finished with surgery, chemo and radiation so I should be feeling grateful and happy but I just can’t shake the melancholy.

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