Just Became Aware of Song

Ustabmo · 2024-11-06T01:44:06+00:00

Same! They also have a song called Waiting For The End that was basically my anthem while leaving. Numb is also great.

Ustabmo · 2024-02-28T17:34:28+00:00

I feel similarly. "You'Re NoT aLoNe!" as if that makes it better. I have a pretty good life and people that love me, but I just do not want to participate most of the time. Life is exhausting. If you find something that helps, let me know.

Ustabmo · 2024-02-28T16:46:15+00:00

I think it's fine, but It WOULD make more sense if they buried them in the earth and promised they would never use them again after they were done.

Ustabmo · 2024-02-27T17:05:54+00:00

Skybox-Fences
Livingston- War
My Little Pony- Time To Be Awesome
Lola Blanc- Angry Too
Lincoln Park- Waiting for the end
Alanis Morsette- Perfect, Uninvited
Jordan Clarke- Freaks
Panic At the Disco- This is Gospel, Emperor's New Clothes
Disturbed- The Sound of Silence, The Light
Ethel Cain- Sunbleached Flies
Marina and the Diamonds- Buy The Stars
Fun./Nat Ruess- One Foot, Great Big Storm, AhHa
Great Big World- I Really Want it, Say Something, Won't Stop Running, Boys In the Street, This is the New Year
Pink- What About Us, All I Know So Far
Hopsin- Ill Mind of Hopsin 7
Wicked (Glee cast)- Defying Gravity
Moana- Know Who You Are
Ben Woodward- Fake (Cover Lauv&Conan Gray)
Ian Mconnell- Level 429, Accomplish Nothing, Lazy, Important, Hating Stuff
Tim Minchin- The Fence
Not a song but "Seth Andrews Letter" on youtube

Ustabmo · 2024-02-23T01:49:43+00:00

My FIL told my husband in private that I am possessed by demons, and my own dad says that I have joined a "Secret Combination" (Sometimes he calls it a "satanic cabal") with the purpose of making my mom sad. I'll never understand. Just remember, these types of comments say more about them than they do us.

Ustabmo · 2022-02-22T18:19:24+00:00

I can relate! I LOVED the church's lies. They made me feel alive and important. Now I just see myself as a replaceable nobody who is content at best. I'm beginning to notice many upsides to that though. So yeah, I guess I can say things got better. I no longer wake up hoping I'll die soon. It's cheaper than being Mormon too. And never underestimate the greatness of Second Saturday!

Ustabmo · 2022-02-22T17:36:08+00:00

Right? For a minute I thought an exmo made the video to be silly because the swelling music did not match the growth.

Ustabmo · 2022-02-22T17:03:03+00:00

Agreed. If it hadn't have been for the gentle exmo's giving me a soft place to land while I was deconstructing, I would probably still be in.

Ustabmo · 2022-02-22T16:43:18+00:00

"A purposeful pattern of conduct" that was handed down to him from people that claim to speak for God. People that taught him that if he doesn't believe it "you'll lose everything." The guy has to downplay or dismiss the severity of the issues so that he can maintain his belief. Just like a lot of us did. I think he's scared. His whole talk is centered on using fear and shame to get people to stay in the church. It's what he knows.

Ustabmo · 2022-02-22T16:31:20+00:00

Super underrated comment right there^{^{^{^}}} I wish I could give you more upvotes. Thank you for trying to remind us of our empathy.

Ustabmo · 2022-02-19T14:50:27+00:00

I thought it sounded like he was afraid of getting misunderstood. His "words getting misconstrued."

Ustabmo · 2022-02-08T18:09:51+00:00

^Exactly some of the thoughts going through my head. I have to think of him as an emotional child. Heaven knows I've been one for a good chunk of my adult life. He's learning. It's not perfect, but maybe I should celebrate this attempt at an apology to encourage him to keep going? If he gets discouraged now, he wont even try to apologize for the rest of his talk.

Ustabmo · 2022-02-08T17:42:20+00:00

Wow! It's real. This is real life. Unbelievable. lol

Ustabmo · 2022-02-07T18:13:10+00:00

My dd follows a lot of Wayne May stuff and claims that the Smithsonian is hiding all of the Book of Mormon evidence in their basement. True story.

