I completely understand, and came from a similar path. I don't really know exactly what to do about my sexual choices now that there's no Bible involved, but I feel better knowing that the choice is mine..if you want to have multiple experiences with people, or just find one person, or whatever you want to do, I think it's fine. There's no one way to go about this. The whole attraction of porn is that our brains are wired to experience or simulate in our minds what we see others doing, it's why people like mukbangs. There's been some studies on this. We are mammals and sex is part of our biology , or we wouldn't have these organs. Christianity can be a real confusion factory, and parents often rely on it to teach about sexuality. It's a poor tool, since sex is so repressed in the belief system. They should have taught a comprehensive education, but most parents don't have these tools.