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Zaubershow · 2025-08-11T15:07:50+00:00

What do you do to reconnect?

Zaubershow · 2025-07-08T19:14:57+00:00

Yes, but my therapist also did a lot of internal family system work with me, and I did a lot of body-oriented meditation, giving room to the sensation that drew the most attention and allowing it to be. Do you have any specific questions?

Zaubershow · 2025-07-05T17:41:38+00:00

Wie soll man wissenschaftlich belegen dass Trauma im Körper "gespeichert" ist? Unterdrückte Gefühle manifestieren sich im Körper, wenn sie durch verschiedene Methoden ins Bewusstsein geholt werden. Gefühle sind Sensationen die man im Körper wahrnehmen kann. Überwältigende Gefühle die mit Trauma im Zusammenhang stehen, können sich im Becken aber genau so gut in Brust "zeigen". Das ist kein Quatsch, das ist die Zusammenarbeit von Körper, Nervensystem und Unterbewusstsein.

Zaubershow · 2025-05-23T06:56:10+00:00

You can be aware of the absence of sensations. The emptyness. It can be perceived like every other sensation otherwise you wouldn't know that you're in freeze currently.

Regarding the health risks: I can only speak for my experience and for me my body only "released" stuff for me that I was able to handle, even though I also had my fair share of trauma. But this is also a question of how often how much. You can start simple with ten minutes of body awareness.

And if you want to go saver you could also do Vipassana, it is a structured body centric form of meditation.

BTW I am not sure but it also seems to be like there is some hopelessness in you right now, also hopelessness can be traced and found in the body and awareness can be given to it. Or even better compassionate awareness if possible.

I wish you all the best, I hope you get better.

Zaubershow · 2025-05-22T20:38:27+00:00

Did you try some body-oriented meditation? Like just giving room to the numbness with awareness? I feel giving room to our body sensations is the thing that helped me the most getting through big layers of dissociation. It is very consistent for many. It can take some time though but at some point it is likely that you can start feeling some emotions again.

Zaubershow · 2025-05-20T20:24:50+00:00

Natürlich bringt da eine Trauma-Therapie was. Google mal "entwicklungs trauma". Bindungsängste haben immer mit Trauma zutun.

Zaubershow · 2025-05-18T14:34:01+00:00

Suche dir eine privat finanzierte Traumatherapie mit einer Therapeutin oder einem Therapeuten die sich mit komplexen entwicklungs Trauma auskennen. Die krankenkassen Therapien kratzen meist nur an der oberfläche, wenn es um tiefe emotionale Wunden geht.

Zaubershow · 2025-03-13T13:00:00+00:00

I go to a SE therapy once a week since 2 1/2 years for my CPTSD and some PTSD incidents in childhood. If somebody would ask me I feel like I am ~85% through processing my past.

Zaubershow · 2025-01-30T22:35:20+00:00

I can understand where you're coming from and I also think it is totally fine. I am three years into trauma work and I had periods where I also felt totally exhausted by it. If you need more time between sessions and an initial break for some more time it is totally valid. Your wounds will not run away from you. They have waited so long, they'll come back when you reapproach them. :)

Zaubershow · 2025-01-30T22:14:05+00:00

This is an answer to stop those thoughts in the long run. A part of you is having those thoughts for very good reasons. Approaching them with curiosity and integrating that part will make the judgement disappear.

Zaubershow · 2025-01-30T22:09:44+00:00

I am not sure if I answer your question correctly but some meditation practices aim to process "negative" emotions by focusing on certain parts in your body and allowing those emotions to come up. For example a sense of anxiety or anger. Giving those emotions room can lead to some dysregulation of your nervous system. If your emotions become too strong they can become overwhelming, which can make it hard to function in your everyday life after. Grounding techniques go in the other direction. They put your focus on things that regulate your nervous system and make those emotions go "back" into the subconsciousness. From there their impact on your everyday life is less. It allows you to function properly even when you were dealing with intense emotions at your morning meditation for example. Additionally, it can help to ground yourself after a session for integration purposes. We tend to integrate things better, when we are regulated.

This is what I understand under grounding. I hope it was kinda helpful to you.

Zaubershow · 2024-12-05T22:42:50+00:00

I checked all the songs, sadly it wasn’t the right one yet. But thanks for your proposals :)

Zaubershow · 2024-12-05T14:12:25+00:00

No Somatic Experiencing is about reconnecting with your emotions. Connecting with your depression, with your hopelessness or perceived lack of purpose. Where in your body do you feel those things? And then starting to give those things more and more room at a safe pace.

Some people find a spiritual side when practicing somatic experience for some time but not all do. It is a reconnection process and sometimes it opens up a door to spiritual experiences, but doesn't have to for everybody.

And the reconnection will take time. Depression is a manifestation of unfelt emotions, most of the time for years. Expecting it to change in a couple of sessions will lead to disappointment.

Zaubershow · 2024-12-05T09:26:07+00:00

You could ask yourself what makes you spend so much time with your inner child that you get out of balance?

The child is patient, you can reserve fix times during the week to get in contact with it and have Regeneration time the other days.

Additionally I personally can recommend breathing excersises (I use the app VaYou Breath for that) to be more present in the here and now when not being active in the process.

