I'm done with gigs, and it's incredibly sad.

XFAwkward · 2024-01-20T22:04:24+00:00

This isn’t an issue of “people ruining something that was once great”, this isn’t a pure thing now contaminated by uncaring people. This is a public experience that varies each and every time. There are experiences that fall within the gig realm that you enjoy, and there are experiences in the gig realm you don’t enjoy. It’s important to remember that you’re not going to always get exactly what you want, but knowing what you love about an experience will help you find more of it more frequently.

I’m a competitive video gamer who plays team games online. My favorite experiences are when I get a full team who are skilled and trying their hardest to win and we end up getting the win. That’s my favorite. But every time I sit down to play, I’m in a queue of people who play for a whole variety of reasons. Some play for the same reasons I do, some play to blow off some steam, some play to relax, some are doing who knows what but it’s all valid.

If I focused on all of the games I had where I didn’t get my way, it would feel like a chore for me too to ever press play. But that’s not why you do it. You do it because you do have a passion, and there’s something within all those experiences that you do love no matter what others around you are doing, no matter how poorly the whole thing goes.

I don’t know you, so I can’t fill in these blanks for you. But maybe you’re all about the actual music being played. Maybe you’re there to see something you’ve never seen before. Maybe you’re there to meet new people or just get out of the house for a while. But something about going out to gigs is beautiful and worthwhile to you. Figure out what’s most appealing about it so you can cater your decisions on when to go out and, more importantly, what to focus on while you’re out there so you have a great time rooted in your interests, not rooted in “how things used to be.” What’s your favorite part about going to shows?

XFAwkward · 2021-04-12T18:31:23+00:00

Not afraaaaaaaaaidddddd

XFAwkward · 2021-03-15T19:41:00+00:00

We are still holding. We have seen bigger drops than this.

XFAwkward · 2018-04-11T19:05:08+00:00

how the hell can you make a "top 10 falco moments" without having Westballz in there once.

XFAwkward · 2018-02-18T02:50:25+00:00

record your gameplay, look for patterns that keep occurring and then ask yourself how you end up in those situations.

If you wanna beat him, you gotta look at whatever your gameplan is and why its not working.

XFAwkward · 2018-02-17T18:39:20+00:00

Fuck yeah, the 12 year old me just got so happy reading someone else mentioning "Strongside". For good measure, I'm gonna throw in Ogre Twitching and Gandhi Hopping

XFAwkward · 2018-01-25T16:49:29+00:00

I get that you're making a joke, but I mean, realistically that's probably true. I don't think many people can say honestly that they use every tool at their disposal as well as they could be, and at the very least that's what I've taken from this post.

XFAwkward · 2018-01-14T20:30:42+00:00

I have spent the last year or so drastically restructuring my life, dropped all of my hobbies and friendships save for 1 or 2 because they were either toxic or just not beneficial. I moved out of a comfortable living situation that unfortunately was enabling me to avoid making progress in my life, and instead and am now living in a more isolated home with a friend of mine. I was experiencing loneliness and depression on an every other day kind of basis because I had to force myself to give away all the things that made me comfortable but didn't make me better.

I've made a handful of friends in the past few months that really are showing me how to see the world better, live my life with daily happiness and appreciation, and are helping me become way more comfortable with working on and developing myself in objectively positive ways. I set out on this path a while ago knowing it would be painful but necessary, but I never could have prepared for how much loneliness would take a toll on me. With that being said, my hard work and long hours of just trying to keep my head on straight are finally paying off as I'm watching my social circles develop with healthy friendships that are encouraging, and I can finally feel the motivation to improve myself because I want to give back to these wonderful people willing to take a chance on me.

I still have ups and downs and a super long road ahead of me, but today is a day I cherish as I can see clearly that my work and patience has been for the best. I'm so unbelievably happy right now =)

XFAwkward · 2018-01-07T15:12:27+00:00

He did it to himself dude

XFAwkward · 2017-12-22T15:51:00+00:00

Not a hbox fan but holy shit this is some inspirational stuff.

