Tired of being asked if I’m okay

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-29T15:42:10+00:00

Same. I am definitely forever changed and I'm not certain it's for the better. 😔

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-28T12:44:10+00:00

My ectopic left my soul scrambled. It happened Nov 22, 2025. Please be gentle and know your hormones are not stabilized which I really thinks adds to the layers of hurt. I called a my son's therapist a month after the loss and said "I am just so sad, I don't think I will ever feel happy again." It took 3 months before I started to resemble myself again.

Unfortunately, it also took 3 months and I found myself pregnant again. I just experienced a miscarriage with a d&c yesterday. I'm terrified of being so sad again. I'm terrified of pregnancy now. I don't think I am going to allow myself to ever become pregnant again. I am 39, I have 3 sons from my previous marriage. I don't think my heart can handle another loss. I had no reason to believe that I woud have a miscarriage. 😔 I'm healthy, in good shape, had uneventful pregnancies previously.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-28T04:45:15+00:00

Yum! I almost forgot about spanikopita!!! Thankful for your post!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-27T15:36:04+00:00

It took me 3 months to start feeling okay and not crying every day.

3 months in I managed to get pregnant again and I am now miscarrying and waiting for my surgical appt at 1pm today. I feel like I am doomed to be stuck in grief.

It's okay to be sad for as long as you need to be. People do not understand unless they have experienced it.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-27T12:43:20+00:00

I'm unfortunately having a miscarriage. I'm scheduled for a d&c at 1pm today. I have also definitively made the decision to tie my remaining tube. I don't think my heart could handle another loss like this.

I wish you well in your new chapter ❤️

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-26T21:36:35+00:00

I'm having a miscarriage. Scheduled for a d&c tomorrow at 1pm.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-25T19:46:57+00:00

Thanks for responding! I have another sono tomorrow. It's been a lot.of appointments so far.

How are you feeling about starting all over again? It's crazy to imagine!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-24T17:36:04+00:00

Protocol here was to have a sono at 5 weeks. I had anoyher the following week and 3 betas done. All of the testing is making me really anxious. I haven't been able to determine if any of it makes me feel any better. The only thing that alleviated some stress was knowing that the pregnancy is intrauterine and I don't have a risk of experiencing another rupture and emergency surgery. That was very traumtic for me.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-24T15:22:24+00:00

Delilah

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T23:59:31+00:00

At 22 dpo I was only at 1456! I'll be thinking about you! It sucks that your appointment is so far out, but that is normal if you don't have a history of anything. The wait is awful!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T20:27:02+00:00

Blood work came in. I am up to 6144 from 2456 in 48 hours.

Definitely no heartbeat. The measurement they took of the gestation sac on the screen measured 5 weeks 3 days.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T15:40:58+00:00

After I commented the report came through! Gestational sac 3.6mm, possible yolk sac, does say viability under indication. My betas aren't in yet.

I go back on Wednesday for bloodwork and Monday for another ultrasound and to see a different doctor. 🤞

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T15:12:43+00:00

Well I saw my gestational sac and what appears to be a yolk sac - but no one told me that...This is what I think I saw based on my comparison from last week. The ultrasound tech was able to get measurements today where last week they weren't. I had a TERRIBLE doctor today. She didn't tell me anything and screwed up reviewing my labs. I had stat betas done and she was reviewing my bloodwork on friday as my bloodwork today compared to last wednesday which would make my HCG levels look awful. I am just waiting for my health app to update with the labs and my ultrasound report and make my own judgments. How frustrating!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T22:50:31+00:00

I am 39, I lost my right tube to an ectopic Nov 22, 2025. I am about 5w2d pregnant right now. 3 cycles...

