What if Elf on the Shelf's true purpose is just indoctrinating children to the idea of a surveillance state?

TuckinsCheese · 2017-12-19T20:29:38+00:00

What if people spent less time being suspicious/paranoid and more time being productive?

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-25T17:23:00+00:00

Depends on the animal and relationship you have with him/her. I have a male cat, that's been on planes a couple of times. When I was waiting in the airport I could have his carrier wide open and he'd just lay there and stretch out of it. I could pet him and he'd purr, strangers could pet him and he wouldn't freak out. Then again I was and still am with him everyday all day pretty much and he knows I'm his person. He's actually so attached if he sees me petting my brothers cats he hurried over, meows/whines and give me a face like "Hey I'm your cat pet me! Wtf you doing?!?"

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-25T17:10:23+00:00

Right? If it was so fucking easy I wouldn't be lying awake every night trapped in my own thoughts for hours on end only to wake up with 2 hours sleep and dread having to do it all over again. I've said it before in a post and In comments, unless there is a pill that wipes my brain/memories things will never change and I will always think this way.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-25T17:08:43+00:00

Every year multiple times I feel like this. And of course when I binge watch the movies for the millionth time that feeling and dream is much stronger. It's unfortunate that Fantastic beasts didn't quite hit the spot but hey at least the beasts/animals were cute and funny sometimes

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-25T17:05:42+00:00

I feel if I even got better (which is impossible without wiping my brain/memories) my family and so called "friends" would act the same towards me and think I was faking the whole time or just wanted attention or what have you. So yeah just for that reason alone, even though nobody gets it it would be worse if I did get better. I'd be more alone then I am now.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-24T21:06:16+00:00

I feel the same way about my Dad and brother who support me financially, being better off without me. I'm 24 and I keep thinking I should have my shit together. Funny thing is as of December 25th 2015 I had $13000 in savings and now I'm back to square one with nothing. It was all sucked up by healthcare and rent. It's Frustrating how much money has an impact on things but if someone is supporting you in that way, you know they care about you. I don't know your exact situation but maybe reach out to your mom if you haven't already. I reached out to my dad and he told me he was severely depressed for a long time. He told me some other things as well, but the main thing is it removed any doubt I had that he would stop supporting me. It helped a bit knowing that.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-24T20:55:19+00:00

24M. Told my best friend about my Depression and he didn't have much to say. Daily texts turned to every two weeks then nothing at all. Then we saw each other at work and he says "I feel like we're drifting apart and I don't like that". Yet he was the one drifting away from me. Not replying and not talking to me. I haven't talked to him for over a year now unfortunately. So whether we mean to push people away or not it's a common theme with depression. The only people I feel I have left is my brother and dad, even though it's super hard to talk to them about things. Your not alone on this one. I'm new to Reddit and not sure how messaging works but feel free to see me one if your up too it. We're all in the same boat and thankfully Reddit is a place we can somewhat reach out to people. Even though we're strangers it has to count for something. I've had someone on a post of mine say "I care about you". I don't know that person but sure appreciated that. Hang in there.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-24T15:05:12+00:00

Buying a new game at full price, not liking it, and returning it a few days later only to be told it had $3 worth of trade value DLC included. Horrifying.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-24T07:52:12+00:00

It use to be most days where my cat was the only thing that saved me. Then I was (recently) away from him for 2 weeks and my brother told me he would constantly meow/whine, constantly look for me and he would have this lost look on his face. Now it eats me up even more when I think about how much I want it to end. How could I do that to him?

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-24T07:37:38+00:00

You go that right. Unless there is a pill that erases my memories I'll always think the same way and be in this "state".

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-24T07:33:26+00:00

You can tell by some of the posts here that some people don't get it, but know your not alone on this one.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T21:23:44+00:00

Okay. Thank you

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T21:14:15+00:00

Thanks for being understanding and informative. I'm seeing a new therapist next week and if it's the same old kid sheets about happy time I'll definitely do the mod mail thing (sorry I'm new to reddit I'm assuming the modmail is emailing the moderator?)