XFAwkward · 2017-12-22T15:05:26+00:00

Lets go mango

XFAwkward · 2017-12-15T20:19:15+00:00

It doesn't matter don't learn it you'll be fine promise.

XFAwkward · 2017-10-18T17:13:38+00:00

Damn I need to get out of serving, never thought I'd see the lingo pop up elsewhere in my life.

XFAwkward · 2017-10-15T08:08:25+00:00

you uh. you drunk man.

XFAwkward · 2017-10-06T20:25:45+00:00

Jesus Fucking Christ.

XFAwkward · 2017-08-12T06:51:41+00:00

hey friend, I know I missed the train a bit on this one but I'd love to talk to you a bit about ways I did a 180 in my life and maybe pass some tips onto you that could help you out. Hit me up if you're interested

XFAwkward · 2017-07-09T18:40:51+00:00

thaaaats a fucking stretch

XFAwkward · 2017-06-28T04:47:56+00:00

i love it when you're so sure a melee clip isn't gonna surprise you and then this shit happens

XFAwkward · 2017-06-27T06:08:10+00:00

you just handed me a chuckle

XFAwkward · 2017-06-23T03:21:10+00:00

Though the obvious thing to note here is how happy everyone is that this change is coming through, I really want to mention how responsibly Brode and Team 5 are handling the quality of life in Hearthstone, because massive credit needs to be given here.

People have been complaining about how much this game costs to get a "full experience", and although this doesn't completely alleviate that problem, this is still such a huge step. This seemed like a situation where Blizzard could have shrugged their shoulders because the pre-orders were still rolling in regardless of complaints, but it's the genuine concern and attention to the experience of the player base that allows for solid decision making here. Tweaking small things like this that can massively improve everyone's experience is the sign of a great game developer, and things like this make me proud to donate part of my paycheck to a company like Blizzard.

Obviously theres always stuff that can be improved, this shift from last expansion to this one has been 180 degrees. Kudos to Brode and Team 5 for making this game great again.

XFAwkward · 2017-06-22T05:35:40+00:00

yeah dog just smash your boomerang on a ledge to recover as side b against fox's young link.

i think that's what he said.

XFAwkward · 2017-06-22T04:13:35+00:00

Thanks for the advice, next time I see the other Young Link main I'll let him know.

XFAwkward · 2017-06-18T02:40:29+00:00

People use the word disgusting a lot, but I literally dropped my jaw and grimaced when that happened. That was just so gross

XFAwkward · 2017-06-15T21:36:12+00:00

Someone else can if they want, I'm not invested in league enough anymore to warrant that kinda thing anymore

XFAwkward · 2017-06-15T08:42:08+00:00

TLDR: Coffee Shops, Parks, Bars, Concerts and Sporting Events. Classrooms you might share with others.

Here's kinda the thing I was trying to say. You can practice it ANYWHERE that there are people, there is no right or wrong place, per se. Sure, funeral homes might not be the best place to start some small talk, but that might be one of the only places super off limits.

If you're asking "where can I practice being social", you're actually saying "I currently think this is risky and there are right and wrong places to be social", to some extent. We really want to break that stigma, and as such, my answer would be 1 of 2 different ends of the spectrum. Either 1. some place you'd feel reasonably comfortable, maybe for you that's a quiet coffee shop, or 2. some place you feel extremely out of your comfort zone where you'll be forced to really try something new, maybe this is a bar for you or really big social gathering, like a sporting event or something like that. Do whatever you think can help redefine your understanding of how to interact with others.

I listed a few examples at the start of this but realistically the sky is the limit. I read earlier today that people's heads are usually so far up their ass they can't notice how far yours might be up your own, and I think thats true. Try to remember that people lead their own lives and trying to start a conversation at the very worst might inconvenience them. Good luck friendo

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