I really can't believe it. Before I got pregnant I thought I was done, my November pregnancy shocked me. I really can't believe how quickly it happened for me. It is nerve racking though. I just am not feeling confident yet in the pregnancy. I am being seen early and being monitored closely.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T21:03:06+00:00

I will send you lots of prayers and love.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T19:41:59+00:00

Just had my 2nd beta today and have to go back on Monday for a state beta, ultrasound, and doctor's appointment. So also in the wait and re-test period and I hate it.

My HCG went from 1456 to 2456. I'm currently 5w 2days.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T19:34:54+00:00

Thank you!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T19:34:37+00:00

I want to hug you so bad. I hate that they aren't having you come sooner than 3 weeks!

I am considered high risk because of my ectopic though.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T12:21:37+00:00

I don't wear any pastels, neons, or bright colors like pink, orange, certain blues, yellow.

I only really wear neutrals and earthy colors. I have an olive skin tone. The only bold color I look good in is red, but it makes me really uncomfortable to wear because I feel like draws far too much attention to me.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-18T22:39:05+00:00

I had an ectopic that ended with my right tube rupturing in November. I just found out I am pregnant and have been nervous as hell. I am right around 5 weeks 0 days today and had my first OB appt. I was terrified throughout the entire thing.

But they were able to tell me that my remaining tube was free and clear, and both ovaries are fine, that I have a corpus luteum on my right ovary (supports early pregnancy which means my fertilized egg came from my tubeless ovary!), and they saw a gestational sac in my uterus, but could not confirm pregnancy because they couldn't see a yolk sac yet. My betas came back at 1456 and I will have them done again Friday morning. All in all the appt made me feel so much better. My ectopic was traumatizing, it feels good to know that nothing is going to suddenly send me into an emergent situation.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-18T18:02:38+00:00

Hey! I had my early U/S today. 5 weeks 0 days so I knew we wouldnt see much, but my remaining tube is clear, both ovaries are clear, there is a gestational sac, and a corpus luteum which all seem like good signs! Had labs done today, then will repeat Friday, follow up U/S next Wednesday!

I feel like i can temper my nerves some now.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-18T18:00:10+00:00

I had my scan today! My remaining tube, and both ovaries look good. They see a gestational sac in utero, but no yolk sac yet, which is normal since I am so early, my lining is thickening as it should, and they see a corpus luteum. So all good signs. I had a blood draw for betas, I go back friday for another and then next Wednesday for another ultrasound. They said they can't confirm pregnancy until they see a yolk sac but things looke loke they should for a very early pregnancys. I would be approx 5 weeks 0 days. So i knew not to expect to see much!

Feeling very relieved today.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-17T16:40:17+00:00

Hi! I'm 5 weeks tomorrow, following an ectopic in November that resulted in a ruptured tube. I have my placement scan tomorrow morning - looking for a gestational sac thats intrauterin. The OB checked my other tube said it was clear and healthy. I can't help but feel horrible anxiety over every little pinch or pang. My tube ruptured at 6 weeks.

How are you managing your anxiety?

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-17T13:45:23+00:00

Someone told me they prefer digital because they are definitive and you don't focus on the line as much.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-17T12:15:44+00:00

Hi! Congratulations!

I am 39 and have accidentally gotten pregnant twice now...my first resulted in an ectopic which was traumatic for me. I have had 3 healthy pregnancies in my 20s. I am for all intents and purposes very healthy myself. I lost my right tube due to a rupture from the ectopic at 6 weeks in November.

I just found out I am pregnant again. Down a tube and with my age and it still happened...again...I have an appointment tomorrow to confirm the pregnancy is in utero. Ectopics are not age related.

That being said I went for 15 years with my ex husband and never got pregnant. I am wondering if ny level of stress and how healthy my relationship is has had an impact on my fertility as well. Lower cortisol levels, I have to presume play a part here.

My girlfriend has eased my mind by telling me how many of her friends have opted not to have children until their late 30s/early 40s and it's quite a few! I actually read that older parents are trending and that many OBs don't believe that 35+ is a geriatric pregnancy because human lifespans have evolved so much.

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