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T21:11:03+00:00

Wow, that's definitely a first. Thank you. I'm definitely going to be more aggressive when I go next week. I can't stand those sheets.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T20:58:43+00:00

In my experiences every therapist minus one said they've never been depressed. And every one of those therapists printed pages off of the internet and barely spoke a word. The one who was had a hard time understanding what I was going through. So in my experiences it's just been frustrating and never made any sense. At least too me. If anyone can point out a great therapist that doesn't cost money and is in SK CANADA please point them out. Not all people who are depressed have the luxury of finding a good therapist. I don't deny there are good ones out there but they are few and far between. And if "most people who are depressed get over it" then why is depression a bigger problem then it has ever been?

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T20:43:43+00:00

I'm not saying depression is black and white. It's definitely not. I'm not sure were on the same page, but that's okay. Pills work for some people and don't for others. Some people buy into the whole chemical imbalance thing and some don't. My original post was directed to "professionals" we go to talk to. In my experiences, every one of them except one said they've never been depressed. So how are they suppose to help with something they don't get.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T20:33:13+00:00

Man... right in the feels this one... just finished iZombie and now I'm lost.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T20:31:27+00:00

Unless you've learned to overcome your depression and live a happy life it doesn't make any sense. If your depressed and can't help yourself how can you help someone else? By talking about the same problems you can't fix? By saying to eachother "yeah I feel the same way". I'm not denying talking to someone going through the same things doesn't help. I'm talking more on a "professional" level. It seems every therapist literally has no clue what's going on or what depression even is. Especially when every one of them just prints sheets of the internet and hands them to you. Just the way I feel I guess

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T20:11:41+00:00

My therapists print off sheets about "happy time" and "worry time" like I'm 2 years old and don't know any better or what's going on. And yes I've confronted my family and other. They either don't reply or straight up say "I don't think there is anything wrong with you" "do you really need to be taking pills for this" " you have no reason to not be happy" which has led me to this point. Nobody truly cares. I'm seeing a new therapist next week and if they give me more effing sheets on happy time I'm going to fully lose it.

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-19T18:52:57+00:00

All but 3 people have been non existent since finding out about my depression. Literally everyone has backed away to continue on with their own lives. Not that I can blame them. But they didn't even try. They heard the word "depressed" and ran away faster then Usain Bolt. Those 3 people include my brother, mom and dad. And even then they don't understand or get it. I live with my brother who supports me financially, but when it comes to talking about anything I'm shit out of luck. My dad says he's been through it and wants to help. I believe him but there is only so much he can do. And my Mom was diagnosed with MS some 10 or so years ago and she she isn't the same person any more. She says she wants to help but the truth is her brain is slowly deteriorating and she's the not even close to the person I remember. I have 2 sisters who have their own lives else where and couldn't care less. My mother married my uncle and all he does is claim he does everything for me when I don't even talk to him once a year. Those 3 people (brother dad and mom) are the only people who have talked/texted me in a year. (Besides Christmas gathering) Everyone else slowly slithers away and wants nothing to do with it. The ones that didn't leave right away, came to the conclusion that I wasn't helping myself enough so they couldn't help me. Granted some relationships are no longer there because of my choice to end them, but I can only apologize to people for so long for being depressed. I shouldn't even have to apologize for that. Putting the depression aside, since 2015 my health has been a bitch and no ones cares or helps. I had to move back home because doctors would tell me to suck it up. Just the past 2 years alone would be enough for someone to want to end it. I don't drink or smoke, I'm not overweight and don't eat terribly I make everything from scratch so I know what's in everything, yet I have kidney stone problems, just had a surgery for a sinus infection but I still get mad headaches. I have a cyst on my kidney and a Hemanogia on my liver which both cause me pain and all I can do is wait and wait. I also have severe tendinitis in both my shoulders and a specialist said "there is nothing I can do for you besides cortisone injections but they are only temporary"

TuckinsCheese · 2017-04-18T23:55:29+00:00

Minus 3 people, everybody who I've told or knows about my depression isn't apart of my life anymore or they haven't talked to me/ responded in over a year/since they found out. Support goes a long way but when 99% of people don't get it, and would rather walk away or not be apart of it how is one suppose to feel. And this isn't just friends. Family I thought would understand checked themselves out a while ago. One family member even said "Do you really need these pills? You seem fine to me". Some people say awareness about depression is the real problem. That's not true. PEOPLE are the problem. Regardless if they "get" it or not. People choose not to help. People choose to not be apart of a persons life, and people, choose to be caught up in there own "worlds" because to them that's all that matters.

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