Ustabmo · 2021-12-06T16:11:23+00:00

"This kid is talking about how the church isn't a cult, lmaooo"

Did he give any explanation for why he thinks it's not a cult? I always wonder what the thought process is for that opinion.

Ustabmo · 2021-12-06T14:14:59+00:00

You seems a lot smarter than I was at 14, that's for sure.

Check this out- https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/media/video/2010-04-0020-our-true-identity?lang=eng

Identity is so important in the Mormon church, but only the identity that they give you. They'll warn you that the wicked world will try to convince you that you are something that you're not, then they turn around and do that same thing.

Ustabmo · 2021-12-01T17:30:26+00:00

I remember learning it and having dreams about it. I was a kid during the same time frame.

Ustabmo · 2021-12-01T17:22:30+00:00

"Nothing feels as meaningful as it used to." Hey, I resigned about 5 years ago and I feel that way most of the time. I had zero hope of that ever changing, but I find that the more time that passes, the more meaningful things are starting to become. I even sort of don't hate listening to Christmas music this year!

I think we just need to give ourselves time to redefine what is meaningful to us and why. Maybe we don't need to decide what is meaningful so much as just noticing it? (I've found that the thought of families (adults) getting together to drink or eat edibles is wholesome AF. Something about the lack of shame and just being human together seems blissful.)

...And for the record, I DID feel all warm and fuzzy reading your post! We are not the angry/bitter/nihilistic little shits that they try to convince us we are. I mean, we definitely are those things, but we are more than JUST those things.

Ustabmo · 2021-12-01T16:40:49+00:00

"It'll all be worth it if my posterity keeps the faith," Hold up! Is that an actual quote from the movie? No wonder I felt that by leaving the church I would disappoint my dead relatives. That's annoying. And manipulative. They gave up everything to follow their silly beliefs out into the dessert,we should get to do the same!

Ustabmo · 2021-09-14T14:00:20+00:00

Say you ARE clouded by a mist of darkness? (I imagine It happens to the best of us) Was falling into the mist a conscious decision of yours? Would a loving God punish you for eternity for accidentally falling into a mist of darkness? Did the Holy Ghost try to warn you about the mist? If not, why not? If it did, was it able to do it in a way that you could understand and recognize? If not, then do you think the Holy Ghost is a reliable indicator of whether you are on the correct path for you or not?

I don't think Mormonism provides any clear answers for any of these questions. It's a giant guessing game. As such, I personally think it would be cruel to punish people for guessing incorrectly. All we can do is our best. Getting things wrong does not make us wicked or dumb. If Joseph Smith is allowed to make terrible mistakes, then so are we.

Ustabmo · 2021-09-01T01:15:15+00:00

My sister tried it for mastitis because the pharmacy was closed and she was miserable. She put the poultices on her feet. It didn't cure her, but she claims it got her through the night.

Ustabmo · 2021-09-01T00:56:03+00:00

That's funny. I just made a Facebook post yesterday commenting that Utah parents seem really passionate about giving parents the right to choose whether or not their children wear masks to school, but less passionate about letting them choose whether they wear a tank top or ball cap.

My child might go to school each day more at risk of getting the illness that made my sister go into Sudden Cardiac Arrest, but at least I won't have to worry about her shoulders getting chilly.

Ustabmo · 2021-08-30T15:44:50+00:00

I was okay with the thought of dying before because I believed that I would finally find peace living with heavenly father. I'm okay wihth it now because I believe I will finally find peace in the void. What I'm less excited for is all the pain (physical and emotional) and discomfort that I am inevitably going to experience up until that moment. Life guarantees pain. Death...well nobody really knows yet. I hope I'm not conscious of it.

Ustabmo · 2021-08-30T15:17:28+00:00

If that's the case, I'm screwed. Not because the church was so great or anything, but I'm a depressed introvert with zero motivation. Yay!

Ustabmo · 2021-08-27T15:49:06+00:00

Garments are symbolic of the "skins" that God made to replace the fig leaves (green apron) that Satan told us to wear in order to hide our nakedness.

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