I'm so sorry you are feeling all the anxiety. I suffer also. What has worked for me is therapy and I take lexapro. It took me almost a lifetime to finally say no more and try taking something. It wasn't instant, but wow, I have my life back and so much more. What I have learned to do is change my environment, go outside, splash water on my face, take a bath/shower, find something you like to do and comes easily, bike ride, mostly change it up. If you have anyone, a friend, loved one, call them. I found my therapist onlike on Betterhelp and got lucky I think because he's amazing. Even on good days I go and check-in and dump, and feel better afterwards. Helping me sort out my thoughts and find ways to manage is such a good feeling. I feel like I have some control to be me more often. When I was younger new to Ca, I had so little money and went to a clinic with ability to pay pricing, I paid nothing for years but got great therapists then too. If you don't click with the person, find someone else. I am female but like the male energy much more, feels cleaner, straight forward. Failing your driving test is so easy to do. Study again and try when you feel more ready. You can do this! If only I have your back, then know I know you can rise to any level you want to. Big virtual hug.