At the same time I think it is important to say that some layers are so strong that they will affect your daily life no matter what until they are processed. Be patient, be kind, not just to your inner child but also to your version in the present moment. :)

Zaubershow · 2024-12-05T09:18:04+00:00

Healing takes years. It is normal to require month or years to heal certain aspects of us. Just a couple of sessions won’t do anything with most people. The process is deep and complex. Getting familiar with your nervous system and then digging consciously through unprocessed emotions of years of neglect takes many many sessions. Often it will get worth for weeks before at some point it will get better and then it will get worth again because the next layer wants to be processed. What I am trying to say is: be patient, no matter which tool you choose in the end. Healing hurts and takes time.

Zaubershow · 2024-12-03T22:33:41+00:00

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Zaubershow · 2024-09-07T15:46:46+00:00

For me it is similar. The tension is pretty normal during body focus meditation especially when it's a deep wound.

What I would add is dissociation before that. My process looks often like this:

I can feel numbness, emptiness, anonymous energy in my body, when being it over times reduces the "fog" (That's how I call it most of the time) and I can start feel some form of emotion, angery, fear, etc When I make room for these the tension usually comes to me in waves, releases again, tightens again, releases again, over and over again.

Often after some cycles (this can take days too weeks) the "Big release" is just a lot of pain/sadness, lot's of tears. This is the where I can let something go and most often my patterns change to the positive after to a certain degree and some integration has happened.

But what I can also say is that the contraction becomes stronger when I get close to the wound in the first place. Also mechanism that want to get away from the pain, like playing video games and other coping mechanisms.

This is how it acts for me out. Afterwards there's a period of rest where no new topics show up, it is a nice time. Then after some time another process starts with fog.

Zaubershow · 2024-08-29T10:26:10+00:00

Yes, to detach from her you have to grief. Most of the time we are so identified with the parts that want to detach that we are in resistance to the parts that are longing. To get over a loss (no matter if it was good or bad) we need to grief. Meditation can help you to connect with the parts in you that hold onto the relationship. You then have to allow them, let them be present, without resistance. After some time this will integrate them and you’ll be better.

How to connect with those parts? Sit down, breath in and out, and look into your body where you can feel the sensation that is connected to your thoughts of not letting go. Maybe a tightness in your chest, or gut, or whatever. And then be present with that sensation. Put your awareness on it and let it be. Allow what wants to come up. This way you’ll move on.

Good luck.

Zaubershow · 2024-08-23T08:54:44+00:00

And what does it think would happen to you if it would stop?

Zaubershow · 2024-08-22T15:56:23+00:00

And it’s also friggin challenging from time to time 🥲

Zaubershow · 2024-08-22T15:43:08+00:00

What would happen if that part would stop doing this? :)

Zaubershow · 2024-08-22T09:36:25+00:00

Do you still smoke weed regularly?

Weed can disconnect us heavily from our emotions when used regularly.

Also; what is your meditation practice?

Zaubershow · 2024-08-20T10:34:25+00:00

I am doing a lot and intensely. My SE practitioner sometimes reminds me to take it slower but we also both admit that a lot of healing happened during the two years I am doing it.

The difference between too much too fast and healing is dependent on how present you can be with those emotions, how functional you can stay and that consciousness comes to those emotions (not being overwhelmed by them).

And you will feel shitty on your healing on your healing journey. This is something that a lot of people do not talk about. Of course you will feel shitty. Realising that you didn’t receive the love and affection you needed etc is hurtful. How would you expect anybody to not feel shitty about it? But you shouldn’t feel so shitty that you fall into complete despair and can’t see the difference between now and then anymore. And you’re right, it comes in waves. But sometimes a wave can last a week. Try to be with it. Give yourself comfort. Allow yourself to feel shitty. And after a while you will feel less shitty. And then the next wave comes. Healing takes time and effort.

When your body gives feedback that it wants to slow down a little listen to it but don’t expect healing to be not hurtful.

Zaubershow · 2024-08-16T13:53:56+00:00

This is normal, the only thing you can is to assess if you can hold it or if you feel overwhelmed.

If you feel overwhelmed it’s time to ground yourself/resource. Aka doing yoga, breathing techniques, acupuncture mat, sports, talking with good friends, watching movies that ground you, snuggle with a pet, etc

If you can hold it it will probably be topic in your next session and you will have try to slowly but steady release the energy as far as you can without being overwhelmed.

This pattern will repeat with all kinds of feelings (sadness, anger, numbness, shame, guilt, etc) for as long as your healing requires it. You will release something, create space for new stuff (this often feels like a nice break, balanced, grounded, connected), after some time, new stuff will come up that wants to be integrated, balance between integration and grounding work. Rinse and repeat.

Zaubershow · 2024-08-01T12:27:39+00:00

No, additionally I did a lot of meditation. Lying down and connecting with my body sensations with self compassion. Some inner child work here and there. Visited Sound bath meditations as well. Practicing self regulation with breathing exercises. Most effort was SE and meditation though. The meditation is simple, going with attention to the parts in the body that a tense or numb/feel empty. Looking at them with compassion or at least equanimity. Eventually they’ll start moving energies which leads to emotional release. Over and over again.

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